A month of up and down

Hello bloggy sayang... Way tooo many things happened from the last time I posted. Fall out and in back again.. Hatred and pain.. OOh.. Too much.. Anyway.. I am sick again.. Whats with me and being sick kan.. Badan ni mcm nak rebah je.. Ttapi tqah will continue to be as strong as she possibly can!! You go girl! Hahaha.. So bloggy.. I have never been happier. It has been so long since I am able to let go and feel freedom in my hands.. Alhamdulillah my family understand that I am in full need of my on space time. And I am truly grateful that my deary Liyana and Kin are always there for me.. Being my rock through everything. Making me feel wonderful despite everything terrible being hurled at me. They never tried too much.. Just knowing the right thing to say and do at the right time. Oh. How I love them lots.. My colleagues.. Hahhahaha... They are my dearest.. How could I ever have survived all this without them. Since I have many of them here, the rock becomes bigger. I love to bits. I am grateful for their frendship, guidance and advise whenever needed. I might be the most naughty in the clique.. BUt I know deep down, I've always been treated like a baby.. Delicate one at it.. hahaha.. My family.. My everything. How they have stood by me through everything. How they love me through every single nonsense.. I can never and would never be able to replace them.. They are exclusively mine to keep.. (Selfish much? Yeah. I dun like sharing) To life.. I believe this is a roller coaster ride.. The past month, I have been stuck at the bottom with all the trash and rubbish. But you gave me people who care and love me to help push me up again. You gave me people who gave me strength to smile through every obstacle you throw my way.. I tried my best to endure through the pain. I tried my hardest to not complain.. Sometimes I fail nad i crumble.. But I know right now.. Im strong no matter what ou throw my way. To you who hated me and my guts.. Theres nothing more I have to say. I used to shower you with the pure emotions I have but I think its exhausted now. LOve became hatred and I have never seen it this way but if this is the game you wanna play, be careful it wont burn you one day. I consider now a blessing. A blessing I was given to love again.. To smile and be happy again.. For that.. Alhamdulillah..