" Life is very beautiful if you live in simplicity. You can find your Happiness in the simplest things. You also find Love by giving Love to others. You can build your own world, loving and caring for others. There you will also find your Happiness."

Written in 2010 by Claudine Patrascu --- Romania

3months has past and I am still surviving in my office. Surviving scoldings, politics, stress headaches, tired self. Everything. Good and congrats I would say for myself.:)

So well, here we go. How is my life so far?

Hmm..Life has been good. Just some unfairness.But then again, when have life ever been fair? Its just how you wanna accept it thats all. So far, I am accepting them all good. With open hands. Hahaha. My social life is a bit limited. World now revolved around work and home work and home.. Im always either too lazy to meet my friends or I can't.

Work is a bitch. Regaining me back all my tension headache. Yan has been persuading me to go see the doctor but hmm..We'll see huh. December to February busy. Waa..I can foresee myself not even realising the new yaer have come.

And damnation..Talking about new year. Its already 21st. Its so freaking fast can? It feels like it was only a few weeks ago, I was welcoming 2010 and now 2011 coming already? Man, thats fast..

Lets just recap what I've achieved this 2010 (tho I know its nothing much)
Hmm,


Alhamdulillah. This is a dream come true. Writing a cerpen was one achievement. Winning is another. Having it turned out into a drama is another. Its indeed the best experience I can ask for or have.

Next.Graduating.Graduating at the supposed time and with all the friends, that indeed was awesome. GPA was back by only a few decimal points but like they say,you get what you earn. Didn't complain about it.


All the other achievements I think is all the jobs I have held. Many positions but I manage to survive through.

And the other one is to finally settle down on a job.

What more can I ask for. Happy 2011..

Smile:)

"When you know you have loved ones but still feel lonely. When you know you can shout but still keep quiet. When you know you should express but still just be ignorant. I love to say I am an attention seeker..but I only seek attention from my loved ones. But when my loved ones are not giving me attention.Then can I go seek from public now?"

I like to think that I can handle everything. I love to think that I can be patient up to a level it would kill. But who am I kidding? I am only human..

When they ask "Hey,what's wrong? tell me." , I only say "Nothing.I'm good"

Some will probe more and some will just try a few bit more and then give up. Not that I give a damn about it.

But you know, what hurts the most is that the people you love, the people who say they love you, when they ask the question. First, you should know that you've hurt me and shouldnt ask.Its either you're plain stupid or you simply wanna keep your ego high by wanting me to TELL you what's wrong with me. Second, you dun go get angry at me for being angry..I am human and I am free of my own feelings and emotions. You dun get angry at me if I dun want to tell you whats wrong.

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Problems would always be problems. Its how you handle them that will determine the outcome of every problem. Haiz..

Thats it.

Lavenver ring

Baby.. Can I have this for our wedding? My wedding ring..Customised with our name engraved on the ring.. *Dreaming

My addiction and obsession for lavender is dangerously crazy..

So..well well.. Gd day.. Good weather to be crawling onto bed and snuggle up with your blanket..

These few days, my urge to write has been tremendously strong,, I need to write.And the need of paper and pen by me has been a necessity. In case I'm free not doing anything for the moment or in case something nice just run into head and I need to jot it down.

I wanna blog about stg but have forgot what about.. And when I can remember what..I shall come back alright.

tired

Pen, paper, blog..They are the best thing in every writer's life. I wont't say so much about me being a writer but at least I've ever write and am still writing when I could find the time.

Reason to why I say those are the best are basically because you don't have to bother people when you write.You don't have to listen to 'why' everytime you say something. You just write what you feel like writing. Any forms.Story..poetry..Journal..

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I've not been feeling too good this few days. Few days back, I was sneezing non-stop(exaggerating) the whole day.. 2 days later, I was coughing and coughing and coughing. The coughing continued till today.

Apart from that,I've been feeling rather cranky these days. Irritate me and I will get really irritated. If I'm all smiles, thats because I am either at work or at home. I get too tired easily. I am seriously not sure whats happening to my body. And dun tell me go see the doctor because I am not going in the near future.

I am tired.

bloggy darling ku..

Hey bloggy darling..

