Dream!

Ok.I realized that I've been going home late almost everyday.And I mean really2 late..According to someone,late to him means it must be after midnight..But my parent's late is when its after 7..Haaa..Laugh people if you want to..But seriously,I dun find it funny..I respect them for that.Back..I've been going home late and having very little rest.I pamper my body so much that it can't even take less than 6 hours of sleep..but I'm trying to fight it..Heh..

Went to Bugis with sis justnow and heh..I spend on myself..Thank goodness I've got savings.If not,I'll just be seeing sis shop all her stuffs.Bought a few things and haha..I'm happy!!So people,next time when I'm not in the mood,bring me go shopping k..Then you can see me smiling from ear to ear..Hee..

Watched Ayat-ayat cinta justnow and wow!!!the movie was sooooo nice la..Fantastic I would say.And people..I DID NOT CRY!!!!haha..except for this particular part where the wife allow the hubby to marry again..but seriously ah,the movie was really a good one..4/5 rating..If only the sound was clearer and the quality better,then I think it would be a movie without flaws..Good job!!

And now,since TQAH got nothing to do,she is going to dream!!!!And dream!!!!And dream!!!!

I miss you

I miss the surrounding
I miss the laughter, jokes
I miss the places
I miss the fights, shouting
Most importantly, I miss them
and the sincerity of that friendship

I miss the trainings
I miss the lame jokes
I miss laughing hardly
I miss the hangouts
I miss you all,, even when its only 5 minutes since we last met
Most importantly, I miss the fun and you people all

I miss the soccer match
I miss my after training
I miss dancework time
I miss what happened next
I miss the touch
I miss the laughter
I miss you..you.you.
If only you knew

I miss that moment
I miss that thought
I miss that smile
I miss the feeling of it all
I miss you even when its only 5 minutes since we last met!

Kicking Is Super Sport..Wth!!

Should I call it a bad or good one?In fact,I've realized that the end of May this year is not a good one..

Wake up today at 0740 when I actually have my OSM test at 0800..Ya,I panicked.But thank goodness,I manage to do the paper,sice its an open book one.DSA was great eventhough I was struggling not to fall asleep during the class.EC was pathetic.The class was sooo ok.But when Fah leave me alone at the back,stupid things happen.

I was sitting listening to the lecturer talk while writing down notes when this mind of mine remind me of that one particular moment..Stupid..stupid..stupid!!!And I've been living the whole day today,sighing at that thought.Well,not that I hate the thought but it's just that its so clearly etched into my mind padahal this is just suppose to be a 'do-and-go' thing..How can I be still thinking about the whole thing??

Thanks for having Zura and Wani after school to accompany me and for that few hours,I was freed from any thoughts..Pictures of them taken but I lazy to upload..Maybe soon aite..then maybe I display at my next blog post.

In the bus alone again and now I am alone again.Why is the moment keep flashing back..It had better go away by tomorrow..

Is it better to let go?

Concentrate..no i cant!!

For the very first time,I actually bother to look up the internet for the lyric of that song and ha ha..I just had to laugh..Funny2 lyric..

Start off with WPDP class,Shamin,,you make me talk nonsense and think nonsensical things ok??Thats really bad of you..Fah,you know it too eh??Boys!!

Next DSA lecture,I wasn't even listening to what the lecturer was saying.Haiz..To the person who distracted me from doing so,you'd better be guilty!!ahha..joking.

Went home under the rainy rainy sky..Smiling as I walk home and singing to certain songs that were playing on my handphone..What a great life I have?

And I'm missing someone.....Haha..And that person is............

Funny2 thing

And once again,I went home with Jannah and Aameer..It has been so long since I last went home with them..Hee..Fun2..And yeap,I miss talking like justnow with them.Hee..If you know what I mean..

Well,let's see..Today was fine.Attend school per normal.Went to training like every other Monday.Nothing special really happen.Except for the fact that I laughed alot today due to some topics which you could consider funny when thinking back about it.Hahaha..Yea..In class,in MCG and everywhere else..The thoughts never fail to make me giggle like a stupid ass for the past days.Haha.

