:)

I've got many things to say.
Too many things in mind
I wanna kill
I wanna shout
I wanna rant.
I wanna say THANKS to friends
I dun care about all that is said.
I dun want to talk about it
bcoz if I start,I know theres no limits to my patient!
:)

Fiction/ Non-fiction

I have many things to blog about.Too many things playing in my mind. And me,being me,I love keeping quiet about it and let it not affect me so I won't affect other people around me. Yes..Yesterday,things was sorted out but I know thats not the end. I know more things are gonna come. As much as I hate it, I have to wait and see. I have to wait and let it come to hit me. Haiz.Lets play a game!Lets guess if what I blogged about is really happening to me or not.haha..

I know what's best for us but it seems that i'm trying to ignore the fact.I dun want to know whats good for us.I didnt want to know what we should do. I want to just savour the entire moment we had. I am so sory for all unhappiness I've caused.I don't want what I know will have to happen happen.I dun want to be standing at that moment crying my eyeballs out and having to keep myself on form and steady to accept all the decisions made.In case you dunno. I fear the the feeling of being insecure.Damn! I shouldnt have said it but my confused feelings made me.

YOu know what makes me happy and whats not.I tried to not cry when such things are said but I can't help myself. You wipe those tears away and tell me its all gonna be alright.Of which at that moment,'alright' is not the right word to describe the situation and what I'm feeling. Those tears you shed only squeezes my heart and make me think how much lucky I am to have you love me.Its all for a moment.I grabbed whats mine and for sure,you'r not mine for keep. As deep as it is my love for you, we know the outcome of this love story. We're not meant to be and you know you must be with someone else. But despite it all.Know one thing, I will always be here for you and this love I have,it will forever be with me for you.
Fiction/Non-fiction

Too much burden in my head.I can't seem to be thinking straight.School?CCA?home?frens?bf? Too much for one day.School.This,took up all my free time and all my happy moments and resting time.There come sometimes when I know I would just wanna give up and let things happen but thinking of how much my parents had suffer burdens to make me go to school,I retract.

CCA..Going there every 3 nites in a week.That is tiring.Having to deal with those who couldnt come and all,thats another problem in all.I'm in no position to be angry.Im in no position to be pissed.What I can do is that I I should be doing whats assigned to be.Despite being tired from school.There are others who are much more tired than I am.So.Be happy Tqah!

Home?Frens? I thank GOD such problems are not in my head anymore.Thinking about them makes m ehappy.They make me move and go on.They make my every single boring unhappy days a bright happy one.Thank you.

BF? I dunno.We seem to be drifted far away.I am trying to save it and I knw I will.For I love him and I hope him too.Certain things make me go crazy and disapointed and upset but still,I''m the gf.Respect for him,it still has to be uphold.I am not the best gf for him but I know I;ve tried my best.

Fiction/Non-fiction

Haha..Happy guessing people.But I think the answers are quite obvious.As I'm holding on to Shah(my teddy) right now, I am smiling although I know tears could fall if I am not fasting today.Where is all the fairness when I need them?

Projek Cerpen 2009

Its gonna be a short or long post I'm no sure.But if you wanna know what's up, go on and read!

So.First first up! Sorry to Iman for ydae. Yeap I lied..I did join Projek Cerpen in a very discreet manner. I didn't want it to be kecoh2. Sorry banget ya..I'm admitting now~~

Second up.I will thank family, bf, couz, Zura and sis for all the help they have given me.I really2 do appreciate it alot.Thanks to you people,I am able to submit my story at a given time and did it successfully and satisfaction.Alhamdulillah.

So, I got a call from Mediacorp to attend a media conference today. Despite being tired,I went over despite all the tiredness with a little bit of hope in winning( top 10 shortlisted entries). Upon entering the hall, the same feeling I felt earlier on during presentation was felt again.And haha..I have to control myself.So yeap.Tqah sat down,breathe in and out calmly and waited patiently for the event to start.

So now.Let the pics tell you more alright?

