I am no longer happy.
I drag myself to places.. I don't want to face people. And I am not happy about everything. I get flustered about everything. I get defensive over everything. I get pissed off if someone say something that irritates me,.. Even if a little bit.
I dunno what happen to me.
I know I've pissed my bestfriend off. bcoz everytime he says something, I'll just shrug it off and say 'ntah'. The one infamous deadly word. 'NTAH'
It is hard. And my head is agreeing to my mood. How i hurts every now and then. How it drains out my everything.
Idk what I should do.. Should I pursue my happiness elsewhere? Or is this a very big obstacle I need to overcome. Either way, it is not easy.. Never easy.
All I do is hope that this streak ends soon. Eventhough deep down I dunno how that is going to happen if I dun do anything. It feels like right now, I need people to take decision away from me and make it for me.
Living life based on decisions made for you is easier than having to think of what to do and be fearful that it is the wrong choice ever made.
