My boyfriend..

I'm super tired and I dun really want to sit in front of the computer at this very moment..All I want to do is sleep..but its ok..Theres something I just feel like blogging..Its about my love life..And I know I said the 2 previous post might be the last post..

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Well,currently I'm in a very wonderful relationship with a very wonderful guy..Yup,some people might only know him by name..But not talking to him in person and know what he is like..

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Let me just share abit about how things happen..I've known this guy for quite awhile and I find him super irritating..And I mean SUPER irritating!!!But well,as days past,I felt quite attached to him and I feel the want for someone to care and the need for an extra 1 person to love me..Hee..

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Now,I'm with this wonderful irritating guy..But never in our 4 months of relationship have I ever regretted making my choice to be with him..We never fight but arguments just make everything feels great..

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And for the first time at this very own blog of mine..I'm gonna say this..Sayang,I love you so much..I know putting up with all my nonsense with all the patience you have to put in might be difficult..But I love you for all those..I've never asked for anything from you but all I want is that bit of love and protection you promised to give.I know I've hurt you a few times but you put up with all that..Thank you..really..thank you for all those you have been showering me with..I've loved you always and I will always do..And I don't lie about how I feel...I want people to finally know that I'm proud of you and I'm happily in love with a very great guy..

To anyone who have been reading till the end..If you think I'm talking nonsense and its too mushy,then get lost..!But to others who feel the opposite of what I just said,then,no comments!!Because this entry is actually only for SUFYAN HADI!!!!

urgh!!

I miss bf so much...

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I miss zura and fah too....

Ermmm..This might be the last post for the time being..That's because I'm having my upcoming production to worry about and I've got my untouched projects to touch..

Well..Training for production has started to get very very hectic..I am tired myself that this small body of mine has started its aching already and the frequent headache is driving me crazy..

MCGians,we can all make it like how we have always did it..I know all of us can make it..We surely can..I know our months and months of trainings are all gonna be fruitful..Insyaallah.

Before I go,I would just have something said for us to ponder..

WHAT IF you were brought up single handedly(means you were brought up either by ur mum or dad) and ur other parent did not hold any responsibility towards you at all.After a few years later,ur other parent came to see you..Think,would you gladly accept and forgive him and went to meet him with a smile plastered on your face or just bang the door right smack on his/her face?

(And I'm talking about your real parents here)

*Yawn*

Tqah is tired
Tqah is very tired
Tqah is very very tired..

Haiz...I'm missing too many things and I am missing 1 person only...1 guy only..No..make that two..Daddy and bf..OK..Shuts,..Just a little brief update..

Mon was Hari Raya Haji..Hmm..Great day I would say but having to study really2 at the last minute is pathetic.

Tues was..erm..DDI common test..Ok la..

Weds was accounting paper..OK eh..A please la eh..

Thurs was RAD paper..Dun wanna talk abt it la

Fri was Fbodz production..Hahhaha...And they do put up a great show..To me..

Sat was engagement day for both of my couz..Morning til night and that spells T-I-R-E-D.

Sun was staying at home day..

Now I wanna sleep...Wanna wanna sleep but proj not done and all..Hmm..Aimed..By friday I must start doing OOAD..haaizz...OK peeps..I wanna sleepp...

I miss you too.!!Alot..

Stupid !@#$%^(*&^%$

Went to work and earn my 40 bucks today..Alhamdulillah for the rezeki..Heh...OK..I'm gonna say quite abit here..So bear..

I hate kude kepang!!!!!Urgh..!!To anyone who terase,I'm so sorry..But I'm here talking based on my own perspective..I don't like..There were those people and the kude kepangs at the wedding justnow and dumb asses!!!I hate them!I look like an idiotic **** because of them..Imagine me running around and hide myself everytime I saw them approaching near..Urrgghhh!!!!

OK now...I got this..Something that require me to enter my birthdate and my character iis all listed down..Here it is and my own comments for each of them ..I'm born on the 12 May btw!