My registration sticker

My certificate of participation

(You can read the certificate yourself)

My rezeki(prize)

OK la...So I dun have to elaborate alot2 more la kan.I am sure most of you have already got the picture after looking at those pics.Sorry for the blur-blur of the pics.I was tooo excited to blog about it that I un care about how blur the pics look.Hahaa..

In case anyone still dun get it, I will spell it alright?

I am one of the winner for Project Cerpen 2009!!Hahaha..TQAH happy sangat2...

Alhamdulillah..

So yeap people...I want to fly2 so,I hope you had fun reading my post ya..Hhaha...I am sooo proud of myself..Love you people!!!! Bye!!!

Smile smile!!

It feels like I am leading a new life..Where all the love ones I once have, had been deleted and there comes the new one..I know what a bitch!

Anyways..More and more ppl are falling sick.Please people.Do take care of urselves!Please do go and see the doctor and take the mc ur suppose to take.Zura..Take care ya.Ingat eh..If sakit bsok go see doctor and dun come skul!Just take care people.

I am bothered by small things recent recently.I dun care about the big picture but the small one.Stupid! I'm living life according to a drafted guideline. Haha..OK..Only I understand what I m writing.So ya.I mean I am living my everyday like how people want me too.I smile because I have to.I can't be upset or angry.Because I am not allowed to.Haiz.Tqah tqah!!

What I wanna do now? Just too many things.Who I want to do them with? Only 1 particular person I dun wish to say who. Lifes too complicated but despite it all,I am still smiling and laughing and letting things take its own flow and.

Before I go.
1)pPL all please do take care
2)I just realised Ive gt training bsk!argh!
3)Shamin.when you come back,your so gonna get it from me!go Holland never tell me ah!Shicken!
4)I love you..

:)

I'm a happy person today!!YAY!!!!! My mood was lifted up by itself at 10am when I woke up in the morning due to the ringing of my hp and at the same time realizing that I will have to skip my 10am lecture.So...Today wasn't an angry angry day.It was a smily smily day.Sampai Zura oso ask me to stop smiling to eat.Hhha..Cool!

So..Today is Friday and my army guy is home already.My dear dear couz is at training still I think!!Hahhaa..Kesian dier! i AM HAPPY i AM HAPPY! Ahhh??

OOh ya...Tap tap Revenge is making my shoulder and neck suffer such tremendous pain.Very the pain you know.Hahhaa...Tu la.Da main tak ingat sakit.Da stop barula sakit itu ini.hehe..

ok LA..Actually I dunno what else to blog about.I go off ferst k!!Bye handsomes and pretty2 people!Remember to smile k?

Today?

In class and without Zura.Hhaha..Take care!

Today? It wasn't a nice day.The day is not done so I won't really say its entirely bad.Its just that when bad things gets stuck on your head,it suck your whole mood.I'm not sure if things are gonna be the same again.

The way I see it,things just suck big time.I dunno what else to do.I am pleasing people instead of myself.I am doing things to make people happy but end up herting myself.But what do people and myself care?As long as the worlds a happy place.I guess I will be happy.

Every week,theres only one day when Im happy.Other than Monday.I will be rushing thru this and that.Entertain this and that people.I am so tired and anybody care?Wooohoo!!nO!!

OK people..Smile alright.The day is wonderful today(as if)..Smile and be happy!!!:)

Secretary or NYP???

15 more mins before 6 and training starts at 630 today..
So, basically today was a suckish day and what I'm doing now is to wait patiently for training and hope that nobody test my patience and that today's training will be a great one like every other day.Haiz!It looks like MCG is the only place I actually get to release all my pains and be happy!Haha..

Firtsly,I failed my interview.Ok not as in literally fail la.But I didnt get the job.So that means,I suck?No!I think its the other way round. Secondly,I've got B+ for my PICS after all this while.I think my resume screw everything up.At least it didnt make me feel so pissed.As I've said and thought,the resume I wrote for PICS is so different from the resume I wrote for my other job. So,if I hadnt limit it to 2 pages(like what teacher want), I think I would have scored better.OK fine.SHUT UP!

