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I choose to be random*

I am a happy person because I chose to. Not that I don't have truckloads of things in my mind but its just that I think I'm fortunate enough because I know how to handle my problem at the right given time and people. This few days,my mood hasnt been all that great but still,I smiled my sincerest smile and talk with my sweetest voice.Why? The same old reason,I think you people malas nak dengar da. So..What makes my mood so off? Most of it, its caused by those people around me.They affect my mood.. Haiz. Is it so difficult to put a happy cheerful front for a while.? Is it impossible to just forget about the problem awhile and enjoy life as it is? Its not the end of the world yet if things go wrong..

Right now, things are too complicated for me.Thats because its all not sorted out.No clear indications No clear status No clear explanations.. This is not what I meant when I say 'its ok'. Because this certainly is not ok living in complications and confusion. If this is not what is good then get it off. I am tired controlling tears and putting up an 'ok' expression.Im tired of saying 'cmon' when your only reaction is gonna be something like 'forget it'. So,why am I putting too much effort in something which doesnt concern me,or something which I am playing such a small part in. 1 thing I can say right now is, I am tired.

But still despite all.I am still smiling because I hope by doing so,I could make others,people like you feel lived up again.Feel that you are important and needed. Ask yourself,do you feel like that everytime you hear my voice? Everytime you see me? I doubt so..But despite being heartbroken and sad seeing such state of yours, I tell myself that I cannot show my weaknesses because right now I need to be strong for you. Dammit!! Do you even know or thought of that? Hmm..

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So..its much appreciated if people dun be too k-po and ask me about this post alright.I am just writing on my online diary..I wont answer if you ask me.Or you want a shutup from me,you ask la.But I know I can get very pissed if you bring this up. And also..You people jangan nak perasan that this post is for you people ok..Only me my self and I know who I am referring to..

Yaaheehoo

"Orang yang selalu membuat orang lain ketawa itu adalah orang yang selalu menangis"

Somehow, I find the sentence quite ture.I wont really relate it to myself here in the blog la but when I think and wonder about the sentence, I thought that what was said is true.Amusing,huh?

Exams tomorrow and I am hopeless.I havent study..Not really havent la but I have abit only..

I have too many things to say here but it seems like nothing could come up in my head.Ooh ya..Hows fasting everyone? Well,mine went well..And I enjoyed every single day of it.Weehee..

Liyana,Shikin..kluar jom..? hehe..get back to each other ya..

Okie..I wanna study now..Gtg..Love you people...

happy

I think and I know I am jealous but then..To come to think about it..I'm only human..

Anyway..I am happy if things seems to go perfectly fine for you.I would be happy if things go the way you want it.So..I should stop all this nonsense and be happily living my life as it is now..Changes? Lets just let other people make the decision if it involves me alright.Bcoz at this point,I dun think my decision is needed..So..Oh wells.

Aniwae..Tomorrows an important day!! Waaarrrgghhh!!!! Haha...

All the best baby me!Blurg!

TodAY TODAY

Its the first day of Ramadan today.So..Wishing all Muslims a happy happy month alright.:)

Its the 22nd today and although I cant celebrate my first year with him,I am grateful and happy for this.I mean, I am happy that we could be together to see this day.Haha..And I hope for the long long future too..:)

I am thinking of someone and I'm wondering hows that someone is doing..Haiz...All I can do is pray and hope you take care..:)Come back quick!

Lelaki cadangan

Prince Sky and Princess Almas..They don't keep contact anymore.Hhaa...

*Dan aku sudah pernah bilang
pacarku bukan cuma kamu saja
ku mempunyai dua hati yang tak bisa untuk ku tinggali

Dan aku sudah pernah bilang..
Janganlah kamu terlalu sayang..
dan bila nanti kau menghilang..ku masih punya lelaki cadangan*

This song..Super kurang ajar..Buut I like..Haha...The title of the song "lelaki cadangan..Sung by T2..hEHE..

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Can I say something..I ngah takde mood to study..No mood for fb..No mood for niting..I only wanna do one thing now..And that is singing..I want to sing..Is there any karaoke box or something..

Life of Prince Sky and Princess Almas

There once live a prince Sky and a princess Almas .. The prince, he lead a very happy life and was proudly loved by another princess Milly..Both,they lead the happiest life. Princess Almas on the other hand,she has got a another lover prince Luv too,only that her life, sounds and spells complication.But still, deep down, princess Almas loves prince Luv and hope to see him in her very own future..