* Stubborn and hard-hearted~hahaha....my close one will know how true this is
* Strong-willed and highly motivated~Ermm..No idea?
* Sharp thoughts ~Actually ya la..
* Easily angered ~Hahahha...Very the correct.Pity Zura and Fah sometimes
* Attracts others and loves attention ~I already attract bf!Proven!And I do love attention
* Deep feelings ~Very deep..Deeper then the center of the earth
* Beautiful physically and mentally~I am?Oh..I can't deny that fact..Whahaha
* Firm standpoint ~At times..When I sae A,its A
* Easily influenced ~Very the easily.So don't teach me nonsense.I will follow!
* Needs no motivation ~So not true..You think?
* Easily consoled ~True..But i prefer to make ppl's life hard but not being too easy
* Systematic (left brain) ~after a few test I found on the internet,I agree!
* Loves to dream~Woo....Love it more than I could ever say
* Strong clairvoyance~Not quite sure if its strong ah..but got..
* Understanding ~Very the ubderstanding..
* Sickness usually in the ear and neck~Sickness?Haha..So far no..But sensitive?eheh
* Good imagination~Good..!But not creative
* Good debating skills ~Since poly,never did I use them
* Good physical ~People..tell me?
* Weak breathing~ Quite ah..
* Loves literature and the arts~ALOT
* ! Loves traveling~HAHA..YEAP.only no chance to..
* High spirited ~Very..only I' dun quite show it la outside
* Spendthrift ~If only I've got the money..

Yes..ALL DONE..hahahha..I did tell Fah ydae..At times when you have someting like this,go show your close friend.Because it makes then the dos and don'ts..OK..I'm shagged!!!!!Aahahahahaahhaha~!!!!Oh ya...Deary friend,stop all your nonsense..Wake up and go do what you are suppose to do.I've told you alot of times that I'm gonna support you through..Heee...Really.You have my word.

OK..Tqah is going off already..She is really tired and half pissed!

Alhamdulillah..Syukur..

Woohoo...

Ok..scrap the previous entry.I am soo loving life..Alhamdulillah...Thank GOD so much for all the blessing HE have been giving us dear humans.Syukur syukur syukur...

Yeap..I'm a very panick-ed person..I'm a first word person.(I take first word seriously then the 2nd word(understand?))..Watever..!Yeap2..I just make myself worry for nothing..But whatever it is,I am just human to be thinking about the possibilities and also to bear abit of responsibility..

Baby.baby.baby...Hahahahhahahha...Imiss bf soooo much...Haiz...

I am sooo in love with you...

And before I forget..Just these few lines for these 2 gf of mine..Before you girls get very down..Remember this..

Its so hard to know

The way you feel inside

When theres many thoughts

And feelings that you hide

But you might feel better

If you let me walk with you..By your side

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All of the times

When everything is wrong

And your feeling like

Theres no use going on

You cant give it up

Il'l help you work it out..And carry on

Nothing much..But as long as you girls are not yourself,you both will keep on hearing this song on my lips all the time..Tak paham kan?hahaha...nvm!

GOD give me strength

Something is really bothering me at this very moment..I dunno who else to talk to except for bf..But unfortunately he is not available for me to talk to..No offence people.Not that I dun wanna tell you guys anything but its just that things are getting to personal for me to start sharing with the public.You never know what others might start to think about me..Bf,please2 come back quick..

This is definitely very painful and very very scary..You,I'm so scared..I dun want to think of all the nonsensical stuff but I'm only human and its showing la..(I'm not talking about myself if you get what I mean)

Enough said..I've been blogging quite often now.When I should actually be using the time to study.Haiz..Now is already Thursday..First paper is this coming Tuesday..My goodnessAM i READY?I guess not..Haizx!!

Thinking about what elective to choose for year3 is so difficult..Maybe not but for me it has always been..I HATE making choices..!!Urgh..Whats worse is that I have to choose from 4 choices.Haix!

I havent been getting into character for my upcoming production..PLease!!Sometimes looking at all the juniors acting and doing at their very best just pisses me off..Pissed and near to tears..Where is all my acting skills(I know I have them)?I am trying my very bestto enjoy this prodcution and I know I can..I dun want to just enjoy and not making any effort to make my character stands out(I know my real character isnt suppose to).But I want it to..Nobody say anything about my characater but I know I suck at it at this moment now...26 more days Tqah!!!!Wake the hell up!

ok..Now I should be rushing through animation report..Ok..Thats about now people...Bf..When you come back,please remind me to talk to you about the 'issue'..K...Loves people..

Woohoo...Tqah is sooo sweet!!!

What a tiring semester..

Assignments,project,quiz,common test and training is all up in the brain..Hehh..Just in the brain..Not exactly digested in the brain..

I just feel like blogging but dunno about what exactly..Hmm......

I'm bored but studying soon..

And haha..I met like 4 northlanders today..Woo!!!!Syafizah after like so long..Salizah after that..Suprisingly Mikhail after like 3 years..And Aidil finally..Hahhahaha..Sweets...Miss them all..

I want lavender!!!!!!!!!!!u....I nak lavender...!!!!!!Desperately want lavender(I'm just telling you..)I want dance...(Zura,I want dance..)I want run..(Fah,I want run..)