Yeah..Again,I was shocked by a question from 'darling'(you know who you are) justnow. I didn't think you would ask me that question but obviously you did..And I told you the truth and only the truth.Dunno why I can be truthful about that matter,especially to you yourself.Heh..

People have been talking about it.A big issue I would say.See how a small issue could be so BIG..and how news can spread really damn fast..

And I should be affected by it but trust me,suddenly I feel so immune to it and one thing I can say..

YOU MADE IT HAPPEN.AND YA..FACE IT!WANT ME TO COME ALONG??SURE,I WOULD LOVE TO AND ....!HAHAHA..!!

And ya,in case anyone understands,ATIQAH is coming back..I dunno if she is staying long but she's creeping out slowly..heeee...

Woohohoho...

Thanks so much Rya for the pics..

HAHA....looking at the pics back really gives me a good hard laugh..
haha...I dunno ehy but what I am getting now when looking at the pics,gives me a good time
I am only thinking of that night,but all the GOOD times.
not the bad-bad thing.

Starting with when at bilik.
Everyone was so stressed-up trying to get ready
and there I was,sitting at the corner and laughing my ass out
Sports hall.
Zura,your dance were nice la..haha.
see?u did it!!
Photo-taking..
haa..
camwhoring eh all..
fun2..
hekz..
Dancefloor..
waaa!!!u guys really dance ar..
fond memories..
wanna do it all over again can??
from the start to the end?

Yeah people..
We'll do it again..
Right Syimah???
haha

Feel..ings

Shits!!!!Its coming back again..At least I think so...

Really,this time,I wonder..Why is it so difficult when it comes to this guy..Whats so special about him.I told myself its a freaking waste of time but here I am,being dumb again..I have never been confused by my OWN feelings but why???

I am now at a very confused state.Things have been alright.Really fine that I am so thankful for.

I am so busy now but many things are occupying my mind..I know I should not but seriously,for goodness sake,why is it all coming back??

Can I say that I lost my concentration during jnh??

pre - ....

When you find out that jealousy is finding a way to creep out.This sucks soo much..Yea..Just a brief information to people who might want to know,I had tons and tons of fun..

It was an enjoyable day an d it really was. The pre-JNH was soo funny.Went to 'bilik' and ya..I saw everyone rushing here and there to get ready..I was laughing so much that Ky have to tell me to stop.

'SOMETIME,just dun HOPE so much because it might not be like what you expected'

Headaches..

Today really wasn't my day..Arrgghh!!!
No..no..nothing bad happened..Nothing pissed-ing thing happened..I just realized that I wasn't myself like most of the time today.

Went home alone today.Like after so long..Worst still, I went home with a throbbing headache..Haiz..I survived and reach home safely..Alhamdulillah..

Reports and project and assignments!!!Argghh!!When will it ever be enough for all the lecturers??I had enough of them...And because of these task, I have to learn to sleep late night or maybe not sleep at all so that all this headaches and aches will never come again.

But still.It's May..I'm still smiling at my sweetest..

How bad can an important day get?

As I've expected!!Today is sooo going to be not a good day.. Yea,right..

First, I entered class with the 'semangat' to present my project only to find the teacher not in..Arrgghh!!Can't blame la because it was 15 minutes to the end of class..But hey..He did say that we can present till 10..Walao!! Went to meet the lecturer but we weren't allow to present at his office..Crapp!!

Next, it was EC test!!Hee..And guess what??I screwed up the paper..Know what, I was sleeping when everyone else was struggling trying to do the paper.I went like 'wth!' 'wth!' 'wth!'....Mental block sey..I cant remember a thing that I memorize..How bad can it get..Dong!!Dong!!

But hey..It's still May..And I am still smiling sweetly!!Shall not ruin my sweet May..Hee..

And yea.Before I forget..Hey you..Yea2..Tqah rabak k,but 2 times only eh..But hey,sorry for stopping half-way and thank you soooo the very much for making the call..I didn't expect it to be that many times..Hee...Sayang awak..

And to you all..you all all..I love ya...

Procrastination..

Tqah is getting sooooo lazy as days pass. She's soo lazy to study..So lazy to do her work..She procrastinate.And all she do is dream.=)

And ya..Dunno why I'm gonna tell this..But I'm listening to Dangdut' at this point of time..Like wth!!

