Im ready..or..m i not?

I am ready for 2008..
I am ready for a new life
I am ready to live life the hard way
I am ready to be hurt again
I am ready to give my care and concern
I am ready to cry again
I am ready to use that 3 words again

Some may ask whats wrong with me and this post.Haha..Its just random.Its something I've been asking myself the whole day today.
Am I falling again over sweet talks or am I really falling because I am sure of it.Its dumb I know but I have a soft heart you see.So its normal for me..Hah..

Question of the day:Am I really ready for it?

Shy!(I think)

Do you believe in horoscopes? I do..Actually 50-50 la..haha

Today was the day I actually sat in front of my lappy to do my 6 page website.Unfortunately, I cannot finish them all today because I need to find a video and I need to take pictures of my family.Thats basically what happen to me today la..

"When a change is necessary, it is necessary. Stop ignoring the way you're feeling."
Ok.I got this thing up there from my friendster daily horoscope.Since the day things turn out badly between me and him,the horoscope have always been tell ing me the exact same thing that I am feeling on that particularly day.Recently,it wasn't really that true but I was shocked by the one today.Just when I thought I would forget that person already for today,I had to go and read the horoscope and think of him all over again.Wa'hhh!!!Ive been asking myself that question justnow,no matter how much I would want to deny it,I would have to say that theres a pull there.And I seriously don't want things to happen again.Man.Why does it always have to be so complicated when it comes to this kind of thing.

So long people..Btw Zura..you're missed.obviously by us..

They won!!

Firstly,Congratulation to Betara Karisma for getting the 2nd place in Khatulistiwa.Congrats to Hairi for getting the best karut award.The paluan ppl for the best paluan award and also for getting the seni kate harapan or best(i dunno which one).I am really really happy for you guys.really!I had fun yesterday.Really had fun.It was tiring,obviously but it was very enjoyable and since this is the first time I actually went to support for such event,I would say,it was quite well done and I seriously didn't know that there are still many people out there who are still active in seni.Good good..

Met Ina at Ngee Ann Poly yesterday when I was queuing up to get in.Really didn't expect to see her there but she is from the dikir barat team in Innova..So it wasn't so shocking to see her there..

Hmm...Zura,you are missed by us.Hhaha.

Went to Toa Payoh after that with family and then off to Pasir Ris to eat and then to the fishing pond and then headed home.It was almost 12 by the time I reach home and for goodness sake,I was so tired la..Haha..But overall,yesterday was a very memorable and a very enjoyable day..

Congrats again guys..Now,lets just let the pic says its piece k..

They were very happy..Really really happy

He won the best karut.

my siblings getting bored

Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha to every Muslim who are celebrating this event yesterday.

Yesterday was another unforgettable day for me.Woke up so early in the morning to help Mum in he kitchen and to do whatever else that I have to do that morning.

All the shop yesterday was closed and Mum had no idea how is gonna get her supplies of potatoes and onions so Dad suggested the wholesale market.That was my first time there and there were really alot of things.After buying all Mum's stuff,we went to IMM...Yea..!!!Yesterday was the first time I stepped my feet in the mall.It was nothing like I expected.There were lots and lots of shops and it was so nice la..Took some pictures.Hhaha..Went to giant to shop for many things and then we went to eat but I didnt eat alot.Haiz..Hhaha..But I really had fun..

From the view inside

The lighting decoration


The tree

Tomorrow is the guy's day.Khatulistiwa,Dikir Barat Competition.God luck to all you guys and go all the way ya..Good Luck..

yea!!

I know it is abit late for this but Congratulation Hady Mirza..Hhaa..I knew you would get that title as Asian Idol.Man,I am so happy for your achievement.You did awesomely well.And Taufik Batisah,his song is so.....nice...Compose more!!haha

I finished my Personal Development.Yea..yea..yea.yea..yea...1 project down..2 more to go..Programming and html!

I miss ky..!!!papa..!!!hahahaha...dun wonder people..!Man,how I wish I can go and have my holiday with him there..Jakarta sey..Well ky,if you are gonna read this..I miss you and I am sure the rest are too..

Zura..I know you want to go take picture with the X'mas tree..Hhaa..Know what.You are talking about it so much that I think me to wanna go take picture with it.Seriously,now I am in the mood of only cam-whoring..Hahah..