Ok...Thats all people..I'm off..But wait!Before I go off...Zura,you'r most welcome...And yeap..That was very sweet..As a way of showing gratitude,I will give you a present..Wait for your birthday..Hhahahahahahahahaha!!!!

New skin

As the readers can all see..I've changed my blogskin.And yeap,its so not me..But at this moment right now,I really need white for my blogskin.And yeap I got it.So,as you all can expect,I might change my blogskin again at the nearest possible time I could find.

Test and projects are piling up..And I am seriously not in the mood to do anything.But I know I have to do them and yes I will..For I cant afford to play around anymore..

Layar Andayu's production is on the 30th.Seriously,I just can't wait for it to come..I miss acting on stage and I really want the feel of family once again..Haiz..We shall all make this happen ok people.

Hhaha..Life have been all right fair to me..I mean..Days have been turning out wonderful for the past days,weeks,months..Thank GOD for all..And the urge to sing seems to be 'menjadi-jadi' this few days..I know I have a not that wonderful voice but I just wanna sing lor..

Ok..I actually just wanna briefly blog about what had been happening..And yeap,before I go..People,do take care of yourself..Family,friends,bf..I love you people..ALOT!!!!!

Tqah being tagged by mim!!

Second post for the day..Thanks to Muhammad Syamim for making me do this..And for goodness sake..I've got no idea what weird habits I have but I shall try here..

Here goes..10 weird things/habit/little known facts about me:
1. I nag alot..But apparently my siblings like it so much because they dun seem to move an inch even when I start to nag
2. My footwear never last for more that 6 months..They get worn off fast because I drag when I walk.
3. I love talking to myslef and people find that weird..My goodness!
4. I like to bite my nails alot..
5. At the age of 18,I still dunno how to cut my fingernails nicely..
6. I am daddy's girl,so I follow all daddy's bad habit..
7. I NEVER,let me repeat that,NEVER listen to advices..
8. I hate small spaces..Hate!!Hate!!Hate!!
9. I'm a touchy person..I love to touch..haha..
10. I love my dearest bf..

There goes Syamim...I've done my 10 things that I'm suppose to do...Happy now??Hmph!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Hahha..

Ok here goes the 10 people:
1. Norazura
2.Halifah
3.Khad
4.Syimah
5.Rya
6.Jannah
7.Shamin
8.Izzati
9.Khairul
10.Ryan

Here goes..the 10 people...do ok people...Please let me burden you guys abit with this..dONE!!Done!!!

Sis 17th bdae!!

I've got 2 entry to post today so,ya,I think I shall get my butt stuck to the chair for perhaps another hour..

So yeap,first entry was a brief description about what happened on Saturday..Family,friends and bf headed off to East Coast for sis's bbq..It wasn't nothing much..Just a gathering to celebrate her 17th birthday..Enough said..

Birthday girl..(dun mind the extras behind)

The peeps who came to celebrate her birthday

My deary sistaz..

Love you people loads..

Cousin and gf..

Yeap...A big thank to those who helped..Those are basically the people who came to celebrate her birthday together minus her friends of which I dun have their pictures..Khad and Halifah who weren't in the pics..Thanks to you gerls too...Appreciate them alot..

To bf..I know you were damn tired but you helped out alot..Thanks..Lain time I balas pertolongan you k..Heh..Much appreciated..And it was definitely a nice day for me..

flirting skills!!haha

Don't let your flirting skills get rusty! Use more flattery in your conversations

Horoscope for today..Am I suppose to laugh hard or am I suppose to say "What the hell!"Haha...Well,I've not been flirting much like how I used to freely do..I flirt with only 1 guy now and that is not everyday.That's why my flirting skills getting rusty..Hahha...I've not been practising it..Well,well,I've got a reason to flirt now baby..Hhaa..Joking2!!

Life has been very good to me..Alhamdulillah..

A few more days to sis happy day..Hope she'll really2 be happy..And its her bdae tomorrow..'HAPPY BIRTHDAY IZZATI'...

Baby,come back quick..I'm missing you too much aready..

Weird everything..

How does it feel like?

Well..Its already the 2nd month of what's happening and I can see the funny looks and teasing and behaviours of people giving me..Haha..But hell to all..I don't care..

I'm easier to get pissed nowadays.For whatever reason I've got no idea..Smallest shits just bring me down just too easily and showing that f*cked up face seems to be never a miss.What and who irritate me are no big deal but I think its time I learn to be like how I used to be back then..

The fear seems to be haunting everytime I think about it all again.The lost of someone I dun think I can bear..I know a dream is just a dream but I wonder if there's a message behind that?And here as I'm typing,I think of all the people I love.What if they were taken away from me?I dun want them away.I can't bear to lose them.

