Done!!Yeah!!!

When there's that little bit of hope

Tank Calculation down.Personal Development down.Website down.Thank goodness.Now,I've got more time to study for my exams..And guess what.?Tomorrow is DE paper..Well,good.And I have yet to sit down to really study.Haha..!Storyboard left now.

Yesterday I feel like killing someone.Then,I dun feel like it and would only want to slap someone.And today,I want to just tell that someone to go away!How pathetic can I get right?

A day

When all I can see is you

I'm feeling soooo happy today.i didn't know the reason behind this happiness..I wont say it was a wonderful,fantastic,awesome day but it was a nice day.
Went to school today to do vb,supposingly 1 hr lecture but was downed to 15 mins only of Digital Electronic and to attend PS meeting.I decided not to join the comp,..So sorry you guys but I do have my reasons for deciding that.PS meeting was fun.Yea..I could hear Jannah "direct" again,amir(dok) laughing like a hyena(no offend),khai sounding so wise and many more la..

Pondok??at the pond??that place made me think.!Of certain things

Creep..Sumtyms I just hate this sixth sense..Haiz..It makes me wonder and wonder and think..

I know I am about to get strike off by some people and I mind..

Breaking-down

When I know about the truth..

I look upon you
I feel the warmth
I can feel the attraction
I'm elated for it
I'm crazy for it
I fear for it
I'm craving for it

Assume..Assume..Assume..That is something you can never stop people from doing.Me too do it sometimes.

I am too happy for you and I really am..But if tear starts pouring,my beloved ones,please tell me to stop.
I tried to avoid it but I couldn't stop the urge to know eventhough I know I will always face with emotional breakdown..

Here's some message for the people I recently talked to this week
Zura: why never come yesterday?!!haha..I know your tired,,joking!
Halifah:You can never get rid of us..And may your life be as fun as it can be with us both around you almost all of the time
Yazid:I have to say,that almost 1 hour we 3 talked with each other,I was very happy.I didntknow you could be that funny la.Orang tanyer laen,laen yang dier jawab.Tak kene mengene langsung..
Syamin:Stop teaching Kenneth all the nonsense can anot?
Kenneth:HAHA..stop ur malay la..
Khad:Thanks for the offer eventough I was kind off the second option.Hope I did well.
Raudha:Thanks for all the time we spend..You know I will always sayang you.Dun give up k!
Liana:I more friend I sayang soo much..
Syamim:Be patient will you?Aiyoh!!

Thats all I have for today.

*Who am I kidding?

A new beginning

When you say you shall love me..

Ok..Another blogskin and ya..I know its not my template but ok la..At least I took the effort to seat here and do it by myself.Was so bored with the previous blog skin so I changed it..

Finally got the pictures for the prouction thingy and thanks to my manager aka make-up artist aka photographer.And ya..Who else right if not Zura.Thanks so much ya..However,I will not post it on the blog for some reasons.

O level result was out yesterday and I really hope those beloved juniors of mine scored really2 well in it..Hope you guys get to go to the various schools you guys had hoped for.Good luck peeps..

You give them food,you play with them..And this is what they give you..I will show a picture of it later.Thanks to my dearest cats for giving that painful scars on me..Painful you know..

My dearest cats

Thats my leg and thats what those cats gave me..(those 2 on top only)

Thanks for accompanying me k you both..Love ya

Saw my mum cooking and saw this veg and I find it nice

And thats all for today..
Thanks for making me smile

you sure?oh..no...

A temporary boyfriend??

I am very2 certain that everyone would think I am joking about this.I think I am..but no..I dun think I am..

Website is one..Done!!It wasnt a perfect 7 page site but I am happy and satisfied upon passing it up.That was something I did by myself and I am happy that I manage to accomplish it by myself.To those who helped me out alot...Thanks to you people too..Appreciate them alot..

I am getting more and more tired as days pass.My back,legs,hands and shoulder are aching and my head is starting to give me the killing headaches,like,again!

