They say. Everything that happened, they happened for a reason.. Allah will not take something from us except if HE has something better in store for us..
You gave this advise to every one who has problems.. Right until it hit you!
Taking in your own advise has never really been easy. Having someone say it to you countless times does not make anything any easier either..
I can't help but wonder.. Generally. Why is it so hard to please human? What am I doing sitting around trying my very best to please someone.. It's either they do or they dun.. A question is either a yes or a no..
It hurts. I am never denying it. But I have to stay strong for them who still believe in me. I have to live life for those who still needs me. However, like I say. Thinking and saying things, they are much easier than believing and truly doing it.
Come what may.. It can hurt like crazy.. I may cry buckets. I may breakdown and stay in depression mode.. But. If the decision made truly makes you happy. Truly pleases you.. Then I shall follow suit. Not bcoz I stopped caring. Not bcoz my heart stopped feeling. It's bcoz i cared so much and bcoz it feels too much for you that I am granting you this..
Until things are finalized, I will stay and hope. And pray. That the odds may be in my favor today.
Amiin..
