One of the days when you feel that the whole world is against you. Against your belief.. Against your principles and against all action you have took.
As much as it irritates the shit out of someone, without denying, it hurts the hell out of everybody. Anyway.. Who likes being held against?
Well.. This is just random statement I am making here. No hard feelings whatsoever..
So oh well..
Life? Hows life exactly?
Not that fantastic but I am coping.. What other choices do I have right. Gotta live them and find positiveness in everything that happens. Not complaining at all.
Just that when I stop and think about my life, I get really tired keeping up with everything. I am turning 22 this year. Rather, in about 2 months time.. Is this the age where I am all adult and no-nonsense expected of me or this is the age where I learn the true defination of life, make desicions and have a taste of my own judgement?
Things are moving way too fast for me.. Responsibility for myself, responsibility for my own actions, my future.. Whats lies ahead, I have no idea but I believe they will all be what they will become due to my own actions and decisions. That probably explains why I am concentrating so hard on the money-making process and the chance for a degree course soon..
What I want for my future? Lets not talk about what I want and will insyaallah do for my family. What I want for myself? Easy.. An outstanding career with satisfying pay.. A beautiful life with people I already have in mind.. Sounds difficult.. Ya.. But the difficult part is the process..
I guess I have been too hard on myself. Maybe that explains why I have been sick and recovering is sure not an easy process this time.
Haiz.. Maybe I should stop blogging now.. I'm pressing the keys to the keyboard so hard. Bet if it could speak, it would have asked me to stop! Mental note to myself: Breathe at every step tqah
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