What I desperately need now is $60 to pay my handphone bills,many2 panadol extra to keep these headaches from coming back,coffee to get me awake,and 2 days of sleep,at least.

I miss laughing..I miss smiling at my sweetest..I miss being confident of myself..I miss having the guts to rebel.I miss me being me..

Love you

6th sense

Lie to me but I know what's in your mind..

I have my weaknesses and I know I also do have my strengths and up till now I do no know what those strengths are but I have identify one of them..Halifah,you know about them..Keep quiet k..Hahaha...My 6th sense I would say..

I can be acting dumb about it but don't think I didn't notice your every steps..Because I am a people observer and I observe people without you even knowing it.

I love you people..I do..alot in fact..If for once,you enter my head for even a second,you already mean alot to me..I mean it..

To you..thanks eh..hakz

no comments

Have you ever stopped and wonder how a bird in a cage feels?

22 January 2008!!!!!!!!Hhahhaha..A day to laugh at!

No comment for today.Just.I love them so much..

Happy birthday

January: Happy birthday to you..Happy birthday to you..Happy birthday to everyone,happy birthday to you.

12 January : Casandra..Happy birthday..Miss you lots sis
17 January : Happy birthday to Mum..Love her so much..
17 January :Happy birthday to Abang Is..Aiyoh.!!How can I forget your birthday.?
18 January : Mahes..Happy birthday.Hahaha..miss you lots
20 January :Zura...Happy birthday.Smile always ya..Love ya
29 January :Yiru..Happy birthday dude..
31 January :Samantha..Happy birthday.

I can say..Except for my mum and Zura,the rest don't even know about the existence of this blog but I hope these wishes were always to be with them..Miss them lots..love you people

Miss the times

Problem after problem..When will it eventually stop?

VB is like 90% done..Thank goodness..

Was watching the eraya Production video justnow and I laughed again.Haha..It was so funny la..Eventhough I have to say I don't shine..Funny..You people are so cute la..Acted really well.And that person who told me that he was shy,hha..you do look shy at that time..Overall..We all did great..Man,I miss those times..Playing the congkak and everything with Naqiah.Doing the props with some of the people..Miss the laughter and all..Walao.!!Enough..

And I am seriously so tired so I shall go..Bye..Nites..Sweet dreams..

Exams

Some things in life makes you think..The 2 people who LIKE to set me thinking..Zura and Halifah.I did alot of those..

I wanna write.I miss writing alot and I want to do it.I don't care but that aim for the past 2 years had to be achieved by this year..Insyallah..I must try..

0708..You guys made my day today..Haha..After so long,justnow,we actually laughed alot today..Hhaha...

Grades had been good..Not that fantastic but I am grateful of what I had achieved.
Graphic Design : need to really do well for the remaining lab
Networking : Study.study.study
Programming: Depending much on theory now
Personal Development: 2 credits but I must get my A+
CCT : I sooo am pissed off if he really slept that time.I want my A
DEP : 5 credits..Too much but too little werk and knowledge
DE :I want to do well in this
IAD : Theory..HAIZ2...

I am exhausted..If I can get a full body massage,a spa and sleep for the whole day,I would be grateful enough.Really..If energy could be counted,I'm left with only 0.5 only.

ok creep...I need to go do my work..

training

I am so calm now..Thank goodness..

So here,lets update about yesterday's training k..
It was fun arh yesterday..It really was..We had games and also debate..

The game:thanks to Aameer,Khaiman and Khai for pulling my shirt to be in your formed-group.Hahaha..Gerek sey korang...

The debate was fun too..Aameer,Naqiah,Amir(Dok),Wani,Syamim and me were in the same group and the rest the other group..Raudha was with us too but she came late and she said she was lost..Hhaha..Cute la..The topic for the debate was "Seni Melayu tenggelam dengan arus kemodenan"..And we are suppose to support the idea..Guess what?We lost..HAhahahah..
But I still had fun la eventhough we lost..Naqiah is the best debater.Amir is the "worst" debater..Hhah..Eventhough we lose,you guys got something..HAHA..I cant stop laughing thinking about it..Really....ok..THE PIC..

sOORY FOR THE SUPER BAD BLURNESS...

