UAE baby~~

Hey hey bloggy.. Whats' up????

Well. For one, I am in my Jurong office. No longer Mapletree Labrador huh? But then again, just when I thought its kinda confirmed that I am no longer going to Labrador, my manager have to go and tell me that they have asked for my CVs.. Now, that.. I dunno how to react to as much I would be happy to go back there
But then again.. Screw that bit.. Lets talk about point no 2.

 

I JUST CAME BACK FROM THE UAE!!!!!!

 

Well man.. The trip was awesome!!!! I can go on and on about how awesome and wonderful the trip is but then that would take me 7days. Haha..

 

So, Abu Dhabi was great! I would so love to go back there some day.. Hospitality great, hotel was great, food was great and the company was awesome. 

 

2 things I need to brag here. So please dun mind me.

 

The Desert Safari was OH MY GOOODNESSS! The dune bashing, the camel ride, belly dancing and the sand boarding. Damn man..! Wait, the sunset too.. It was ama~~~~zing~~~ Thank goodness we have got the most amazing couple from Chicago in the Rovers with us. And the journey was da bomb! Star Gazing was ama~~zing~~.. I have never done stargazing before and my oh my, are they beautiful or what?!

 

The second thing would be the EMIRATES PALACE! Having our lunch in a 8 * hotel! Now now.. Wasn't that wonderful. The foods were sooo good and the ambience.. MAJESTIC~~

 

Anyway..

 

I learnt breaststroke in 3days.. How awesome was that? Not that I am perfect at doing it yet. But at least I can do it!:)

 

The tour was great. The place was simply beautiful. Although it feels a lot like walking dead. As in, the shopping malls, the zoo and the Ferrari world were close to empty. But then, that's what makes everything simply better, less people meaning no bumping into each other and we can leisurely take  a stroll in the supermarket! .

 

Dubai on the other hand was the opposite. It was packed with tourist. People from all over the world flocking in Dubai. But simply because its a beautiful place. We went to the Burj Khalifa, Underwater zoo, see sea animals fight among themselves, watch the amazing musical fountain at Dubai Mall. You know that excites me a lot right? haha..

 

The Souk was fine. A lot of damages were done but its kinda worth it when I see everyone so happy. We met a nice lad form Pakistan who served us patiently. With all kindness! Shopping at Souk was very good. Madinat was another beautiful place. When night falls, the place instantly transform into light paradise. I can't begin to explain how beautiful it is,.

 

So.. after summarizing my whole journey, I am glad to say that I enjoyed myself so much. My companies were great. Taking care of each other and making sure everyone enjoyed themselves to the fullest.

 

My trip to Abu Dhabi and Dubai, they are just the beginning of many more beautiful wonderful trip. For now, these memories and the things that happen there, they will all be kept so close to me.

 



Hating it but do i have a choice?

Life is unfair
Very unfair
But then again.. all I have to do is leave my faith to Allah and believe that HE has a great plan for me
Even if I have to hate this part right now


I wish I am more sabar in dealing with all these shit
Coz sometimes I realized that I live in a fairytale world
Where people would fight for you
where people will appreciate you


Funny thing is that I never learn my lesson.
This is not the first time
This shit happened many times
Different occasions
But tu la.. never learn


So now, I am kinda in this position again where I actually hate everything and everyone


Mungkin betol la I tolak rezeki but then again who are you to tell me that?
Who are you to say that I did the wrong thing?
There is a reason why I didn't accept in the first place.


But like I say, who are you to say anything about my decision?
And then bringing that up when I am clearly upset
Surely dun make you guys wise and mature
Kalau orang yang buat, tahu pulak tak suke.


But haiz.. Manusia kan..


If you are not in my position, you will never understand
If you have never gone through the crap I have gone through,
then you are in no position to say anything
Or.. even your comments and views are not necessary.
Well, unless if they are not painful to listen to
But most of the time, they are.


So.. all I do now is hope that things go well for you guys,
I am clearly very disposable
You guys made it clear to me


Time to move on Tqah~
And like always, you'll be awesome any way
In Shaa Allah :)

If only

If only you knew how much ache I have felt
If only feelings can be described in words
Then you would understand better

If only you knew how important this is to me
If only you realize how deep this have gone to be
Then you would know better

Every moment,
Every second of my time
I wish you were here by me

Close
but not close enough
The pretense made it further than it should be
The hiding made it difficult than it already is

But through and through
I cant help falling deeper than I have been

That man whom I can't have

Love was never really an easy thing
As beautiful as it is,
The heartache, the pain can sometimes be the whole reason why people give up the idea all over

The whole process of falling in love is tiring.
Truthfully, I am sick and tired of the whole falling in love shit
Its either the jerks..
Or the one whom I can't possibly have

The one I can't have..
Haa

They are the one that makes falling in love feels like the most fun
They make falling in love worth all the effort and heartache
But well..
that's before the heartache really kicks in

You know when you love someone so much.
Despite knowing from the very start that it was near impossible.
Wait! Scrap that...Impossible
to see a future together.

But because of how beautiful it all feels.
Because of how right it feels
Because how he makes the heart ache for him
Because of how it feels like you are his only universe when he looks at you
But mostly just how he makes you feel so happy.. So strong.. and so WORTH IT

Those were why it feels like
'I'll deal with the pain when it comes'
'It will be worth it'
'Things will change'

Fat hope I'll tell you

But then again..
Sometimes..
Only sometimes..
When we hope enough,
miracles can happen

when it all came crashing down.. it dies

I am no longer happy.