I have the urge to do a second sequel for Princess Almas and Prince Sky..But....I wouldnt want to type down and write because theres too much risk! But its good to know that there are ppl who actually enjoyed reading the ferst sequel for the princess and prince.. Thank you so much..Tho actually I myself think that the story is a little bit mrepek.. hhaa

So,wat have I been up to??

Hmm...Work..Work..Work... hahah .. Wat else can I do right? Hahah..

At this moment now,Ive got ntg much to say.. So.. see u soon k bloggy..:)

Sneer

Its been ages..

You know life..
Sometimes you wonder why is it though you know its impossible to get something but yet, you still crave and wish for them..
Sometimes when you already have something, you always wish you had something better
Sometimes when you love, you just feel that its not right enough
Sometimes when you know to well something is bad and immoral but still you continue to do it.

Thats just how we are.. At times when I wonder and looked at myself in the mirror,I wish I was a baby again and then start life all over again. But I can't guarantee for sure that I wont repeat all those mistakes I've done..

Lifes too short for more mistakes..More hatred..More arguments..More betrayal..More pain.. But why are we still doing all this..Mistakes..Hatred..Argue..Betray..Pain..

Haa..Humans...

Working adult

Waaaaa... My beloved bloggy very quiet.. ahha..So come..Now i update..

A lil snippets on my life currently..

I've started work. Before ppl were to ask me what I am doing again..I shall declare it here alright.. That I am not doing anything related to IT.. Nope nope.. Ive ventured out to Human Resource.. This is because, after many failed attempts, I've decided to give up and try on something new which also do give me a very far future.And that is Human Resource.. Which company Im working in? Erm..No point telling because its not like people know.. Haha..

Its almost my second week working and I have learnt alot.. Really alot..Got to give credits to my manager who have been very patient guiding and helping me along.. Since ours is an international and growing company, many things are supposed to be done..And I can declare myself bus with work from the very first day itself.. This past days, Ive been going home late just to get my work done.

But I never really complained about work. Because I enjoy waking up every morning and walk to work. I enjoy receiving every job that is given to me. I am busy but I love doing what Im doing..At the end of the day, being happy isnt all about doing what you've always been doing.But doing something new and have the passion for it.

Well,enough said about work..Lets go on to today..

Today was a very normal cute day.. Today is what I would say "A blessing in disguise". Haha.. I am soo thankful to him to helped me. It was a big risked,ya.. But at the time, all you can think about is to save urself from being struck by the lightning and returning to office all drenched.. Whoever that guy is..I thank you so much for helping me out..:)

And I wanna thank Halifah for actually coming down all the way to IMM to accompany me out for a half an hour lunch.. Hha.. If there were enough time, I would have gone for some shopping but I know you know.. Haha..But still.Once again..Thank you much much Fah..

An update about just me..Ive been feeling good nowadays.Maybe the good working environment that makes it all even better. I am fine..Just a lil bit sick here and there but as long as I dun get fever, then I am good to go..

And I miss everyone..Sunday..I cant wait.. For those of you who miss me..Text me alright.!:)

I had great fun

It was a very normal outing with bf but actually was a very wonderful one to me..

We started off with the Singapore Flyer..Haha..Ive been wanting to be in the tablet of the flyer and I had my bf to fulfil that one dream of mine.:) I was sooo excited to be in there that I actually got really really nervous and scared as our time neared to enter the tablet..I shall not deny the fact that I was sooooo scared at first.But as it got higher..I guess I kinda got the momentum..Ok..mrepek! But really..As we got higher, I was lesser afraid of everything.In fact, I kinda complained alot when the tablet was reaching the end point.

After the flyer..We walked aimlessly along that particular bridge..Of which at this very moment I forgot what that bridge was called. Walked from one end to another where we took a cab back to Yishun to have our break fast at Eighteen Chef. Food was delicious and super delicious..The price he spent on our food was affordable and realistic..So yea.Go try Eighteen Chef for you those who havent tried. After our meal,we went back home..Now,I'll just post some pics..






Bf..I just love him soo much..:) Thanks dear..

days at home..

Its been oh so very long since I last update my beloved bloggy., haha..

Aniway, let me just tell you people who wants to know how I've been doing..Ive been doing great! Staying at home..Gone to interviews..Hang out with dear sistaz..And boyfriend..