Forfeit:he sang 'Kekasih gelapku'

Forfeit:She sang dangdut song(she even dance to it)

Forfeit:he sang 'bad day'(i think)

Forfeit:he sang 'Lemon Tree'

Forfeit:she sang Hi-5 song

They won the debate

You people are so cute..So sporting la..Hha..Jannah,Wirna and Amir..You people are the people who make me look at seni at a different perspective..Thanks for the friendship you 3 have given me..And I appreciate them alot..May you 3 succeed in your future..Anyway,you 3 are not going yet right..haha

Time

There are just one time in life when you find yourself being in the state of contentment but most of the time,there you are,sitting at the corner,hands up and praying to GOD about all the bad things you have done in life.Is there a right path for you to follow when you have been brought far from the path of rightness...Yeah..There is but you need someone with a very strong determination to be able to get trough..Me???I have yet to find the bravery to walk pass through the difficulties and thus,chose to live together with sadness,fear and dumbness..

looking around
what you see are smiles
what you hear is only laughter
but behind everything,
you hear yourself crying
not being able to smile
not being able to laugh

I never regret living this life.If people misunderstood about this because of the continuous 'complains' i always make,then let me tell,I dun regret having this life.Being where I am now,having this family,having these friends.Being in the situation I am..

Kids..No matter how old you are,if your parents are still alive,you are still a small child to their eyes.Listen to them when you still have got the chance to.Hug and kiss them when you still got the chance to.

I miss the times I spent with these people.I'm sorry I neglect my responsibility due to the busy 'schedule'.But without words,I'm hoping you know that you 4 people are the most precious people in my life and I love you all.Nyai..I miss you alot..

Im scared..

Know what I did justnow to ignore the arguments between my head and heart??
I start to think of the horror movie "Lantai 13" which I watched yesterday.Like wadda...??
And let m tell you this,I'm scared.In addition to that,I will be thinking about the movie "Sundel Bolong" i watched the other day.The face is like still clear to my eye..Euuuwwwww...!!!!!Scared..

Ok..As you are all well-informed,my head and heart are still arguing over who's right or wrong..Haiz..Stop it you guys..

Read something from my email justnow..its generally about the guys point of view..It was really cute la...

And...I know its abit slow of me but I watched Alvin and the chipmunks aready...AaAaAaAaAaAA.....i SOOOOO love it la..shall rate it at 4.5/5..I am so..in love with Alvin..He's so cute..And I was thinking..would it be nice to have chipmunks sing for you instead of humans..Hahahha..And then I realized that the world would eventually be concurred by singing chipmunks.Hahaha..

haiz

My head is just waiting for the time to explode..

Thank goodness VB is about 80% done..I've done my Personal Development's presentation already.And now I am doing my website all over again.Just the first page and I am already struggling..Haiz2...Now left with website and GD storyboard.

Guess my OWN head and heart are playing on me..Been feeling what my head denies and been thinking what my heart denies.It had been difficult but I promise,I shall handle this thing myself.

Zura,you can do it k.Relax la..Dun stress2..Remember,you always do have people who trust and have faith in you..

Halifah,alamak you eh....I like the photos very the much la..Thank you for sending me the photos k..And btw..Tomorrow must do CCT and you have to help me in VB ok??haha..Thank you..Sayang awak!!

And to this person my heart and head are arguing about,I dunno what else to do.Im confused myself and I know I shouldn't have done it at first.

Hug

Open house..
Weeeee....OK la..Nothing exciting happen today.Nothing much la..Basically,I just missed DK and tarian's performances today.Haiz2..Missed.missed..Met Aan,Ilyasa and Firdaus at NYP justnow.They went for the open house.Hhaa..Gerek la u 3..haha..