I drag myself to places.. I don't want to face people. And  I am not happy about everything. I get flustered about everything. I get defensive over everything. I get pissed off if someone say something that irritates me,.. Even if a little bit.

I dunno what happen to me.
I know I've pissed my bestfriend off. bcoz everytime he says something, I'll just shrug it off and say  'ntah'. The one infamous deadly word. 'NTAH'

It is hard. And my head is agreeing to my mood. How i hurts every now and then. How it drains out my everything.

Idk what I should do.. Should I pursue my happiness elsewhere? Or is this a very big obstacle I need to overcome. Either way, it is not easy.. Never easy.

All I do is hope that this streak ends soon. Eventhough deep down I dunno how that is going to happen if I dun do anything. It feels like right now, I need people to take decision away from me and make it for me.

Living life based on decisions made for you is easier than having to think of what to do and be fearful that it is the wrong choice ever made.

My bday is coming..

Hello saying..

Today is the 11^th. So.. That means that tomorrow is 12^th and it is my BIRTHDAY!!!!

 YAYYY! 

Alhamdulillah..

Lets not get too happy. Its not tomorrow yet. Haha

Like every other year, I will sit and think about what I have achieved the last year and then the bigger scale, thinking about what I have achieved in the 26 years of my life.

I would think that I have not gotten or done much. But in fact, I had done quite a few things I am proud of.

In shaa Allah by my next birthday next year, I can include getting my degree as an achievement that I have accomplished.. I harap2 sangat to get the degree. Because that is the one more thing where I can share that moment ngan my parents and see them so proud and happy.

Ok.. I ade keje.. Later when I free, I will write again ok sayang..

The beauty of it all

Hey Bloggy

Just a few things:

-Exams

-Career

-Wedding

-House

Hehe.. Just 4 things but they all also happen to be the 4 big things in my life right now. 

I am still finding a job. Sending in my resumes.. But on off ah. Kadang-kadang tu mcm malas da nak carik keje lagi..Hahaha.. Asek no calls aje..

My exams are coming tapi like every other semester, I am not really very confident. YET! But it is going to be fine I hope. In Shaa Allah.

My house.. Hmm.. We wait for June for selection and then we see how it goes from there. I macam hoping that we successful.

Wedding..!!! Hahaha... This one is taking up most of the space in my head. The tunang will say ' I pikir banyak2 mcm ade byk sgt bende nak kene buat gitu'

Well darling, theres alot to do..  Orang laki kan. They ingat senang je la kot. -.-

I am in the midst of planning everything out. Thinking of a few places or vendors, pikir kan backups incase yang I want sume takde. I have yet to pikir exactly how and what I want my wedding to look like. I have a rough idea tapi belom fully confirm la.. Skali nyer wedding kan, so I nak everything to be perfect. Walaupon my wedding takde la grand mane.. Biase biase je kot. But it has to run smoothly.

Things to take note on:

-Bridal

-Photographer and cinematography

-Catering and Decoration

-Transport

-Entertainment

-Wedding Car

-Berkat

-Hantaran

-Baju for my family

-My bridesmaids and what they wearing

-KADI

-A few other small small things but super important( sirih2 thingy, pulut)

I think orang tak pernah ade problem thinking about their bridesmaid tapi for me.. Thats one of my problem before everything started. Haha.. Macam takot je ape yang I nak sume tak dapat.. Soon nanti I go propose la. Hahaha..

Ok.. Got to go now sayang.. Lets hope that everything is going fine and smooothly ook..:)

Quite awhile now

Hello dear dear...
It has been awhile since I last write...


Been busy lately.. with stuffs.. haha
Been trying to decide on where to go for our overseas holiday. Got excited over Phuket and Koh Samui of which it then have to be cancelled.. Then GOLD COAST! then again kene cancelled. Now.. Hong Kong!! Hoping this works out man!! hoping so much sey.


I have been trying to get people who love travelling to come follow me in this journey of business. But it sure ain't easy. The market is quite limited right now. And goodness, its difficult man.. Haha.. I am hoping that soon, things change for us and that everything is going to look good for all of us.


School has started and its very mendakkk... Nothing new ya.. Hahah..


Work starting soon now.. Talk to you again ya bloggy...:)

A Testy Week

Hello there baby bloggy


Right now, I am having weird feelings. Like.. My partner in crime have served her last day at work and I have to now endure this place all by myself. Not complaining because this place is sure nice to work in. But who do I have when I need to complain about things. Yeah.. I have Jen.. But she is leaving too.. Very soon rather than later. And after that, I can cruise along the way all by myself


Crap man.. The feeling is definitely sucky to the max ah.. But urgh!!!!!! Got to tahan..


Apart from this weird feeling, I don't know to say if I am mad or upset or disappointed.


Sometimes you work so hard but then when you are not appreciated, it tends to become a bit of a turn off. And who doesn't get piss off by that?!


I think the whole week has become a week of test for all of us. My family I mean. A lot of things are happening around us. Started off with Ally falling sick over the holidays and then Dely following suit. Only to have Ally be admitted to the hospital for like 4 days. What's wrong with her?I have no idea because the doctors in the hospital are not telling anything.. Irritating!!


Well well.. School will be starting soon and I am tired truthfully. Like, there are just too many things to do nowadays..


Times almost up at work.


See you again baby bloggy