Take now for example..I should be working through my OSM report but what am I doing??I'm blogging right??I'm getting from bad to worst.Really tau!Halifah is so going to nag when she read this post!!Zura will so start to be my big sister once again when she read this post..!!3 pointer eh Tqah..??Very funny!!with this kinda attitude!!Go kiss your 3 pointer good bye k!Shoots!!

Someone,please tell me to wake up k..I'm day dreaming soooo tooo much like noone's businesS..It is nobody's biz..haha..Day dream.Night also dream..Waaa...My life full of dreams..Like fun like that..Living in a fantasized world is wayyyyy better la..No worries..All the good2 moments only..Waaa...Then dun have to study areadi..Can marry my prince charming..Get filthy rich..Then???OOhh...Go for all the massage there are in this planet..Travel around the world!!Waa..I like..I like!!

Hee..I'm dreaming too much..BUT..I'm thinking too and am smiling!!Haha..=)

My horoscope..

'It looks like you are going to meet your match today! You two have a real future.'

Haha..I couldn't stop laughing when I read this horoscope of mine for today..Really arh??I wonder who I am gonna come across today and meet..Hee...My match la eh..Hahkz...

Today..todae..

Can't believe how people can make you smile when you are feeling down.

Well,that's what basically happen to me today..Shall not talk about it..To Raudha,Syimah and Wani..Sorry girls for not being able to make it..Haha.But hope you girls had tons of fun..

Dude..Sorry..Wasn't able to go out with you..Haha..I bingit mah.h.So decided not to la..Haha..But hope you had lots and lots of fun..And ya.your out today unlike 2 days ago..Hee..

Family...Thanks so much for the day we spent..Haha...Went Tampines Giant justnow and ooh..I like it..So big sey..Had fun and all..

I just wanna smile
I didn't ask for much
I just wanna laugh
I just need company

Woohhooo!!

Woohoo...Shopping!!Shopping!!Shopping!!I like!!!!

Hee...Saturday was spent happily with my family..I was told that we're all going out to spend on ME!!hee....Can u believe it..?My birthday was like 6 days ago but I was treated like sooo nice la yesterday.I decided to go Bugis yesterday to find all my stuffs.Reached there and yeap..I couldn't find a thing!!So,Izzati,my sis,suggest Bugis Street..She led the way and upon reaching,I've realized that I've ever eat at the KFC there when I worked around that area the other time..What I didn't know was that that area sells many2..And I mean many stuffs!!Once I enter the narrow pathway,My goodness..It seems like paradise la oi!!!Ya..I know la..I very gayat like that..and maybe a bit kolot!!haiz!!I dun even know such place exist in Singapore!!Isk2!!Ok.back..I got myself a skirt,jeans,tops and a bag!!Like finally!!!ahah...Aku happy!!!!!!!

Thanks mama,baba,Izzati and Dinie..Aku sayang kalian banget!!

And today..I spend my time crying in front of the tv!!Haiz..The show at Sensasi la..Sisa dalam kenangan or something la the title..So sweet la the story and ya I cried!!Tsk2!!Must watch ad I love that story alot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Is there any guy like that guy in the story?I want him can??

Mistakes and all

Humans nature..You talked.You gossip..You bitched about..Isn't that what humans are good at doing?I realized..yeah..I talked,I gossiped,I bitched about too..And I'm not shock to know that there are people talking about me..Well..Who doesnt..??But trust me,everytime I talked an issue about my beloved ones,it hurts me so much..I shall not mention who cause by now,I expect them to know who my beloved ones are..Ya..those who are reading this might start going "Really?you sure anot?Liar!"..Well haha..I find it too good to be true..But its the truth.It hurt me deeply to talk about an issue concerning my beloved..

Yea..To those who know me and know what I'm talking about here..I love all of you guys..All of you guys..Undeniably, I do have grudges before but,hey, ATIQAH don't hold grudges for long..!Raudha,I told you justnow about my feelings towards all this..I don't know when but Its just that it happens because this people make it happen..They made it possible!