Ermmmm.....I still want the hug..I want a hug.I want a hug..I want a hug..
I dunno why I am so desperate for a hug but I want it..Hahaa...But still choosy..haha..

Ok people.....: If you are willing to give me a hug, do tell me k..???
haha...

Love you peeps out there lots lots..

haiz..

All I ever want and needed is only blessing..
I don't need any other thing.I am only asking for blessings from the most important people in my life but I guess thats to much to ask for,huh?

I have always want to be a dancer but I have to put that passion aside for the reason of abiding to my parent's say.
I have never ever thought this would have happen.I didn't expect living this life doing that one particular thing which had never been blessed by them.I love my passion and for once,all I'm asking for is to let me eventually do something for myself..Me and for myself...

I think I've been swallowing everything.Things had been happening for so long.And I think I'm just plainly acting dumb.I think I am at the verge of exploding but I can't.I'm just waiting for the right time to erupt but I cant.

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Met a friend justnow by accident.And Aan,you never know how happy I was to see you.Went to eat and then straight back home.We talked about things and all..I am really2 happy.Thank God..

Things happen at DK justnow.It was so unexpected.I didn't see that coming.Seriously I don't.But even if I saw,would I avoid it?Anyway,I would like to say thank you.I feel better,seriously,eventhough I dun mean you when I say it.Thank you friend.

It feels great when sometimes you feel that your loved by sumone.

wadda?

To start things off,today was very tiring..I really2 felt so tired.I dunno why I am updating my blog eventhough i know that I could use the time to sleep.Monday is so tiring....

Went to school like normal and then to training.We did modeling and the emotions thingy again but this time with aameer playing the piano.Modeling was ok la..I had most fun during the emotion thingy.I didn't know that he can play the piano soo well.I was mesmerize by it la eh..Nice..Nice..One more thing,he can also play the VIOLIN...like wadda?????I like I like I like...

I had fun but I am so tired..Sorry for the dead post.

Cry..CRy..CRY..again and again..

Its tears again.
As much as I would want to avoid,I cant.And it is all VB's fault.I wanted to do but it gave me headaches again.So decided to listen to Bollywood songs instead of the normal daily English songs so that I can be in a much more calm state.Again,I watched the medley and suddenly I tell myself this,"If there is one place I can go,it will be to these Bollywood countries.Be a good dancer and work for the tv so that I would be able to be the dancer for any Bollywood movie and yea,meet the actors and actresses there." .Weeee..!!!!Fun right.Well,for those who are saying,"ntah apape je"..haha..up to you all la.I know I like it.Then,watch the movie.Didn't watch eveything la.I just watch some parts and especially the last part and again..tears!!!!!haha..I like to see tears when I watch that movie.

Zura and Halifah,just to warn the both of you first..This coming Monday,I am going to irritate you both with my Bollywood singing k..Hhaha..think my Bollywood nyer mood just came back.

Zura,if there are any other Korean songs which are slow and sentimental,please tell me or send me k..I wanna listen.Was listening to My destiny justnow and then decided to start listening to some other new song so I am depending on Zura to introduce me to them because I dunno anything la.

Halifah!!!!You too k.Introduce me with many2 hindustan movie k..But preferably with Rani Mukherjee in it ok??Hhahh..If possible,makea list for me,then if I'm free,then I will go rent all the movie and then can have a movie marathon.haha..

People...You see..I am so proud to have these 2 people as my very2 close friends.Hhaha.Racial Harmony like that.One can introduce me Korean stuffs an the other about all Hindustan's stuff..HAHaa..I like..!

Ok la.I shall go now.Eh but wait..For the rest,I am proud to have you people as my friends too..Hmmm..And ya..sorry for the Singlish post ya..Wasnt in any mood to write proper English.

bla bla bla

I dunno if I am too tired or its because it is really2 difficult

Decided to do my programming project a moment ago but I realized that I cant start and I dunno how to continue.Wat am I talking?ok.ANiwaez,I cannot do..It is already 12 and it is so not me la to be up so late to do a project.Haha..So I shall blame the tiredness okaiz??Haha..

