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It has been so long since I last update my blog properly..Kesian dear bloggy..hahaa..

So,as you guys know..I am still doing my FYP and I will be busy for the next 2 weeks.Hmm.So, its gonna be a very tiring week for me,this week and next.14 days straight! haha..but oh well,its ok.Setakut-takot me pon,I actually cant wait for production.I dunno why.Maybe its just that I cant wait to see all those that we have all worked so hard for,being paid off.Haha..I know everything is gonna be well..I know..Allah listens to my wishes..

Next,my days are all basically spend with angst,sadness and smiles.I shall not elaborate on each specific emotions but I will just say this.Without those,life will not be all that wonderful,right?But then,too much of those,I dun really like it.Its what you call not healthy..That is the same to the fights and arguments that oftenly happens.Too much of those,are not good.I hate having to re-evaluate my feelings and emotions again and again.

Next,sometimes,I hate to be too good and too nice.I know I am and I know I have the right to throw tantrum at times and be pissed at times but then again,I dun do so because I am scared.Because usually when I speak up,something bad is gonna happen.What I mean by those are fights,arguments and all.People will start hating me if I throw tantrum or when I try to tell them what Im not happy about.Its like I am not given the chance to explain or have feelings that are negative.Is that what it meant by free of speech and emotions? Because I dun feel I am free to feel all those wherever I am.

Next,I realise something about me.I play aroud too much.You see,I am attached but I play around all too much.I am suppose to have one guy but I happen to have many guys associated with me.Its like,whenever I talk to friends about a guy, they would have to ask me this, "which guy?". That just explains how sometimes I confused my own close friends about the guys.Not that I am saying I am popular among guys..I despise that statement aniwae.but its just my clique I think.I mean I am more comfortable being around guys because they are much more easier for me to understand and they are not nosy.When I say shut up,they shut up.Hhaa..I make them sounds like dogs!No,thats not what I meant but ya..Guys are better companion for a girl.

Next,people are shouting,yelling,telling me to go to see the doctor but up till now,I havent.Like what boyfriend alwaes says "Da brape bulan lepas you cakap the same thing,nanti nanti nanti!"I dunno why I always keep on delaying going to the doctor.I am not afraid of injections,I am not afraid of medicine(only dun like them).Maybe,the time I have to spend there at the polyclinic.Haha..I am not feeling well.My definition of not feeling well is this: I have flu on/off.I cough so much,I alwaes have a headache attacking 1 side of my head at just random times.There are more at times but right now,I cant really remember all.

Next,I havent been able to really sleep properly.What I mean is,I am back to getting my sound sleep.No waking up between sleeps.I need that in order to be able to wake up the next day.Now,every morning,I have to really discipline and force myself to wake up to go to school.And when I wake up,my body will be very very weak.Its really tiring.I need my real proper sleep with the waking up between the sleeps.I wish I wish..

Next,my appetite nowadaes will be what I categorise it as 'melampau'.I eat way too much that my mum alwaes say this "kau buaye kepe? tadi kan da makan ni nak makan lagi". I dunno.Everytime I see food,that is when I get hungry and my tummy will start to play music.And like right now,I really need to eat.I want to eat.I eat too much,but oh well,thats perfectly ok..The other time when I lost all my appetite,I think now its making up to the other time..And I hope to see an increase in my body weight the next time I weigh.I need to exercise already.Ive alwaes been saying it but then never really do anything about it.Maybe I shall.This coming Sunday.haha..

ok..So I have basically tell my bloggy whats wrong and right with me and how my life is about now.I need to say these few things to these people..:

Bf: I miss you.Meet up soon.Oh I forgot you are not booking out! Hmm!
Couz: Lets meet up soon.I wanna have lunch or dinner with you
Sis:Im sorry I cant follow you get your dress..
Zura:We shall plan an outing once my production is done.
Halifah: you dun think about anything anymore..
myself:dun think about it anymore.Dun let it seduced you.

Before I go off,I need to say something.Sometimes in life,you don't always get what you want.But at those certain times,if you were to try harder,you will get them but there are also those certain times that eventhough how hard you try.you still wont get anything.