If only

If only you knew how much ache I have felt
If only feelings can be described in words
Then you would understand better

If only you knew how important this is to me
If only you realize how deep this have gone to be
Then you would know better

Every moment,
Every second of my time
I wish you were here by me

Close
but not close enough
The pretense made it further than it should be
The hiding made it difficult than it already is

But through and through
I cant help falling deeper than I have been