And ya..Atiqah is not the perfect,decent,cheerful girl..She is not entirely made of that..And because of that..Here,she's apologizing for the mistakes SHE make..Thanks to people who are still standing by her and motivating her without the slightest sigh..

(pic put at random..)

Just a question before I end this post..
'mengapa begitu suka melakukan?
mengapa pula kita berang jika diperlakukan?'

Atiqah-Tqah-Iqah..They are different people..

Aiyoh....

Its Friday...My goodness..I've yet to do all my reports and project..3 pointers,huh??*Laugh

I am slacking and slacking this semester and I know I shouldn't because for goodness sake,I am in 2nd year already..Someone,kiss me wake up can????
haha

I need a boyfriend la..A temporary one ..It has been so long since I asked for one but got noone still..Haiz..Hee...

Tqah macam-macam tau..

Creep!

It seems that keeping myself busy is not helping at all...Its not getting my mind away from him..Guess he will be reading this post and soon..Right??and eh..Don't ask me if its referring to you aite..IT IS!!!!!

But I told you not to worry aite..I will announce my end of INFATUATION very soon..Very soon..Just wait for it k..So then,you can start sighing in relieve..Sheessshhhh...

For those who are guessing about my infatuation thingy here,STOP IT!!!DON'T GO ANY FURTHER!!!AND I REALLY MEAN IT EH..STOP THINKING ABOUT IT

STOP IT!!!!

I've been thinking about many 'if' this few days.I've been thinking about many people to..Shit!!I MISS RAFIQ,siao!!!!Hahaha....No idea who??well,you guys don't have to know..Because he will be my history,my present and my future dream(maybe)!!heeeee....

And 1 more thing.For Information..I hate to be grabbed!!!!!!!So,never do it alright?Information pointing to noone.Just an extra information about me..
And 2 more thing.If i say 'no..I mean no!!dun fucking-forcing me around..
1 more thing..I'm not dumb if you think I am..

Thanks for everything..

Firstly, thanks to everyone for the birthday wishes..Be it people whom I know and those whom I don't know..People who call me,sms me,at my tagboard,frendster,those who personally wish me and everybody else..Appreciate it alot kies..It feels great to be remembered on that 'normal' day..

Starting..I was woke up at 0000 hrs exactly(according to my watch) by Azura,Shikin and Halifah..Thanks guys..Wishes started to come in and everything.I appreciate it so much and trust me,I was smiling the whole day..Happy..I've got the most precious gift from my parents which is a kiss each..Heh!! Went to drama in the evening.And guys,You guys sang me a birthday song more than 2 times tau..Haha..Gerek la korang..

Thanks Wirna for the cake..It was lovely..
Thanks to Syamim,Iman,Farhan,Firdaus and Liana for the sabo-ing..haha..Had fun..Pity you guys who kene sabo yesterday eventhough it wasn't your bdae..Hee.
Thanks to Raudha for renjis-ing water at me and Liana because she kene sabo by me and Liana. Thanks to Ky for taking the pics(all pics credited to Ky)

Thanks to Zura for the dedication..It was sweet..
Liana...I had fun.you???

To the rest of you,thanks for making it a fun and enjoyable day for me.I really wasn't expecting all that but you guys made me end my 12 May with a happy smile..

Just todae basically..

Darn!!My mommy's 12 bucks flew...I'm not happy with the hair cut ya..I want a newer look but guess what?It's still the same..Just a V-shaped cut..Creep!!!I could have just cut it myself at home..So,ya..People..I cut my hair..But theres no difference la..So..whatever..

I got daddy's hug justnow..Hakz....Happy la oi!!I've been wanting it since a month ago and I got it today..Baik arh..!!

Got school tomorrow and guess what.?It's back to boring Monday..Got lab the whole day and yea..I suck at them all but hey.Aim this semester..3 pointers k..??Heee..Insyallah..But nevermind..Got drama in the evening..Wee..Suke2..

And now..I got to go..Wanna watch Cinta Fitri!!!Make sure go watch k Fah..Hheee

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala

It feels really nice to have people loving you..