Wat else to write eh???

Ya....Gerl,realy happy for you kies..You know I am.Right,right?

Oh crap..I cannot stand this anymore.I am starting to get nonsensical her!!!Oooohhh..HELP!!!!!!!!!CALL 995 for me!!!!!!!

Yippee ya ya Yippee yippee ya..!!!

Reminiscing

Sometime it is better to just keep quiet and don't exaggerate.

I may not be that intelligent but I know what I want in my life.I have only want to be happy.The one thing I have always been seeking for.I am not sure if I am asking for too much but I don't feel it yet.I don't need love from any other strangers anymore because strangers are not to be trusted.At least by me only.I want my life back.I want my smiles back.I want the happiness back.Why am I masking my face.?Why am I acting?I never want you to go but you did.I never want to say goodbye but you made me to.I want to be able to put on my sweetest smile again.Smiling had been the thing I don't really do much nowadays.

Friends come and leave but I don't want any leaving anymore.Not because I am lack of friends.I have many of them.

Lies and betrayal happens but I don't want it to happen to me.

Who wouldn't want life to be perfect?

2008 had come.This is the second day of the year.I am grateful that it is a new year.Another year we are allowed to live in.It has only been the second day but I have been thinking alot.

I've realized many thing.There are just too many things I want to make adjustments to this year.They are adjustments I know are manageable.But something is holding me back.Something telling me "No,you can't do it.You don' have the heart to do it.". I know I shouldn't listen to it but I am and I can't seem to stop.

I wish you,darling,a very Happy New Year.This year will be yours.Treasure it.Enjoy your happiness.Don't break it.You know,I will always love you.

Horoscope of the day: Things in your life are loosening up, and you have a lot more wiggle room now.

I agree to it.I appreciate having many things loosed up in life and I definitely have got many2 space now but sometimes aving too much space is not good for the mind.Especially mine.

And finally, papa,I mean Ky,is back from Jakarta.Haha..Thanks for the souvenir aites.

Funny..

Yesterday was such a funny day..HAHAHHAHA...

Don't lie if you cannot do it well.Don't do it if you cant.

Lets start off with yesterday's training.It was one of the best training I've ever had.Good2..Played games and then went on with emotions tingy and acting.Theres fun along the way la..And the game that was improvised by Elfi yesterday was really...indescribable..And I can tell you,I was close to screaming when he shouted.I was already scared like hell and you had to shout.Thanks eh?haha..aniwae,I had fun..
Then,went off with acting.And I was in the same "stage" as Liyana,Ros and Khai and I don't think I will describe the setting aites,since you guys know about what already.I had fun ok.And again guys,whatever I said at debrief yesterday wasn't for anyone.It was said at random.

Went off to meet a friend then while the rest went near to Aameer's house to eat.And I thank HIM so much for making me feel like meeting this friend.I met her and even before I could tell her about something,she saw a message and suddenly we realized that we're actually in the same boat(I shall not say what but I do hope if the person were to read this post,he would understand).Well,not to be arrogant or anything.But guys,before you come up to a girl to memperbodohkan them,think first.I dunno about other girls but if you particularly want to try to memperbodohkan the 4 sistaz,you would want to pt the thought asides because,we can give you a hell of a time.

At 10+ plus,family and me wen to Harbour Front to watch the fireworks and we are standing only at the carpark but still,we can have a view of the fireworks just behind us,but it was not really that clear as there were trees blocking our view but it was nice.Took pictures of it but it was not really a professional shot.Had fun.And yes,yesterday was a fun day.I at least get to see a lie.

Today was ok.Woke up early in the morning to clean the house and then eat and then out from the house,take a cab to go to Lower Seletar to accompany Dad to fish.Fishing I mean..Hahah..Eventhough it was a bit bored,I had fun.There were laughters and shouting and scolding.haha..Fun2..

The fireworks yesterday

Sorry for being slow but Happy New Year everyone.Just remember.A new year doesn't mean having to forget for past years