Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Updates

I shall update today ya.. Just some few things thats been going on..

Attachment ended on the 18th Feb which is on the Thursday for me. I wanted a nice by bye but for the fact that I was told that would be my last day 20mins before the end of the day suck big time! I didnt have time to say bye to everyone like I wanted to.. Those nice people who bother to talk to me.I didnt get to say a proper bye or even a brief bye..They all thought I will end my attachment on the next day. But I guess whats done is done..My real reason for being there is to serve the company with some skills I have during my studies back at poly. I was happy enough that I managed to finish my work as asked..Alhamdulillah..

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22nd February..It was our 18mths. Like seriously as I was counting with him how long we were the previous day,we were kinda shocked that we actually got this far..That irritating guy..I am still with him..18 mths huh? haha..Well..i LOVE HIM..Enough said..I just hope theres 18 years and 19 and 20 and 21 and more more more and like what I siad,theres no fixed number to how long wer gonna be tgt..I just hope its forever..Tho I know lifes not a fairy tale..

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Another thing.. What? Computer and lappy are not my best friend for the time being so if I didnt reply to any thing or whatever it is then you can reach me thru my phone.And any questions that was asked that was not answered..maybe i chose not too..because I dun have the answer myself.. It suck!!!

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I dun have a life..So? Haiz...Well my life revolve around family bf and house.. What can I do...I was brought up that way..

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Gelora Hati

Like seriously ah..First,I went to the place where I always wait for my bus transport every morning.Then the guy whom I always took the bus with was there so I said "Selamat Pagi!" and he replied..Then he added "Waaaa..Smlm your cerpen bagus eh" I was surprised and the smile punye la lebar.Stop it eh Tqah!And I didnt even tell him anything about it lor..

I was doing my work today at work when a lady came in front of my counter and asked.."Name you Atiqah eh?" I said ya..I was kinda shocked..How she know?She never talked to me..Furthermore people here dunno me as Atiqah.Then she added "You yang smlm on tv kan?" ahha..I smile..And nodded. This people are sooo cute tau..hahaa..

Well well..It was an honour but as you can see,I was a little bit tension doing my interview..Well,tv and camera was never my thing..I can rehearse so perfectly before and when I have to look into the camera and talk,I lost all voice and content! ahha..

But all in all.I was kinda satisfied with the drama itself.Cool...To those who cried...You people are sooo cute la!! hahha..I cant cry la because I already know how the story was..So instead of crying,I laughed at almost every scene..Hahaha..I was NERVOUS during the whole 1 hour..what to do..Laugh la!! haha..Though there were nothing funny about it..Actually got..AHHAHA...When Tina said.. "Kepale otak you, bla bla bla" hahaha...

Still,I thank those who watched and I hope you guys were enjoying yourself crying or not watching the drama.I thanked anyone who tried recording it for me and I hope someone can give me a happy news saying they had the drama recorded in a disc..Im still waiting..Haha..For all the compliments and all..Thanks!!

Like what someone would say..'Selesai sudah perjalanan cerpen'.. Well,..Its my turn to say it now.Selesai sudah perjalanan cerpen saya..It was such an honour to being able to write,to have a winning entry,to be able to see how the directing and behind the scene goes. Hha..I already have the most unforgettable memory in my life now..Its not big to some of you people..But having to put my takot feeling behind to achieve all this is definitely the biggest achievement..

Till then..Kalau ade kesempatan,tahun nie nyer Projek Cerpen masuk lagi la.Menang atau tidak.It was never much of a difference.Its the excitement and the feeling that counts. Tho winning is a bonus ah..Hhaha...:)

Monday, February 8, 2010

migraine tension

One problem I cannot tolerate when I do my work: headache. Or As what I was once told:tension migraine..

Haha..The word migraine alone scares me to hell! One thing migraine can lead you to is disability.Ooohh right?

I hope everytime when this pain comes,that its not migraine. The doctor once told me.You should learn how to overcome your stress and I asked myself this :"Havent I been able to overcome it all this while?" Hha..Thinking about all the pain I've put myself thru,well,I cant say I have manage to overcome it all that well..

2 months has past,and I thought I have learn to overcome it but the frequent pain thats killing me states otherwise.. So much for overcoming the stress..Haha..

People might be asking: What is she stressed about? She is almost living in a perfect world.

Haha..I pretend to be living in a perfect world people..I pretend.And because of this pretense, I suffer what is known by tension migraine.Hha..When I tell myself that it is all alright,why is it that I have go back and go against what I said?Cant I just leave it at it? I dunno what wrong with me,really..I think way too much and too hard at it.Its time I stopped? Well, tell that to my dearest heart and head! They never seem to want to listen.Its like they have a mind of their own! Irritating!

And now at work,problems come and I stress about it.I wouldnt say its caused by humans but sometimes,it cant be help but admit they caused it...And Im also partly to blame for letting things get to me. Hha..How can I not be..Im too people oriented and Im sensitive!Wat to do?I'm not blaming people for the state I am in..I blame myself.And thats another problem.I will tend to stress about it when I feel too guilty about all the blames.

Someone once told me:You are too good at lying and hurt yourself! Hhahaha..Guess what?I only laughed! ahaha..I wont admit or deny that statement.Its a personal perspective on how I see things.People might agree with what Im doing or not.

All in all..Its just tension migraine.No need to fret about it all too much.I take care of myself and loved ones took care of me very well..So,nothing much to worry about how Ive been living my life:)