The 'day' is coming nearer..And like last year..My thoughts were all to Darul..Hahakz....I know many readers don't know who he is..Well,he is a guy who promise to love and wait me but didn't..Haha..Can't blame him..It has been 2 years since he last wished me on my birthday..And I can't sop thinking if he will do so this year..NOt that I am asking for one but I just .... Argghhh!!SHUT UP!!!

Different topic ya..
I'm missing Liyana,Shikin and Ina alot..Wanna meet them but the time I am spending in school is restricting me..Ya..I realized that I've been spending too much time in school like its my second house..Haha..

K..For those people who love me..I love you people too..And again..Thanks RYA for the pic..I really2 appreciate it la..You know how precious that pic is to me..

Infatuation

I dunno why I'm feeling this way
but all I can tell is that
every girl went through infatuation

Call me..Ask me..Message me..and I'll tell you..

Histories..

I found these treasures while 'ransacking' my drawers one day..Things I love dearly..Things I got from people I will never forget.Insyallah..

A band a guy gave me which is still nicely kept in my drawer

NPCC POP..NIC Jena and Farhan gave us


The day I catch a movie with my family


Haha..I asked Zura for the Starbucks napkin..And she gave me all


I was shocked but really2 happy to see my face on a Singapore stamp


Hahakz


Mom gave it to me..


A bangle my mom bought me


I gave this to my cadets..


Ros..I'm still keeping this


No comment


I still have this on my leg for i dunno wat reason..

you..

I like you....
I can't deny that
I want to hate you
but it's just not me to do so
I can't look at you
because when I do,all I can think about is that
I think about the moment
I smile and get tired
I think of you
and get pissed of sometimes..

Self-reflect la k..??

Month of May have always been a wonderful month for me..I welcomed the month with anxiety and with a smile..I knew things wouldn't get wrong this month..

Days have definitely been filled with laughter and smiles.Thanks to my beloved family,friends and everybody else..Today was no exception..It was a day full of laughter and all thanks to my fellow classmates..I miss you guys alot and I miss the jokes and laughter and all..Haha..

It was all going well until a STRANGER came to me and humiliated me in front of others..I've got no right to bad-mouthed you but hey,think..Who are you to talk about dosa dan pahala?Apparently,you are noone to talk about them.You have no right to talk about it..Allah lebih mengetahui..

As always,I kept my cool..But only Raudha and Wani knew how I felt..

Bukan baik namenye jika tidak tahu menghormati perempuan
Bukan warak namenye jika percaya perkara tahyul..

Drama Orientation

It was drama orientation..And yea..I had fun again..Guess the freshies are really my good luck for the month..heh..

Played games and everything and well..you know la..all those normal stuff...

Girls,remember when I say that my emotions are all getting entangled?
I think It is really getting worst because I've been potraying emotions I'm not feeling..Funny2..Trust me..I was shocked when you girls keep asking me if I'm ok during the break time..I'm ok la..Infatuation gone..So,I'm happier..

To Raudha and whobody else,thanks for doing what you girls do to protect my feelings ya..Haaa..I can't describe how I feel when I know obviously that you're trying to hide something from me..I'm not blaming you all..I'm grateful.Thanks..

Fatin and Naqiah..Hhaa..I guess I've never really write about you 2 and always like left you 2 out..Hee...Well,I had fun with you 2 around too..If we all girls together,confirm kecoh..Hahaha..

And you guys all..I love you all..

May..

OK..now now...I would say that my previous post had invited many comments.Many talking and I would say that I'm also setting some people to think who those words are for..So..Friends..let's just forget about the previous post and just be happy k..(Not that I'm gonna forget them).

Before I forget..Monthly wishes..
Happy Birthday to you..Happy birthday to you..Happy birthday to them all..Happy birthday to you..

1 May : Ros..haa
7 May : Fathiah..My couz
11 May : Liana....Hhaha..
12 May : Anuar..Where are u?
14 May : Wani..hee
14 May : Nigel
15 May : Aidil..Botak areadi anot you?NS hha
18 May : Shereen..Miss you la
19 May : Maurice..
20 May : Farah...I realli2 miss you
21 May : Rafiq..Hhaa..yea..feelings stil intact
25 May : Nyai..My grandmother
27 May : Khai Sikal..hakz
30 May : Elly..heh
31 May : Salizah..