I was talking to Aisyah justnow and ahha..Suddenly the thought about a time when I had to choose a job that wasnt easy to get and school. What did I choose? School obviously.And know what job I got? Secretary job at a law firm!Haha..I got the damn job but I push it away for school!Imagine if I took the job and maybe study part-time?Woooo!!! Da kaya da Tqah!haha..

Ya..I was also told that the job opportunity come ones.Did I regret letting that job go?Yes..I regret because despite only being a secretary,I have many other benefits working in a LAW FIRM! Still still.No point Tqah nak regret.Lets just hope I am granted with a better job when I've graduated.With my qualifications and skills!Haha..

I shalln't say about having headache the whole morning and not being able to get up to go to school ya.Orang cakap.Penyakit tak baik dibilang2.haha..To those yang worried tu, I'm ok la..I'm fine..Thanjs eh sebab care!!!Muahahaha..*Macam paham

OOh..Niwae..My mood was ruined because of something oso...About what?HAhaha..Not telling!Its a personal thing.I feel like smack,kill and punch.Who?What?Nyehehe.. Not telling!A person?A punching bag? Perhaps2..I'm not angry ok people!I am smiling typing this post.

Ooh yea...Obsessed was obsessed!

ps:I love ........ being loved!ahha..Tqah loves attention mah!(From known ppl only eh)

13 jULY HAPPY HAPPY DAY!

Some updates before I start on with my chiong-ing of skul stuffs!Ok..Thanks Zura for reminding me anout all the due dates.I know submission is near but I didnt expect it to be to freaking near!Damn! Anyway,as soon as I'm done updating and check on my fb,I will be doing my work!I hope!Pop panadols,swallow it with water and I'm on the go..

So yeap.Today 13 July marks another wonderful day.Why?OK..Nothing much happens but its just another happy day that got to me after so long. Thank thank to those who make it a wonderful day for me today.Earlier part of the day was great.Later part of the day was great.So my day was basically blessfully great!

Despite all my happy moments,I still do wonder about bad things.Haa..Typical of Atiqah right?Haha..So.Out of unavoidable curiosity,I went to someones blog and can I say this..How much I hate dier! Freaking whatever tau.Kalau rase tak bahagie,then kenape tak bilang siang2?Sakit2kan hati orang,fun pe? Dun ask me about this paragraph ok dears? Love you people!!

I am not 100% fully a nice girl either but I tried to keep my sanity at least.I do what I think is best for people eventhough it suck for me.Ok!I shall stop it here k???

Last before I go.I think I'm somehow screwed!But still,I love you people..Hahha..

Llallaalallala

When they are still living,you dun care but when they are gone,tu la bile sume orang kesah!

So..What I am basically talking about is MJ..Me and my adik2 all.When he's gone,barulah nak dengar his songs.Haha..Ok..Not me entirely la.I mean I used to listen to his songs only that he wasn't a favourite.
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I havent start doing what I have to.Why?Because I ngah malas..And you can see that by the way I am writing up this post.I am mixing Malay and English.Da tak kuase nak think of the right words to type..Hhaa..Tqah pemalas!!!!

Aiyo....I am loving someone..Hhah...Tqah tqah!!!Hahha..I love someone..Don't ask who?You know who you are..Hha..

Too lazy

I am feeling something so odd right now.
And that changes my whole mood.
I am not getting the mood I previously have an hour ago.
Crap!Something is happening right?

I cant seem to be doing my werk
I can't concentrate at doing my school work yet
What am I waiting for?
Answering will only make it obvious.
My goodness!
Whats the cause of this.?

This week.Excluding today which will end in 35 mins time,I will be left with 3 more days to finish up what I have to finish up.Minus Sat,which I wont be able to.I'm left with 2 days.And I know,2 days is not enough for all these to be done.

Whats more with training.Aiyah...
School restarting next week?I think so.And I think I hope so..My lazy ass is becoming lazier and lazier sitting at home.

Since I'm too lazy to do anything,I think I might just as well go away..Haa..I'm tired of typing.
And at the same time,I'm waiting for my hp to vibrate-means message!

Just basically today.