Well,soon, a problem arises and this causes prince Sky and princess Almas to grew closer..Despite the fact that theres gonna be more problems,they ditched the possibility and continue on seeing each other. Soon enough, without realising much, love between prince Sky and princess Almas was developed..Who thought it would happen? Well, it did. To prince Sky, it was a mistake but to princess Almas, it happened. Despite all differences and status, they defended their love and believed that one day, when truth came to light, both of them have got to make a decision that obviously will hurt either or both parties.

They lived life per normal.Meeting each other secretly.Keeping both prince Luv and princess Milly in the dark. Until one day, when finally the truth was lurked out,and the king of princess Almas got to know about it. He summoned both princes and princesses to his court and asked for truth. As all was kneeling down bowing down to the king, princess Almas said out the truth.Indeed they are having an affair. The disappointment on Princess Milly's and prince Luv's face was obviously shown.Both princess Almas and prince Sky say their apology and at that moment,as princess Almas looked up at prince Sky, he knew that the decision is now up to him to make..Looking at both the innocent faces,he looked uo to the prince and say
"Princess Almas and me shall not be meeting each other anymore and no more contacts shall be made between us and if we break that rule, we shall be responsible for the punishment that would be put on us."

With tears streaming down princess Almas's cheek, she turned to prince Luv and said her apology.With disappointment on his face, prince Luv took his leave and thats the end of their love.

With pain felt down on prince Sky's heart, he turned to face princess Milly and said his apology.With that said,princess Milly took her leave from the king and thats the end of their happiness and love.

With a last glance made by prince Sky and princess Almas to each other, they turned and princess Almas said," With the wrong we've done,we accept this punishment.As earlier said by prince Sky, after now,we shall not meet or make any contact with each other.I ask for my leave"

With that, princess Almas walked away from the court with tears running fast down her cheeks..

"I asked for my leave" said prince Sky and that was the last,she heard of him.

:)

New blog skin...

Hmm hmm..I went back to check out my cerpen..read them and erm.I am still wondering how my piece can win..But still,Syukur..Maybe theres something the judges see that I dunno.:)

I have to start doing time table for myself.At least for another 2 weeks to come.I dun wan to study at the last minute anymore..No no no!Notes and basic has to be done and understood.Yeah!

I am at home on a Sunday.Urgh! Haha.. Actually quite ok.I can do alot of things today.So yeap. Roller Coaster Kingdom! HAHA...Someones not happy about something.Too bad!! ahha..

Ok..I'm trying to be a happy gerl.I have gtg now..Se you people soon and around ya..Take carez!

hmm hmm :)

I just wanna laugh..Just finished reading someones blog and hahaha...I wanna laugh je la.. Actually today started off quite wth! But only recently..when someone said something was I happy.Haha..Ok I shall stop.ANiwae,I found some cool stuffs on Fb! and haha..Ive got test tomorrow..Die2!!!

Babies..I love you too...And this is too everyone and anyone..

:)

Just a post before I go to study like mad tonite!

As I was trying to study in the afternoon,I listened to Fah's ipod's songs.I was shuffling and shuffling until I came across this particular song.

I am feeling ery very pathetic today.I know very well that anyone who make any mistake will definitely either get a punch from me or maki from me.I know what such rude and inappropriate behaviour.I was with Fah the whole afternoon and I know that she know that I am feeling so down but I am so sure she dunno the acuse to it.I laughed and smiled today,I entertain people who need entertainment despite all the pain and hurt I'm feeling inside.

All I can say is that I feel a sense of unsatisfaction today.I know I can rant to just anyone but being me,I dun want to bother people.They might not understand even.So haa..Its ok.I tried to study today but didnt get to move on to chapter 3.I am not sure myself if I could still remember what I read for the previous chapters.Lucky thing my paper is at 4 tomorrow.Till then,I have many things to rush through.Too many things.