I am tired of all these things.Seriously am.Humans,get your fact right.I am writing this at random.I am tired of gossips and I am tired of sensitiveness..
mengapa begitu sukar untuk semuanya mengerti?
apakah hidup ini hanya dijalani dengan apa yang dilihat?
dengan apa yang didengar?
bukankah harus kita mengerti dan memahami sesuatu perkara itu?

mengapa manusia hanya gemar mengata?
mengapa manusia hanya gemar mendengar kata2 orang?
adakah malas untuk bertanya sebuah alasan untuk kita berbuat demikian?
adakah ianya adil untuk si mangsa?

mengapa manusia begitu suka berbual di belakang?
mengapa tidak berterus terang sahaja?
mengapa tidak ditanya sahaja dengan yang empunya diri?
mengapa lebih suka menanya pada yang kurang faham..yang kurang tahu?

takut?
adakah takut akan menjadi alasannya?
mengapa manusia hanya takut pada dunia?
mengapa tidak difikir langsung tentang akhirat?

mengapa begitu suka melakukan?
mengapa pula kita berang jika diperlakukan?

berhentilah wahai saudara ku.
ingatilah masa akan datang
sesungguhnya hidup ini adil
hidup kita tidak sentiasa tenang
ombak akan mendatang juga

Im tired!!

Fantastic!!

Hahha..I had fun today with my family..

Who says we need money to have fun?Well,my family don't.

Today,the Hafiz's family and a neighbour aka my bro's friend aka my bro's schoolmate went to...I can't remember where..Wait,let me think..*******Oh ya..forget.We went to northpoint earlier today to shop for Dinie's school stationery.And that was the place,I found out that Illustrator's and Photoshop's software were sold there for a good price.Am gonna buy those when I got the money.Muahaha..

Then,we went to for I dunno what reason.I think the reason why Dad brought us there was because he wanted to show us that place.He said that the place holds many history and he shows us the longest graveyard justnow.I duno who it belongs to but it is long.As we walk along the path which is beside the forest,I can already feel the breeze.Man,I love the breeze.iT WAS REALLY COOLING LA.We walk and walk and talk and talk..And I took photos.Haha.mostly is of me.hehe..

Then went to eat at Changi village and bla bla bla...We just went around.Seriously, today I can just feel the satisfaction I have never feel before.After eating,decided to went home but Dad brought us all to Lower Seletar where me,Izzati and Mum sat on the ground like nobody's business and laugh and laugh and laugh at each other's nonsense.Haha..Hilarious..

When home to finish up my personal development report and ya..its done.Yea....!!!As I wa doing my work,Mum came in to inform that we are all going to out to get me a new phone.Well,well..I've got the $100 waiver..Haha..And there I go..Hoping I coul get the phone that I want but as expected there are exceptions.And the only phone which was available were the Samsung and Nokia phone.As I have forgotten how to use a Nokia phone,I got myself a Samsung phone.It looks just like Dad's but I like it..

Thanks Ma,Ba for the phone eventhough you don't have to pay a single cent for it but thanks for the ride and also the time you two spent for me..Appreciate ir alot..Ok..Now,let me just post some pictures I took todae k.But without the new phone..

Bro and neighbour

Mum,Dad and Sis

I dunno why he smile that way




Pardon the pathetic face.HAHA


Me,Mum and Sis sitting on the ground

Thank you

Firstly,I am so sad that I couldn't go out with them today.I am so sorry korang.Really-really sorry.

Ok.Yes again,I have to stay at home to wait for Dad to come home.Decided to just read the html book but I can feel that my head is gonna explode if I put in anymore input.So,I decided to face the screen of my lappy again.By now,I am sure everyone can guess what I have been doing with my lappy,right?Ya,I went to youtube in search of more of Mujhse Dosti Karoge's movie clip.I so wanna watch that movie.Anyone,if you are reading this and you happen to have the dvd,please2 tell me k..I need to borrow them.

Chatted with a friend justnow and he just wanted to inform me that he had uploaded my singing video to his youtube site.Man,I appreciate that alot because I have been wanting to listen to myself sing that song.And crap,I sound soooo not nice,..Hahaa..Is it the recording?or is it me?waaaa''''....

Next,chatted with Aameer.The purpose of chatting with him is just to chat.But again,I feel a sense of calmness and I am really2 happy.He never fails to make me smile whenever I am down.Well,Meer,what I told you justnow is real.Heee...Thanks friend.

Now,as I am sitting down here at home updating my blog,I am still feeling abit worried about all my projects and assignments.Haiz.Let's see..