So ya..Life's been great..Only the part where I dun have money to spend..:)

And and ya..One more thing I forgot to add is that Ive been watching movies.. ahaha..Nicey nicey..:)

Seriously ah..I really dunno wat to pose..Though stating at home had been great..But it also mean theres nt much happenings..

:)

Friendship

They say:

Without humor, life SUCKS;
Without courage, life is HARD;
Without love, life is HOPELESS;
Without friends, life is IMPOSSIBLE;

Well, thats what they say..Not what I say or not what I believe..I grew up thinking that I would be lonely and freaky and sick if I dun have friends all round me..I would feel very sad if I were to be alone without my friends around me..

I grew up and went to Poly..There were certain times when I'm left alone..When I have to go for my meals alone..Or when I would have to go for lectures alone..I learn to be with myself..And thank goodness for it.

Now..I cant deny that I do have friends around me..I wont deny that I still do have that few friends who still I go out with..laugh with..talk with..I have Shikin.I have Liyana..I have ..... I have .... haha.. I still do have few friends whom I dun wanna lose..I really dun wanna lose them..

To me..This is what I guess friensdhip should be like..

Friendship are like gardens.
It grows with beauty

I got these quotes from google..Not originally from me..But which I feel is what it truly means to me, i quote them..

But whatever it is..Those friends whom Ive long not talked to and all..Dun worry...You'r always in my mind.

Tiring week

What else can I say?

I am tired and I wanted to say shagged..But I did nothing to want to use the word..So I should just stick with tired and just restless..

I want to eat soo many things..Ice-cream.But I think I shall save that for after my TEST..hahah...See if I would get it for free or having to pay double for it..I want to eat lots of thing but I dunno what at this moment..

This is a very tiring week.I'm sure its gonna be a terribly tiring week..Driving and driving and driving..and work! Woah~just get this week done and over with but with a sure satisfaction.. I hope..Insyaallah..

Work..I cant wait for work..Hahaah..Its because of the money.. money money money~~~

and lastly..I am in love...All over again..:)

KL trip:)

Yea..I'm gonna put up a post on KL trip now ya..

Ok..So, where I've been the last week was to Cameron Highlands for 4 days. Genting Highlands for 1 day and then just walk around at KL for the remaining days..Oh..And celebrated Father's Day at Nikko Hotel..Wooo~~ NOT a big deal but it is too me..Hahah..Nikko Hotel is sooo nice..Especially the surau...Can lepak-lepak and sleep2..Hahha..

So..Since I am too lazy to type too much in here..I shall just upload some pics ya..:)





I had tons of fun:)

Happy 22nd bf..

I'm back in Singapore..Only that this time of the post, I'm not in the mood to talk about the trip..Maybe the next post ya..

So,lets see..I have got the after effects from the trip right there obviously on my face..at least I am very sure thats the reason for what happened to my face..No..I wasnt punched nor am I deformed..Just that the difference in temperature caused my face to be a little bit in a mess..But hey..I'm not complaining..The face proves the trip..ahaha..

So..Well again..Its the 22nd of the month...And it marks the 22nd month of the relationship..AHHa..I am happy though I dun get to meet boyfriend today..I was just wondering how we got this far..Haha..All the fights,argument and all..Miracle huh? hehe

I'm not gonna be so mushy here but just gonna say a few things.

Well,I am a happy girl bf..I hate you for the fights and the arguments but I love you even more when we make up..I know I havent been a good gf but I have always tried to be the best for you..And at the same time the best to everyone else..I am not perfect so if I do make a mistake ever again,guide and teach me through.. Jangan serik ngan I k..

Happy 22nd bf..I love you and will always do..Insyaallah..:)

People..Sorry if this sounded too mushy to you.But I tried to filter everything and came up with this..I might not care about what you people want to think or will think but as a good girl,I think I care too much to ignore..:)

today..

It was a fun day.. Initially I planned going out with Liyana to go to Kelly's but then Muhd Nuh and his friend I believe his name is Rafi tagged along.. It was a very fun day..Filled with laughter and all.. Its like you know.. When you are filled with many stress and all , a laugh can cure it all..Thats what it all needs..No pics..

And so..A few things actually upset me along the day..And boyfie..Its not you ok.. But then..Since I've got the company of these people..It actually turned out quite good.goody..