My job as an SM has started..Ok..Not really started started..But its starting..Am I ready for it?Erm..I should or else I boleh kene knock head by Raudha and Naqiah..Hehe..So.I hope things go off well with all my lovely2 SM,ASMs..Haha...I'm loving them already.I hope!
OK..Enough training..

Common Test was alright..If I don't see at least a B for this paper,I may cry my eyeballs out..I was confident ok..Ya2..Test was cool!No regrets or sadness!!

Facebook is a pain in the ass!!I've received 29 emails in 1 day of which 27 of them are from Facebook!Hahaha...I think I should try and be happy ok?Yeap..I've got facebook and ya..I have to love it like my another baby!Hhaha..
*Done*

Did I say transformers was awesome?

Dammit!

Its getting irritatting and more irritating as time past.Noone knows what the heck I'm feeling.And tonite..I've got too many angst I could just throw it to someone and let them burn and die!Damn them!

Common test tomorrow..And have I studied?I'll be crying if I havent by now..So yes,I have.So what am I doing? I'm chilling in the freezer...Ok.So i'm not.I'm freezing myself cold in front of the fan.Why am I not turning the fan off?Bcoz my beloved lappy needs them.Damn everything!

Everthing gets even worst when I decided to open up facebook account!Yea people of the nation.laugh at me for going back against my words..But for some can-be-avoided-stupid reason, I have to to..Bcoz I wanna see if by opening it,whether it makes peoples life easier anot.Damn!

But despite all.I'm laughing and smiling?Why?? Bcooz I do have amazing people around me.. Ya..AMAZING people!

Training tomorow.And I dunno why instead of being ahppy I am nervous,scared,panicky and angry? ANswers I am sure I will get tomorrow..I am very damn sure.Given my mood now, I can just explode if I have to tomorrow.

Aniwaes test tomoroow.To those 'lovely' people out ther who havent open up your books to study,go and do so..Even geniuses need to study.I'm off!

haha..cool fun!

Its Saturday and I've yet to study.haha..

Lucky thing I've got like 20mins of studying before I on my lappy.Initial plan was to check certain important things but I got into chatting..And then I played jigsaw puzzle online with Shamin and I just wasted my 1 hr 10 mins doing that of which that time could be spent on my ICTPM study.Haha..But still,I dun mind.I'm happy..Haha..So, after this,I'm gonna start studying and no distraction at ALL!

So.what else should I say?

That I'm bored at home?haha...

Ok..fine aI shall go and study now!

Kawanku..

Gelora Hati:Random..

GOD create million of human beings..Why? Ever ask such questions?

Its so humans don't stay lonely.So that humans can have people they call FRIENDS!Well thats what I thought of at least.

As much as I don't really quite like that term,I can't deny that I do have a few whom I am grateful to have as FRIENDS.Someone who make me smile when I'm at my lowest.One who care to ask 'what's wrong?' instead of 'are you ok?'.One who care enough to ask if I had a great day or a suckisk one.One who is there to listen to me blabber and rant and complain. Do I have those people with such qualities? Hhah..Of course I do..One is Liyana.Two is Shikin..3rd and soone, you people can think for yourself.I'm in poly now.Saying names might only hurt people's feelings.

So..The purpose of me writing this entry? I was indirectly lifted up from my low-spirit by a friend.Dier tau dier sape..So ya..It wasnt anything much la.But you know sometimes such small gestures means alot.Hehe..So yup.Thank you fren!

Now?I feel like cycling at this very night.I dunno.I suddenly feel the urge to cycle and feel all the night breeze.And release all the pains and stress I'm having.I've got family,I'vr got bf.I've gt couz.I've got friends. But why am I carrying all these burden alone? Aqim might know the answer for that!Haha..I will not say why.

Boyfie is having fun at camp eventhough kena confine for 2 weeks.He is having fun til he cant sms or kol me for long.Well2..You gotta give the guy some space! FINE!

Life's fun!So ya.I've got some devil calling me some names I am taking as compliments.I am smiling at the pains my body is giving me.But still.I dun complain.Ok I do.!I can nvr stop complaining.But well,people ignore my complains so ya,at the end of it,Im still on my own.Call my life un-lonely.I'm gonna laugh!