Just the nroms

Hey bloggy


It is another boring day today.:(


Don't quite know the root of it but I certainly am sure that it is due to the fact that I will be spending the whole day doing data entry. Too bad for me then.


Lets tell you something interesting.


MY exams are over!!( Gratefully)
And I....... am excited for my trip with the WV family.. Oh man.. if I can pack my bag now and go.. I'll certainly do just that..  Hahaah... Excited much.. but having to leave my family for that period of days are abit of a heartache. But i'll come back dear family...


Anyway, me and dear tunang have been searching for a place to call our family nest. Shortlisted 2 areas and right now, we have to meet to put all into perspective and finally go ahead and apply the house. Oh goodness.. I am excited.. But scared.. Hopefully things are going to be fine.


ok.. Need to unfortunately work again.. ahahha... See you soon bloggy

Sucky

I dunno if its the swing that is affecting my mood today or just that its not a good day.

The whole day was just boring and tiring and kinda dead for me. I mean.. It was just a SHAGGED day if I were to describe it,

Thought that it was probably only due to work and payroll period that made me feel so sour today. But guess what? It dragged on even after work ends,after I left office. Just that I do not know what the factor if it was. Its irritating!!!

I cant describe the feelings I have right now. I started crying out of the sudden. It was stupid when I think of it. It was probably normal for her when she said it. She wasn't really scolding me to be honest, but why is it that what she said hurts so much.

You know when you feel that you are needed.. But only to fill up the hole. No one really looked up to me. Not that I ask for that. But you know, sometimes I wish that no one gives a rats ass about what I am thinking or feeling or just saying.

Well, I am only ranting. No need for anyone to feel the pinch.

Another boring day, hence the another boring post

It is just another boring day at work. Blurg!

Hey bloggy.. I do not have any interesting story to tell you actually. Hahaha…

Well, I miss my colleagues back in the office. I was looking forward to the end of October to go back to where I belong. But just that one fateful call has to ruin my whole plan to say Sayonara to this place. But guess, Allah has other plans for me.

They say, ade hikmah for everything that happens. And that is what I’ve been telling myself and what I will be telling myself for the next 12 months.

12 months??!! Can you believe it?

Not that I hate being in this situation. I love my job here. I don’t mind doing this job but you know when your just not comfortable with the atmosphere here.

In school, there were some classes about organisation culture and about how important that is in the success of an organisation. And about how that also play a huge role in an individual’s career satisfaction. NOW, I am facing them and I would have to say that the organisation culture probably was a huge impact too.

It is safe to say that the culture here and there is sooo very different.

Can I just take the job and then go back to where I was initially.

If only we can choose what we want to do with our life and our job. Haiz..:(

Oh wait a minute.. Hahaha.. Actually we can! The answer is WORLDVENTURES!

HAHAHAH… How could I just forget you. But oh well, that is a job too.. With a plus point you could decide who you want your colleagues to be and also work whenever you feel like working. Hahahaha..

But first first, need to work hard to run the business first.. Nothing comes easy and free you see. If it was like that, I would have already been a millionaire. Hahaha.. Anyway, this plan is going to work. In Shaa Allah it is going to work. I know it can work. Just need to run with the business.

But right now, let’s just try to finish my exams first. Haha.. It is frustrating to not be able to work on my business wholeheartedly because of the exam that is coming..

Oh well bloggy. GTG soon. I CANT WAIT FOR THE CLOCK TO STRIKE 6.

See you soon darling..:) (*kisskiss*)

10.10.2015 WV launch party!

Alright bloggy syg..

Actually I am very very tired and a little bit sleepy. But as I lie down on bed, I have this naggy feeling to get up and blog about my life.

First up, today was a really awessssooommmmeeee day. I cant begin to explain how happy I was.. Sure did not make the wrong choice. Its great to know and see for yourself the foundation that are shun by others grow so big and so well. And like a friend said, WE ARE EXPLODING! Its a great feeling. I do not know everyone but after today, I at least made 2 new friends, reunited with some old friends and became closer with my already new friend. It was a great exposure. A great day all in all. It was nice being able to be mingle around and be who you are with this people. Not fearing that they will not like you.

I am especially excited because the fiance is also there to spend and celebrate the launch of our Asia's headquarters. This is EPIC! and getting to spend time with him is the bonus.
I hope that our business, our dream for our future will come true. For everything that happens, is within His plans.

Well next, as you may well see and know syg, I am ENGAGED! Ok ok.. I know I am about 2 months late..  But it always feels that it was seconds ago.(NOt sure if thats a god thing). I am happy. Alhamdulillah. Sure, I feel like strangling him with my own bare hands sometimes but I guess thats the small test in life and in this new phase of life we both share. He is a pain. But at least He is my pain. And I believe that if I am right, If I only had the best of intention in his life and relationship, then Allah will help to make it easier and smooth sailing for me. A few bumps are fine,When I sabr, thats when blesssings are countless, In Shaa Allah.