I thought I could survive today with the laughter and all but it caught me shockingly when a streak of tear slide down my cheek.That Fah didn't realise I'm sure. Its just that time when suddenly the tears you've been wanting to come pouring down(but it just wont) came pouring down when you least expect it too.But I manage to control them before anyone could see..Kan Fah? haha.. The song.Its 'soledad' from westlife. To those who dunno what song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F1MipfUd5sc&feature=related

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I am pathetic I know.But hahaha.... I am containing all too much!You will never expect how much I'm limiting myself and just when I could vomit all out.. But all in all..Still at the end of the day..All I do is smile bcoz despite telling myself I have noone,I still do have those people whom eventhough they dunno what's happening,who care to ask about my well-beings. For that, I thank my sincerest thanks.

I'm smiling because of you people around me! :)

Day was ok

I look at a few people and I have to laugh.. Hhaa..Whats with human beings and the world.

So so..Today was ok lor..I think I'm still feeling a bit not here not there. dun feel all much satisfaction and all..Isnt it time for me to just let go?Having pains will only lead to more pains..Haiz..

Too many things in mind and I just can't let it go just yet.I am not making those a big issue but then its still stuck on my head!Haa..Too much.

I want to go far from people I know can?I wanna be alone or with people I really2 want for a moment..Can I?

Blogging

Its 0030am on a Tuesday morning.I should be sleeping since I am sick but there are certain things in mind that doesn't allow me to have my beauty rest. So..Today is another Monday.Another wonderful day.I tried to make full use of the day for myself and also others.If I want to be happy,I have to see someone else happy first right?Isnt that how I live by everyday. At least I hope so..

Tomorrow..I mean later at 12pm,we will be having ICTPM presentation.Then at 4,MCN lab test of which I know I am deadly screwed for it.Haha..I am alwasys screwed for test..Never am I saved from it..But haha...Hopefully,By this week everythings gd and done.Coz,next week is Common Test week!!!Weeeee!!!!YIPPEEEE!!!I just want to get this semester done and over with.If I have to stress,let me stress about my fyp and attachment.I know its difficult but I have to go through them.And at the very least,I am done with studying.I can't seem to go on with it.Haha..Maybe this is the reason why I am so sick..Haha...Darn! Hhaa..

Didnt I say blogger has problem?Yes..And It's making my life difficult.Isk!

My main purpose for blogging is actually to say this..To someone..Whoever you are..But you know..I am saying this to you..

In life,You never always get what you want.Look at the positive side of life.I know very well how difficult and painful it is.I know how lost and confused the feeling can be.It sucked!But live your life at least with a smile.It may not do you anything but knowing that every small or big things happen for a reason,you will come to see how wonderful life can be when you think about it the nicer way.I may not be good at speeches.I may not be able to help you much but know that I am always here for you whenever you need me to.You can complain,rant and scold me if you need to as long as it satisfy you and make you better after those.You know I love you..So dun sad sad alright?

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Niwae..Boyfriend gave me my birthday present after 3 months..Haha...Cool or what..But still,I appreciate it alot.Thank you u...Sayanggggg you..

So people,live life happily k..You are brought down to Earth to learn who you are and form who you will become.I didnt just say that.Its depicted from some inspirational words.

blurg!

Since everyone is complaining about blogger,I will too...Where on the beautifully-created-Earth is the toolbox for blogger?Darn!I thought I was the only one having the prob but after so many complains from dear friends,I realise its not mine...It's blogger's fault!Muahahaha..

OK..First thing up.I have to apologise to NORAZURA for not being able to make it today..Erm..I didn't go to JB but I was tied up at home for having to clean up the house.Blurg!I wanted to go see fireworks pon cannot!Haiz..Sorry ya..But I hope you do well!!!C'mon!!!

2nd thing..Bf came over for awhile..I think for about 20mins?Haha...es...I finally see that bf form in front of me.Hahha..

3rd thing..I have a wonderful couz who couldn't give me free NDP preview tickets!Hmph!Hahah...Ok2..Before he bising2 and nag2 I should clear the air(wawawa..mcm phm!).He has to prioritise family first mah...haha..

4th thing..Ooh..Apart from the red alert projects,I am still not doing anything.Yes..And tomorrow.I promise I am gonna chiong through everything.Yes2..I will!ICTPM will be reconfirmed again.So zura,If you're reading this..Lets reconfirm the plan aites?

5th thing..I am soo screwed!Damn it!Why?HAHA..only I know..

6th thing..I suddenly can't wait to receive my money.OK...I will have to..

OK2..I am tired..As I'm waitiing for my beloved to reach home..I shall try and find something beneficial to do..And the beloved..Please do call me when you're home!Bye people!