So..basically..this entry is just about how the company of such wonderful people doesnt make sadness matters..:)

Just a flash back..

Its 1 in the morning..I know..I know my sayang will be super angry with me if he sees the time for this entry..I am so sorry but then I cant seem to go to sleep..Trust me..I tried sleeping..Until it comes to a point so long that I gave up and thought that with my lappy on,I'm distracted and feel tired so I could go to sleep.Im sorry.. I was pushing myself to read so that I could drift off to sleep.So I ended up reading Zura's old blog..I clicked wrongly and ended up with the blog..So thinking,watever la..I just wanna help myself to sleep,I began reading..I read alot..So many time trying to close my eyes to sleep but I still couldnt..

But the thing is,I blogged not because of that..I know it can wait till tomorrow but I want to update now..Hoping Im tired from typing and using my eyes to strain..So I could go to sleep. I was reading Zura's blog and was flashed back to those poly times when we all had soo much fun ..I remembered fearing that I cant adapt life in Nanyang..But with the help of those friends,now I feared not being able to adapt outside of Nanyang..Hha..I remembered how those friends help me adapt at every stage of the poly life..Lets see..:

Year 1: We only when for a 3 days orientation but our bond were so strong..We went to school on the ferst day like as if we all friends of 4 years..I made friends...Normal friends..Close friends..Good friends..I remembered the time when I was sick..They took care of me sooo well.Hha..I love them alot2 you know.. *I dun wanna get started with mcg..Its gonna make my blog even longer.. Year 2: This was the year full of challenges and stuffs..These is where friendship were tested..Patience tested and integrity tested.. Trust me..We three fight alot! Stress alot! And fool around even more..Exams, Lab test, common test, projects, assignments.. They got more and more..My sleep got lesser and lesser and I started depending on coffee.. hahaa...But you know..They best part about it is that we all had each other's back..Supporting,motivating and just loving everyone.. Year 3: I remembered the first day me and Zura got to class..We were welcome by zombies.. HAHA..The class was absolutely quiet and attentive..And for a while I thought I was at the wrong class.. Hha..This time..Project after project..Deadlines after deadlines..School turned hectic and life became more stresful! But at the end of the semester, we passed! Zura and me surived those boring lectures, boring labs and difficult semester..It was good.. Year 3 FYP: I went through fyp with a few bunch of people whom I know.A few bunch..2 or 3..I hate it at first but after meeting my nice supervisor,I was confident of doing things well and being able to adapt..Soon I made friends..I made a friend who happen to be soo kecoh in class and soon dragged me in and then soon enough, I am talking to the whole class..Hah..I meet up with Fah most of the and E8 for most of lunch time..I miss those time..Us asking each other how's our progress so far and then bitching about just about eerything that is wrong with fyp though when I think about it now,it was actually nothing.My fyp life was the best of the whole 3rd year life.. Year 3 IAP: This part..HAHAA...Many funny thngs happen. Time when someone confessed to me and stuff..It was just funny. Being attached to Coca Cola was a big honour..Not everybidy got that chance you know..At first I hate the environment mostly because I am placed in a lonely place alone to do my work.I got no friend and just noone to ask anything. But soon after,I made many friendly friends and they were so nice to even want to talk to me.. aha..It was a cool environment..I love it there..But stilL.I cant deny the fact that I countdown to the end of the IAP..haha ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

But now..I am only thinking back of the times..The 3 precious hectic poly life.. The friends. the lecturers , the moments.. I am a graduate now..I proud graduate from Nanyang polytechnic.. I was initially disappointed for not being able to graduate with my desired gpa but I realised that I actually got more that just a 2.9..I got 5 A's..Its not alot for you smart-asses..But for me..Its the hard work I never thought I could ever put in that means alot too me..Aniwae..2.9 is not that far to a 3.. I graduated with those lovely peoples..I graduated with people from e8..People from my year3 class..People from my fyp lab.. I am happy and I love them alot..My poly life. It indeed was a memorable and awesome journey..And since I am a sentimental person..Trust me..Those memoey will be with me for a very long time..

Bdae

Since I have long update this bloggy without photos, I am gonna do so today..

