migraine tension

One problem I cannot tolerate when I do my work: headache. Or As what I was once told:tension migraine..

Haha..The word migraine alone scares me to hell! One thing migraine can lead you to is disability.Ooohh right?

I hope everytime when this pain comes,that its not migraine. The doctor once told me.You should learn how to overcome your stress and I asked myself this :"Havent I been able to overcome it all this while?" Hha..Thinking about all the pain I've put myself thru,well,I cant say I have manage to overcome it all that well..

2 months has past,and I thought I have learn to overcome it but the frequent pain thats killing me states otherwise.. So much for overcoming the stress..Haha..

People might be asking: What is she stressed about? She is almost living in a perfect world.

Haha..I pretend to be living in a perfect world people..I pretend.And because of this pretense, I suffer what is known by tension migraine.Hha..When I tell myself that it is all alright,why is it that I have go back and go against what I said?Cant I just leave it at it? I dunno what wrong with me,really..I think way too much and too hard at it.Its time I stopped? Well, tell that to my dearest heart and head! They never seem to want to listen.Its like they have a mind of their own! Irritating!

And now at work,problems come and I stress about it.I wouldnt say its caused by humans but sometimes,it cant be help but admit they caused it...And Im also partly to blame for letting things get to me. Hha..How can I not be..Im too people oriented and Im sensitive!Wat to do?I'm not blaming people for the state I am in..I blame myself.And thats another problem.I will tend to stress about it when I feel too guilty about all the blames.

Someone once told me:You are too good at lying and hurt yourself! Hhahaha..Guess what?I only laughed! ahaha..I wont admit or deny that statement.Its a personal perspective on how I see things.People might agree with what Im doing or not.

All in all..Its just tension migraine.No need to fret about it all too much.I take care of myself and loved ones took care of me very well..So,nothing much to worry about how Ive been living my life:)

werk werk werk....

I was going thru(suddenly thought of encryption) my lappy's permission thingy when I came across few things like encryption key, access control list ,auditing,certificates and alot alot more.

And seriously,I miss sitting at the last-time-i-thought-was-so-boring-lab doing those networking things..I miss configuring the routers and switches.I miss doing NSS and then telling Simon I dunno how to do what he ask of us..And then here him sayang-sayangly talked to both me and Zura!! Urgh! I miss networking already..I want do all the networking thing can..If I can relive year3 sem1..I would make sure I do really really well for it..But oh well,,I feel so regretful now!!! hmph!!!

I want do networking can??? Haiz..Please!!! Can I come back to Coca Cola after graduation and do networking at the company??I am not all that good in it but..Given oppotunities,I could be better..

Why coca cola?Because I suddenly grew a lil bit attached to some of the people here..hahaa...Typical of Tqah!!

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Im laughing like so much now that I am down here..More and more people are talking to me..Maybe thats because my visibility curse have worn off!!! Hhaaha.. ok.. Mrepek! As I was saying.. I can tell you, the people here are serious at times..But despite that, they actually have got their stupid and dumb moments..haha..And because of that, I am beginning to enjoy my days here...Lets just hope my last 3 weeks were to be a great one ya.haha..

Today only I laugh so much..And for the first time since I step into this company, I smile to almost everyone who connect eyes with me..Haha..AND.....they actually smile back..haha..

My colleagues are just so cute can...AHHAHA...Lame!!!

Ok...Enough said about them....Shhh!!!

my days...

OK..Before I go to slp,let me just update a little k..About whats been going on and stuff like that.

So,I have already been shifted down at work.Moving down to the ferst floor warehouse office.First day was bored as hell.But secod day and othe other days,I tried to be cheerful about it..And as a result,I am a happy person at all...Except for the fact that I always almost doze off at work and the frequent stuck at excel and vb..ahaha...But other than that..The people there are just pure jokers!!!! hahaha

No kidding!! I am beginning to enjoy the days there but also at the same time cnt wait to end this iap thing,end my project and end this diploma..I cant wait for 20th Feb..ahha..

So thats just basically it la..Other than that,Im a boring person..My life now is all about work and home and sleep..

Like now..After working on my work..I wanna slp..So gdnyt!