MCG orientation

It was MCG Orientation yesterday and I went with a happy smile plastered on my face.Trust me..I was sooooo happy to be there and meeting my juniors.I was hyped up already when Iman gave us the briefing for the day.I was feeling so WoW!!!!!To add up to the excitement, a few people whom have disappear from my life,came back and greet me with those sweetest smiles.Thanks to Hasbi who came back to help us out.And I went crazy when I saw him outside the room.Sorry for the hitting..Hee..

Thanks so much for the 7 freshies in Group E.Thanks for coming.It's all worth my extra handphone bill..You guys came.Jokes and crapping in the lecture room and there wasn't time for icebreaking and wer going straight to the race.I was afraid that you guys can't communicate coz you dont know each other.Race started but you guys prove me wrong.The motivation and bonding I'm seeing in you guys were so great eventhough I know you guys were so tired running from places to places!!Aku sayang korang sangat2...Please do stay in MCG k..?

Faizal lagi was so sweet.Getting me a drink when I was briefing the freshies.Eventhough you told me not to drink up all coz you want them..Haha..And ya..You did some of the jobs k..I was joking when I said I did most of it..You bonded with them.That's what important.

This will be in Malay..And I am gonna get a bit nasty in here.Jadi untuk org yang rase dier akan terase baik jangan bace..Just close the window.


Tengok.Aku gembire kan smalam.Memang,aku gembire sangat.Terime kasih pade 8 bdk2 nie.Termasuk Katrina sekali la.Kerana dorang jugak,aku bertahan.Aku lari walaupon aku da rase lain macam kat kaki aku.Sebab aku tengok dorang berkobar2 sangat.Bagus2..Kerana dorang jugak la,aku tak meletop semalam..Nasib baik aku tak..Dan kerana dorang jugak aku tak menangis semalam.Terime kasih.Pade 2 orang kawan aku yang mendengar aku merintih dan merapuh sepanjang perjalanan balik tu..Terime kasih byk2.

Aku benci kau!!!Aku betol2 rase macam alat yang kau gunekan.Bile nak kau carik biler tak kau buang,Terime kasih la eh..Aku benci kau tau tak..?Kau tak tau nak menilai perasaan orang.Bodoh kan..??Suke la sangat kan dapat buat sesuke hati kau kan..Buat la depan budak2 tu semue..Biar dorang tengok abeh tu nanti heboh satu dunia..Please la..

Kau...Terime kasih eh sebab tolong aku..Tapi aku rasekan..Aku boleh hidup lagi la..Kau ambil hak aku macam tu kau punyer gitu..Abeh tu kau tak endah kan ,then kau kutip balik lepas aku yang jage..Eh tolong la..Semue da besar panjang..Pikir la pakai kepale otak yang ade tu..Aku yang lebih tahu.biar la aku yang buat kerje..Kenape mesti kau ganggu?Kau pon suker agaknyer kan..dA LA...aku sakit hati la biler pikir kan korang..Memang aku rase betol arh cakap orang ramai..Orang Melayu nie banyak sangat berdrama..Bukan niat aku untuk menghina tapi aku rase ape aku bebual nie ade betolnyer..Pikir kan la eh..Aku da malas nak pikirkan perasaan orang..Sebab tiade sape yang pertimbangkan perasaan aku..Jadi lain kali baik2.Kalau aku maki depan muke krg nanti.jgn salahkan aku.Sebab aku rase tahap kesabaran aku da hilang..


Untok sape2 yang da bace gini jauh.Terime kasih.Aku TIDAK AKAN dan TIDAK PERNAH AKAN meminta maaf atas ape yang aku cakap tadi.Kalau sape2 yang terase,tu korang punyer pasal.Kalau korang rasse ianyer tepat kene pade korang dan lepas tu nak benci aku..Dipersilakan..AKu da tak heran da...Memang mulut manusia..Suke bebual kan!!

To Zura,Fah,Ros and Syimah..If you girls understand..Then thanks for the effort..Sometimes we dun have to know a friend for years to understand them..Because someone who claim to know me for years is still clueless about my life..