Last week I went out with Liyana and Shikin. And I thought it was a normal outing day at Yishun..But it turned out otherwise.. And thrust me.. Those surprises, they didnt backfire.. I was PLESANTLY SURPRISED by what I see and what was done for me by them..

So let me just summarise what basically happen ya..Met Liyana and Shikin at Yishun..Went to eat at Pastamania and was surprised with brownie and presents.. Hahaha... Then walked to Safra while we talked..Walked around Safra..Take pics and laugh and sat at the main enttrance lobby and then came Guang Yong and Jiawei.. You know..I was shocked that they were called by these 2 gerls to come down..And went I was told that there were more, I already know who to expect...

Soon we met up with Jeffrey and Johnny and head down to Swensen for dinner.. I didnt eat anything because I was too full you could say.. I was munching on the salad that was actually used to garnish the dish.. Hahha.. Yea, there, came another surprise..I didnt see it coming but there it was..A white bdae cake was placed infront of me..!

I had a blast! I had so much fun..I didnt remember the last time I had so much fun for my bdae celeb..Not that I was asking for anything but it was such a pleasant event.. You wanna know why? Because not only did I get to meet Liyana and Shikin..I also get to meet those guys whom I have sooo long not met and have soooo much sooo missed them..I loved them so much..So so much!!


Thanks guys.. I love you ppl..

I am bored!

Hello lovelies... Yea,I am blogging at 12 at night.. Yea:)

Fah..This post is for you..Since you ask me to update right??

Ok! This is the I dunno how many nights Ive been having difficulties sleeping..I cant sleep easily amd I cant sleep. I can only sleep at 1 or 2 in the morning.. Pathetic..! And then when I wake up early in the morning I feel lethargic! Like in the morning justnow, I am soo freaking tired..But I push myself to do the housechores. I am a good girl!:)

A few things I wanna talk about.. First, I am turning 20 in a day time. Second, I am graduating.Third, I am jobless. Forth, I am bored!

So, first..about turning 20.. I cant believe it man..I have lived 20 years in this planet.. And I am ermm...Happy..No la..What I mean to say is that..Alhamdulillah, I am gonna be 2o. But I feel so regretful because these 20 years of life hadnt been spent properly and happily and just like how it is supposed to be spent like.But well, haha.. whatever..:)

Second.I am graduating..Blurg! I dun have a long sleeve blouse and blah blah blah blah blah.. haha..But you know what, I dun care.. All I care about is being able to graduate..Yessa!!!

Third..About being jobless..This pissed me off like crazy! I need a job like super duper fast...!!:(

And forth..I am bored!! I bored of everything!!! Hahah..I am staying at home and I have run out of things to do.. I mean new un-boring things to do.. Boring ta-u!

And last.. Happy mother's day mummy-ku.. I loveeee you sooo much..:)

Andfor now,I am super lazy to type an entry.. So before I get any worse, I shall go.. Bye lovelies:)

Money money money

Ive earned myself some money on Sunday..Thanks Zura for that.. And the best part about it is that I enjoy the day so much..The work was tiring but at the end of it,it was all fun and accomplished,,Hha..Then the three of us walking and laughing on the way back was sooo nice..Hahah..After so long,I actually get to see my friends.. We talked and laughed about alot of things..Mainly because of Fah..Because she seems to enjoy to think after she talk.. hHA..But you know what Fah..Its that perangai of urs, that makes it nice to laugh at.. Hhaha..

I've been slacking at home..Finding jobs of which I havent been getting yet is quite frustrating...And dammit! But oh well..Wha they always tell me..Be patient..ahaha..I can be..I do best at that..

I know I wanna post something today but I cant remember what..If I remember,I will update again ok..Love you bloggy!

I had fun.:)

I miss my bloggy..Ive got a few things to just talk about..And I feel happy wanna talk about it..

First up..The other Friday night,Daddy brought us all out for a late dinner.He asked for opinion..And since noone had any idea of where to eat,I thought why not we all go to Simpang Bedok and eat..Since Ive never known where that is..And for the fact that I've heard that the food there is all nice,so I thought,why not and go see and taste for myself.. And so,of we went..We went and since its friday night,you can imagine how pack the place is..Walked around and saw mad jack.Went in and start ordering our foods..Imagine our expressions when swe look at the price..But still,we ordered..

