Its late..I should go to sleep..Ya ya I know..
Went training ydae and I would say,the training wasn't like how it usally was...2 reasons..First,everyone was like super hyped-up except for me..I so dunno why..Secondly,despite all that,things was quite intense too..Hahah..We are drama people and sometimes a little bit of real-life drama just among us is good for the soul!!Hhe..
Good news,I liked the name Dang Raya Rani like so damn much and what made me soo happy was that I was given that role to be her..Wa..My name would be Dang Raya Rani for the moment..Happy la sey..Bad news was,I could keep my eyes open during the later part of the training cause I was so sleepy..Dunno why but when I reached home and when head touched pillow,I can't sleep.Crazy!
Today was spend on reading..I finished reading 'To catch a thief' from Christina Skye..I love her books..Haha..Romance ya ya..But still,she always write about Navy guys and all the cool chips they have implanted on them and the cool2 thing they do..I've read like 1/3 of her story creation and I like them all..Gonna move on to another book tomorrow.Maybe I should start first with Susan Mallery..Hha..
Ok.people..I'm tired of typing..So I shall go..Go...and rest my head and eyes..Hha..Nites..
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Saturday, April 4, 2009
sob sob
Unlike the other few days,today I am not feeling too tired..Basically because I woke up 3 or 4 times in the morning..And every time I woke up,I checked my hp..Baby,you should know why..
So..I was sleeping soundly when I was awaken by the noises made by mum and sis and grandma..They were talking about something and bro soon woke up and went to them..I was awake but my body wasn't..So I was still lying like a log when everyone else was panicking and screaming..Actually..Given the situation that happened justnow,just anyone with a fullly-properly-functioned brain would wake up and see whats happening but given my too lazy body and eyes, ignored and try to go to sleep..Until some minute later mummy came to the room and asked me to wake up because my very last and the very small kitty gave birth to another 4 small kitties..Yeap,I know I should woke up earlier but I was too lazy to.So I get up and sat down on the mattress for another 10 mins before I get myself fully awake...
Aunt(whose cat ever gave birth) came over in a matter of minutes after mum called her over..Those cleaning and taking and putting processes made and not even once did I enter the scene..Firstly because I wasn't fully fully awake..Secondly,I dun think I can handle looking at my small kitty suffer and thirdly,too many people at scene and I dun want to give more fear to poor kitty.And so,now shes inside a cage with 3 of her 'child'.1 of them died..Miscarriage they said and I'm still wondering..
And now looking at her in the cage with those 3 very small(like rat) little thing.I am feeling something..Something I dun really know what to describe as.Mummy and daddy want to give them all away together with my kitty..I dunno.I havent protest and say anything about it but bro has protest it but to no avail..I dunno..I dun want my kitty gone.I look at her meowing whenever we're near and seeing her so helpless like that,I could only feel like crying.Imagine a 9-10 year old girl pregnant with triplets.A girl who know nothing about life yet and a girl you've been holding with love alll the time..A girl who can only play and play and have not yet have enough chilldhood trapped in motherhood.Not that I'm saying my kitty was trapped only that it seems like that..I'm crying now!
i think I should just stop now..
So..I was sleeping soundly when I was awaken by the noises made by mum and sis and grandma..They were talking about something and bro soon woke up and went to them..I was awake but my body wasn't..So I was still lying like a log when everyone else was panicking and screaming..Actually..Given the situation that happened justnow,just anyone with a fullly-properly-functioned brain would wake up and see whats happening but given my too lazy body and eyes, ignored and try to go to sleep..Until some minute later mummy came to the room and asked me to wake up because my very last and the very small kitty gave birth to another 4 small kitties..Yeap,I know I should woke up earlier but I was too lazy to.So I get up and sat down on the mattress for another 10 mins before I get myself fully awake...
Aunt(whose cat ever gave birth) came over in a matter of minutes after mum called her over..Those cleaning and taking and putting processes made and not even once did I enter the scene..Firstly because I wasn't fully fully awake..Secondly,I dun think I can handle looking at my small kitty suffer and thirdly,too many people at scene and I dun want to give more fear to poor kitty.And so,now shes inside a cage with 3 of her 'child'.1 of them died..Miscarriage they said and I'm still wondering..
And now looking at her in the cage with those 3 very small(like rat) little thing.I am feeling something..Something I dun really know what to describe as.Mummy and daddy want to give them all away together with my kitty..I dunno.I havent protest and say anything about it but bro has protest it but to no avail..I dunno..I dun want my kitty gone.I look at her meowing whenever we're near and seeing her so helpless like that,I could only feel like crying.Imagine a 9-10 year old girl pregnant with triplets.A girl who know nothing about life yet and a girl you've been holding with love alll the time..A girl who can only play and play and have not yet have enough chilldhood trapped in motherhood.Not that I'm saying my kitty was trapped only that it seems like that..I'm crying now!
i think I should just stop now..
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Feeling kinda like crap!crap!
Its a weird thing.
Lets not talk about my feelings here now cause if you people wanna know why,I'm feeling quite like crap..
Since I've been back from KL,I've been listening to Circus,Womanizer and Just Dance..From Britney Spears the first two and Lady Gaga for the last one..All because,staying in KL for the that 5 days,I've been hearing the song again and again on the radio channel and I seriously want to know how to sing them..And now,I know..!!!Not every word la but at least I know..Hehe..I'm cute..I know!!
And now I;m singing to Shattered Glass by Britney Spears again..And haha..Because that I'm feeling like crap,the song is freaking suitable for the mood and whatmore it to be in a remix version.Hah..
And I'm chatting with a friend...Hahha...What life??
Hahha...I wanna say something but thought better of it..I love my bf.
Lets not talk about my feelings here now cause if you people wanna know why,I'm feeling quite like crap..
Since I've been back from KL,I've been listening to Circus,Womanizer and Just Dance..From Britney Spears the first two and Lady Gaga for the last one..All because,staying in KL for the that 5 days,I've been hearing the song again and again on the radio channel and I seriously want to know how to sing them..And now,I know..!!!Not every word la but at least I know..Hehe..I'm cute..I know!!
And now I;m singing to Shattered Glass by Britney Spears again..And haha..Because that I'm feeling like crap,the song is freaking suitable for the mood and whatmore it to be in a remix version.Hah..
And I'm chatting with a friend...Hahha...What life??
Hahha...I wanna say something but thought better of it..I love my bf.
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