How unfair

How much of a person can you trust? For me? Actually.. alot.. But it comes to a point where it fails me it became my worst enemy.. Life can be so unfair sometimes.. I dun want to sound like I am complaining.. But somehow, I know I am.. Bloggy, Life has been interesting.. A deep touch of rainbows everywhere.. I see flowers, I see unicorn.. Thats the kind of life I have now.. I feel really blessed for the human I cross path. But you know.. Behind every happiness, there's always a small black bad dot. A black dot, small enough to destry you.

A month of up and down

Hello bloggy sayang... Way tooo many things happened from the last time I posted. Fall out and in back again.. Hatred and pain.. OOh.. Too much.. Anyway.. I am sick again.. Whats with me and being sick kan.. Badan ni mcm nak rebah je.. Ttapi tqah will continue to be as strong as she possibly can!! You go girl! Hahaha.. So bloggy.. I have never been happier. It has been so long since I am able to let go and feel freedom in my hands.. Alhamdulillah my family understand that I am in full need of my on space time. And I am truly grateful that my deary Liyana and Kin are always there for me.. Being my rock through everything. Making me feel wonderful despite everything terrible being hurled at me. They never tried too much.. Just knowing the right thing to say and do at the right time. Oh. How I love them lots.. My colleagues.. Hahhahaha... They are my dearest.. How could I ever have survived all this without them. Since I have many of them here, the rock becomes bigger. I love to bits. I am grateful for their frendship, guidance and advise whenever needed. I might be the most naughty in the clique.. BUt I know deep down, I've always been treated like a baby.. Delicate one at it.. hahaha.. My family.. My everything. How they have stood by me through everything. How they love me through every single nonsense.. I can never and would never be able to replace them.. They are exclusively mine to keep.. (Selfish much? Yeah. I dun like sharing) To life.. I believe this is a roller coaster ride.. The past month, I have been stuck at the bottom with all the trash and rubbish. But you gave me people who care and love me to help push me up again. You gave me people who gave me strength to smile through every obstacle you throw my way.. I tried my best to endure through the pain. I tried my hardest to not complain.. Sometimes I fail nad i crumble.. But I know right now.. Im strong no matter what ou throw my way. To you who hated me and my guts.. Theres nothing more I have to say. I used to shower you with the pure emotions I have but I think its exhausted now. LOve became hatred and I have never seen it this way but if this is the game you wanna play, be careful it wont burn you one day. I consider now a blessing. A blessing I was given to love again.. To smile and be happy again.. For that.. Alhamdulillah..

Nobody's perfect

Hello bloggy. You know.. I haven't been feeling too good this past weeks. It was tiring, and too many things happened. Too many feelings and too many events happening over a short period of time. Bloggy, do you know what it feels like to want something so much but knowing they will never be yours? Why did it cross your path and became yours for a little while for it to be taken away from you soon after? I hate it and I hate everyone who's doing this to me. Someone said I'm too sweet and too kind. Loving something or someone and not expecting anything back. Well, that's stupidity if I were to call it. Pure stupidity. Who does soemthing without expecting anything in retun? Hahaha.. aching, heart is shredding and itBody is 's the kind of feeling where you wanna run and never stop and never looking back. Hoping that when you sleep, everything just became a dream so when I wake up, they are just nightmares. Not something I would have to live with. Wouldn't it be beatiful if life is a pencil with an eraser attached to it? You drawing whatever you want and erasing everhting that upsets you. I never regretted falling in love. Never. But If there's something I regret, that is to love someone too much and letting them get to you. Because you know why? It suck to be dependent on someone? It suck to have your mood-change affected because of someone. Well. Enough of this nonsense. No amount of complaining, ranting, whining and crying can solve anything. I have to stop being stupid for once and rectify things. But I won't start now.. Because I make mistake and i love this mistake though its hurting me.. That's just because NOBODY IS PERFECT!