But you know,thats not the main reason for me blogging about it..The reason was actually because love the service and also the food there..tHE FOOD IS AWESOME..vERY VERY NICE..The meat,hmmm...Tender..The sauce..WOOOO~ perfecto .. And for some who know how much I despise bad services, the services at mad jack made my meals a very happy and smily one.. The crews as in waiters are very very friendly and I've got nothing more to say but just that the service was excellent. It really was..Its just very very very great..:) So,mad jack was..excellente~

Second now..Saturday,we went to Msia..JB to be precise..We watched movie and we watched 'Clash of the titans'... Woohooo~~~~ And my oh my..The sound was excellent! The animation and all was just as nice..The movie was just purely excellent..Well, I would give it 4.5/5.. the other 0.5 was lost at the one particular scene..But other than that,I sure was enjoying myself..Goody good!!

And now..I've got to go and now deary bf..He just called and since the reception is super bad,I gotta call him bad!! Gtg bloggy.. I love you..

Finally graduating..

The other time I received a letter ffrom NYP..Its a letter saying I'm a confirm graduant from NYP..My oh my was I happy..Well,Though I couldn't graduate with the desired gpa,I can't deny the happiness of finally graduating at the supposed time.3 years..A perfect 3 yrs..Nothing lesser or more. Alhamdulillah..

Graduation gonna be on the 20 May and I am truly happy to receive my diploma.And that might the last of me stepping into NYP i think..Hhaha.I miss the memories I have there but oh well,I gotta let it go. Mu futures ahead..Can't let that go..Must go grab..

I'll hope my graduation goes well and great..I hope..:)

bla bla bla

I realised that the last time I updated was long enough for me to be punished..Sorry dear bloggy. Its just that nothing interesting really happen so far..So well.Let me just talk a lil bit k.

Some of you people are busy with work..Some busy job hunting and others?Well,they are just busy enjoying life?Me? I am at home and out of home job-hunting..Hunting for jobs which I havent been granted of yet.

My free times?I spend them on reading..I certainly miss reading so much and I've spent most of my free time reading sooo many books instead of being online and wasting electricity..Other than that,spending my time with bf on his off days..Weeeee...!! I love him..being with the family when I'm home..Awesome!!

With friends?? It has been ages since I last saw any one of my friends..The last I met with was Liyana and Shikin..Not the others care so mmuch about whether they see or not..Not that I do soo much too..Since I've got my books with me..I'm fine..

And anyway,Ive got something I wanna vent out about but I cant..Coz I dun have the right words for them..I can only feel them..Dammit right? haha..

Bye peepsy.. I wanna go.. And to you some people who are working..Take care..Those job-hunters,all the best..And those enjoying life..haha..Just enjoy them since you still got time too..Hha..

and aniwae..I love you so much..

This post suck!

As I'm typing this ebtry,here I am web cam conferencing with Zura and Fah..And its 3 in the morning!!Wat the hell Tqah!!Go slp la u!!!

So..Lifes been wonderful..Been job hunting and I'm trying to run away from the office surrounding if possible..Maybe retail or F&B..y nt right? ahha

So..You see..Lifes been great..I still have a wonderful family..Awesome bf..Good friends..Things like that la...Actually I am feeling abit WTF now..But ahhh..Watever la..!

This post suck!

THE week

Ok..I'm updating again..

Last week was one of the nice week I've spent with those deary people..

Monday,we, the GG went out after so long..Just a fast brief update on each other and off we all went to have fun at Orchard and then eat and camwhored..I had fun korang..:)

Wednesday,I met up with Zura and Fah at Eunos..And we three headed off to ECP and yea..We had fun yet again..Seeing everyone so fun and enjoying ourselves were so damn shiok!! Seeing these people.OOh and one more thing..I finally touched those roller blades again..And I am soo proud to announce that I fell 4 times..Hhha..But sure..We all have such good laugh oer the fall after we all got up..Hahha..Cute la these girls..Haha...

So thats just basically the week la..Other than that,.theres the day out with the family to JB..then the normal daily housechores.. Its just those la..

And before I head out and gone..To that irritating bf of mine..I love ya..Take care tau...Nanti I meet you again,I punch your face to see if your teeth ok already anot..k??