1.Personal Development Report 2.Personal Development presentation 3.HTML website 4.Programming(Tank Calculation) 5.VB's assignment lab 6 and 7

That is alot of work for 2 weeks break.But what to do..Well..well..Ok.Now..Since it has been so long since I last update my blog with photos,I am gonna find whatever photos I can chuck on this blog ya..

The guy who's always making me smile(without him realizing it):

I am sorry for not being able to make it

hee

Still in the bollywood mood..Weeeee..!!!!

Remember

To the precious people I have in my life

Bollywood mood

And ya again,I am listening to bollywood.Man,this is sick.Fancy listening to Bollywood at this period of time.Well..well,but I studied you know.I am just loving it.Listening to their songs and getting the mood and feeling..weeeeee..

Ok,was at Zura's house today to study.After 4 hours,we realized that we have only covered like only 1 week's lecture.Haha..and we have got like 8 more weeks to go la.Hakzz..But good thing,we manage to understand and concentrate on the one week.

Almost 6 when i realized that my study mood had disappear so,I went youtube to download for Bollywood's song.Hahahahaha..And I got myself 4 songs.Happy you know.Thanks Zura for the connection.

Guess I am now in the Bollywood's mood.Haha..There is just this feeling in me that is so funny la.I keep on daydreaming whenever I plug this earpiece to my ear and listening to the songs..But,my hero is missing.I dunno who..Serious.I couldn't even think of one person to take that place or,maybe there is..Haha..well,he have got the Indian blood you know.Wakaaka..haha..

Funny,how the brain works.And ya,I think I better stop blabbering.Hee.I just love my life lots and I love every single one who have once enter my life,or are still in my life.

*Zura,thanks for everything justnow

WT....!!

People may think that it is a small issue but it is a big one for me.A very big one.Guy,you really kill my respect for you.You really did.So the next time I am rude to you,accept it!That "thing" means alot to me but you gave it to someone else,that something you have already gave to me.It hurts alot and I hate you fpr doing so!Well,I know it is up to you and it is a free country but due to some respect,think about it la eh!!!

I didn't expect this to happen but you seriously make it happen!I am frustrated,pissed,disappointed and thousands of other mixed feelings.To cry for such things again is seriously not something I would want to do again.But you make those precious tears almost fall again.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

What bullshit is this? Never promise if you cannot keep it!Never!!!


*It is much appreciated if I won't be questioned about this post
To those who didn't like what I am writing here,Im so sorry but since this is my blog,I have the right to write what I want.

feeling wonderful

Hee..to those people who think that writing a comment is difficult,I have the tag board up already so please feel free to tag.Zura,this blog is incomplete so pleeeeaaaasssseee help me finish up this blog so that it can show its 'face' to other people.Hahaha..Ok.

Been busy with school and everything.Exams just around the corner and I have yet to have everything in my brain.But I will.Don't worry folks!Dikir has been great.And my health is getting a bit better but I do get tired very very easily.

Life has been great.Thank HIM for it.

psssttt:Zura I know you hate this kind of post.It doesnt make sense but I am so lazy ryt now..
giler-geng:hahaa..can't wait to see the band

crying!!

I'm crying.Waaaaaaaahhhhhhaaaaaahhhhaaaa..

So sad.It has been so long since this happen and wen it happen again,all I can do is watch and cry.Call me emotional.I don't care but it shows that I have got a heart.

Didn't have the mood to study today so I decided to just listen and transferring songs to my lappy.And the theme for today is Bollywood.Was listening songs from the movie 'Mujhse dosti karoge' and it was sooooooo sweet la. And then remembered about the DVDs in my cupboard which are collecting dust.So,i took them and watch them in my lappy.Watch 'Har Dil Jo Pyaar Karega' at first and I find it normal.Then,watched 'Chori chori Chupke chupke'..I was listening to their songs while watching the movie and it was ok until it came to the last part.And that is when I realise that theres tears streaming down my cheeks..haha..It was so emotional la.And ya,I just have to cry.Waaaaaahhh!!!

(sorry for the blur)

Time to think!

I've realized that I have got no power and that my energy is limited.

I've realized that love concerns 2 party not 1.
I've realized that life is for once and not for subsequent times
I've realized that when things go wrong,the first person you will find is your mum(i did).
I've finally realized that no matter how irritated you are with your family,you will still go back home

When things go wrong,all I want to do is curl up and cry.
When problem arises,I would only want to push everything aside.

*I want to but I can't because I live my life and if I neglect them,who is gonna finish them?