The girls..

Oh dear goodness.. May I have the strength and patience to overcome these obstacles..

Meet up with Liyana and Kin after work.. Spend some time with them.. No gossiping this time( not that we always do)..But instead, we chose to all talk about ourselves and the families.. Well, I had the ferst talk when I started singing that song.. 'tentang aku,engkau dan dia'.. I miss the girls so much and I love them more.. 8 years and I have treated them like my own familiy and naturally if one is down. I will feel their pain too..

So what happened was, we poured out our misery and pain and problems.. Am proud that all of us were strong enough to not start crying.. First ourselves then family.. Honestly, I was at the very end of the straw.. I am at my very lost and I am very vulnerable at the point of meeting them.But still I manage to smile. I am sure its the power they both have on me whenever I see them.. Haha..:) They have always been like a rock to me.. Thank you so much girls..

A friendship that was evolved accidentally. A friendship so sincere we could accept each other's shortfalls without a problem.

Girls.. It actually came as a shock to me that so many things happened since the last time we met. Almost all of them bad.. All of us having problems befalling us almost at the same time.. But I am sure and I know that we are all strong enough to handle and overcome this.. This much I hope..

Girls.. Just to let you know that I love you girls soooooo much... Thank you for all your company, advices, jokes and problems.. We shall have more impromptu meet ups in the future ya... Love*

decisions

Confusion mode on.

Well, it has been on for quite some time now.. Basically I'm just confused now. I sincerely do not know what GOD has written my fate as. I do not know how my life will go on from now onwards. I dunno what mistakes I will make as of now. What deeds I will make as of now. What decision I will make as of now.

I dunno what will happen tomorrow. Will I survive a stressful state? Will I handle a bad breakdown? Who will I have to depend on? Who will be by me when I'm down? Will I make decisions that will only backfire to myself? Will that decision eat me up later? Will I live peacefully after the decisions made?

I need two sided advice to make my decisions. I need a real good one.

Liyana.. Shikin..Mane korang???

help me, GOD

There were some moment in ife when you wish you have got everything.. Everything. Money, fame, happiness, love. Yes love.

Ever wonder why its always so hard to find love? My thoughts? It because we are choosy people. Demanding all that much.

*Warning! im getting emotional!*

Days, weeks, months.. They have never really been a good enjoyable one for me. Days after days..Weeks after weeks. Months after months.. Life basically revolve around work.Tiring and stressful. Do I have anyone to talk to? Hmm..Not really? Do I have anyone to share my days with?Not really. We'r not talking family here..

Everyday when I wake up from sleep, I hope something good will happen. Something miraculously wonderful will happen. But again and again I got dissappointment.

Yes, tqah is facing problem. I can solve those problems but I cannot do this alone. Not alone when problems I am facing involve other people. I am tired of people telling me they love me but at the very end all I got is bullshit. I am tired of sweet words when everything else finally just sounds the same.

Currently, at this moment, I am confused. So very much confused.. Who can I talk to? Well, noone.. Just one person. Just that one person. But haiz.. I burden him oh so much already. I dun have the heart to burden him anymore. Haiz...

GOD.. Give me strength and solutions to these problems.

2011

Since I have always been getting blocked by my own brain, lets just talk about something more specific and easy ya..

Lets just talk about the new year..

And so, 2011 is here.. Already living in it. Working in HR dread me even more about accepting the new year. Simply because, it means more work. But enough about work.. So yea.. 2011 is here.. As I sat doing my work earlier today, I realised that,,hey..its already the 10th?! So fast right.. And soon its gonna be the chinese new year..

2010. Hmm.. A very interesting year yet again.The year I got myself a diploma. The year I got myself experienced in many kind job post. I enjoy doing them.. I mean, at the very least I know how fun stock taking can be at times ya. I know how important being a receptionist is. I know how difficult it is to earn money. And this is also the year I got myself a permanent job. A job I dun quite enjoy in the beginning, But well, every job has its flaws and strong points ya. So, sometimes I enjoy the laughter and nonsense that there is in the office. Sometimes when having to deal with this people's attitude, I just wanna give up.

In any way. 2010 was indeed a wonderful year again. Alhamdulillah.Im hoping that 2011 could be somehow better..
What I want for myself this year: a happy me to be a terrible terribly gd gerl

Have a blast people this 2011..!!!!!!!!!!!!

BLURG!

EVERYTIME I WANT TO WRITTE ABOUT SOMETHING, I END UO GETTING BLOCKED! WHENEVER I REACHED INTO THIS PAGE, I BLANKED OUT LIKE NOONES BUSINESS. IT HAPPEN SO MANY TIMES AND I GET FREAKING FRUSTRATED CAUSE I AM NOT ABLE TO EVEN WRITE DOWN WAT I WANT TO WRITE DOWN. HAIZ...

SO NOW, IM STUCKED IN THIS WORLD OF MINE WHERE WERDS CANNOT HELP TO DESCRIBE WHAT I FEEL. POETRIES WRITTEN. BUT WHEN I READ IT AGAIN AND AGAIN I REALISED IM GETTING WORST AND WORST. I CANT WRITE PROPER ANYMORE.

ITS GETTING MORE AND MORE FRUSTRATING BY THE MOMENT.. BY DAY ALSO... STUPID!

OK. GUESS I SHALL JUST GET LOST OK. IRRITATING.. ONCE I HAVE FOUND A WAY TO WRITE PROPERLY AGAIN.. I WILL COME BACK AND WRITE IN YOU YA DEAREST BLOGGY... LOVE YOU BLOGGY.