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Again and again I tell myself to be smart about things and never get my heart broken again.

No, its not that kind of broken, it is just painful and disappointment knowing that no one cares.

It is either I am just stupid before this and this have just stayed as a long service tenant in my life or the existence of a guy I truly love block all sanity and brain power to be thinking and acting smart.
I was often made felt like I am useless, stupid and needy and I truly need this to stop.

How exactly?

Stop loving and caring so much is certainly not an option. I was made that way and will never be able to change how I behave. Things are not right and certainly not great. I want to do something about it but urgh! I dunno what

Mungkin betol la... Jadi bodoh akhirnye

My purple Laptop

How much happier can I possibly be?  Blessed with  a great partner and one I wouldn't trade with anything at all. (Well.. I'll think again about the shoes and bags).. So.. basically, never have I expect I will be those kind of girl who will be getting a surprise with something she has been dreaming and wanting for a while now.

Today bloggy, I am that girl. I was surprised with a Purple HP laptop which I have been eyeing for some time now. Boyfriend had been there listening to my struggle, seeing my heart and head arguing (like its not normal) about whether I should be getting this Baby or not.

Not, darling got for me instead, He knows I am in love with this lappy and he got it for me.

My my.. How much do I love this guy. I dun run around being materialistic.. But this laptop.. Let this be a symbol or how much he loves me. Let this laptop remind me constantly that my boyfriend loves me and that no matter how much of an arse I become, he will still love me.

I cannot say it enough, But thank you syg.. I love you.. and I love my Baby.