Well, life isnt always gonna be flowery. There are thorns. There are problems, there are issues. But I believe, Allah tau niat kite and HE also knows whats right and whats wrong for us. Pin pointing and blaming someone is not a great thing to do.

I guess thats all I have got to say. It was a nice day and I feel good having someplace to rant my happiness and sorrows. Thank you.. my faithful bloggy.

Ps:
Alright! Right now, I am tired.. But my dear beloved is still outside there blowing onto his lover.(I mean the trombone ya). How do I sleep exactly while knowing he is still outside and not yet home.?

Aku rase diri ni kadang2 macam bodoh..
Mungkin betol la diorang cakap... maybe betol aku ni bodoh..

Sakit tau.. sakit sgt.. Tapi sape tau? Sape kesah?

Everyone feels that they need to have control over me.. Over what I do and what i feel.
Then when do I live for myself?

Sayang aku? Mereke yang sayang tu la yang menyakitkan dan menjatuhkan semangat aku. Hati ni sedih sgt. Tapi aku nak bilang sape? Sape yang boleh dgr and then not judge me?Sape yang will side with me and tell me everythings fine?

I know people are slammng me down for what i aspire to do. But to expect that from my loved ones, sakit sangat2..

Kenape feelings ni keep haunting me? I dun like.. I am supposed to be happy. I shouldn't be fighting or arguing.. Bcoz that affects everything. It changes everything.

My feelings? I am not one to give up on what I have or what I want. So I tak pernah akan sacrifice my feelings untuk anything.

Dreams are meant to be reached for. Its meant to come true. My dreams are not difficult. It just needs work and effort. I am only human.. where do I get strength and motivation from? How do I conquer my dreams if I have no strength and power to do so.. You know, the feeling of seeinng your dreams crumbling down right before your eyes. Its heartbreaking. Thats how I am feeling right now.

My heart is breaking. And noone gives a crap about it. Everyone feels that their opinions matter the most. What about mine? When can people stop running my life and let me run it myself?

Gitu senang i dipersalahkan when it goes wrong. And gitu mudah orang lain buat keputusan for me.

People, I am tired. I need people who would be by me through everything. Bukannyer I buat bende yang tak bagus. I  understand that I am very ambitious. Tapi my ambition is possible, Something that ppl will never take me seriously for. Dun think it doesnt hurt me. It does. But I just choose to laugh and smile it out.

Satu hari, dgn berkat Allah and kerje keras I sendiri, I will be where I dream of being. Cume I ingin kan support dari them, yang kate they sayang me.

A quick one..

Hello sayang bloggy.

Haha.. I rase I je sorang yang maseh blogging my personal entry in this world. Haha.. drama mama

Alright bloggy. I cume nak bilang you je.. Thats I rase soon, I will be on you quite oftern.

Bye darling bloggy. Nanti i get on you again ok,...:)

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Again and again I tell myself to be smart about things and never get my heart broken again.

No, its not that kind of broken, it is just painful and disappointment knowing that no one cares.

It is either I am just stupid before this and this have just stayed as a long service tenant in my life or the existence of a guy I truly love block all sanity and brain power to be thinking and acting smart.
I was often made felt like I am useless, stupid and needy and I truly need this to stop.

How exactly?

Stop loving and caring so much is certainly not an option. I was made that way and will never be able to change how I behave. Things are not right and certainly not great. I want to do something about it but urgh! I dunno what

Mungkin betol la... Jadi bodoh akhirnye

My purple Laptop

How much happier can I possibly be?  Blessed with  a great partner and one I wouldn't trade with anything at all. (Well.. I'll think again about the shoes and bags).. So.. basically, never have I expect I will be those kind of girl who will be getting a surprise with something she has been dreaming and wanting for a while now.

Today bloggy, I am that girl. I was surprised with a Purple HP laptop which I have been eyeing for some time now. Boyfriend had been there listening to my struggle, seeing my heart and head arguing (like its not normal) about whether I should be getting this Baby or not.

Not, darling got for me instead, He knows I am in love with this lappy and he got it for me.

My my.. How much do I love this guy. I dun run around being materialistic.. But this laptop.. Let this be a symbol or how much he loves me. Let this laptop remind me constantly that my boyfriend loves me and that no matter how much of an arse I become, he will still love me.

I cannot say it enough, But thank you syg.. I love you.. and I love my Baby.

Craze

Ok well..

Life is beginning to take a toll on me. People pushing me around. Making decisions for me.

I dunno when I would finally say I've had enough of this shit and leave