Suddenly I miss a particular someone..Just a someone..Someone I've not been thinking about for the past 2 months..Baby..Dun think too much..I wonder how he's doing now..But yeap.I think I found the one I truly do want in this lifetime..

People around have been acting weird of late..Or am I the weird one?I've been seeing too many empty space around that I get lost around those space myself(I know I'm not talking sense but bear).I'm trying to make a point here..But I think noone will get it..Well,gd!I shall be as vague as I could..

Dear body is too tired..I need rest and I need sleep.Gone for now..But shall be back for updates when I've got the time to.

Hahhahaa..Smiles!!

Long entry today..Bear with me..Read if u want to..

Multimedia and Infocomm Technology..The course that I am stuck with because of the results I earn for my O levels wasn't that good.But still,I don't blame anything for what I get myself into..Studies for me were always difficult since I'm pathetic at any computer knowledge but I managed..But somehow,this semester is too much..I dunno..I can't seem to be enjoying the classes..As Zura,Halifah and me myself talked about our course,I realised how we all dun really want to be here..Me myself,if given the choice,I might be at Singapore Poly taking Aeronautical..My interest field of all time..Or maybe Accounting at SP also.But I'm here..1 and a half more years..Endure and I shall pray to get my diploma without much problem.

I've been coughing non stop the past weeks..Too tired of coughing..It doesn't seem to stop..Haha..And seeing people eating food at Macdonalds is really2 irritating...Not fair...I want Mac also...Hmph!!!I want drink cold drinks..I want to eat those oily foods again..But now I can't..Because everytime I eat them,I will cough..Stop coming cough cough...Hmph!!!!!

Shamin...I am soooo sorry for not staying to watch your second half performance..I am sooo sorry..Not that I dun want to..But well,my parents came over to fetch me to go somewhere else..So ya,I didn't get to enjoy your great second performance..Now NYPSO done..You should be back to taking care of yourself..Still coughing huh??Yay!!Same2!!!Hhaha..And stop giving me the crap about noone taking care of you thats why you so not terurus like that..You can take care of yourself eventhough you suck at it!!Hhaa..Aniway,nice performance yesterday..

I want to blog about dearest but think that I better not..Let what happen between us just be between us..I love bf so much..And you..No bungalows can measure how much I love you..Hahahahahaaha..

The need for my laptop by this Tuesday..And seriously,lappy havent been sent for servicing..My goodness..Money money..Heh..Patience is the key to life..I know these are all test for me and dear family..And I thank GOD for still giving us the patience and will to go on with our life per normal eventhough with these test you gave down to us..Alhamdulillah..Seeing daddy having to work hard feeding 5 mouths and footing granny's hospital bill and all the house and car bill,I pity him.Dady,if I've got all the will,I would help you..But I know you and mumy wouldn't allow me to work right..Patience..

Nothing much.

Long time since I last blog..

School don't interest me anymore..My goodness..Wonder how I can be saying such things..But nonetheless,I'm still trying my very best to pay attention in every class..It's Thursday today.The 3rd week since school reopen..Lappy is still sick..Poor you.And I think I got the virus from dear lappy..

The dream about getting married 2 nights ago is somehow,hilarious..I wouldn't my wedding in the future to be like that..And I wonder why I've been thinking about marriage so frequently these days..But I'm not desperate for one eh..Haha..Who knows what marriage life could bring me into..Urggh..Studies first..University second..Work third..The rest is for the future to decide..

Looking around,I see how happy people have been..Or just how bad life have been to them..Well,for me..I thank GOD for the life he gave me...The people let me meet in this lifetime..I'm grateful for everything..

Sis..You're bbq is gonna happen k..Just give me all the details and you're gonna celebrate your birthday with your friends on November ok??

Lastly..I just have to say this.I love bf so much..

Tiredness..

Patience is the keyword you have to keep in life...

I'm too tired..Too tired that i can just sleep wherever I am..But at the moment,I have to just blog awhile..

Friday was alright..Love every single moment spent.And thanks for the "everything".

Today..too tired..Just too tired..Maybe for the fact that I'm in no good condition- the headache,the gatal throat,the coughing and the pain at my back.All this together with being on my feet since 10 to 7+ pm..

But this wedding today was what I could say the most enjoyable and fun wedding I've ever went to.Imagine the groom having 4 brothers and 5 sisters.And so those people came to AMK only after 5 and the place was so noisy with laughter and singing people..Songs played by deejays was so the best..The best part was,before the couple went off,the couple,the bride and groom's families came together to sing this particular happy song..They were dancing and shouting I just had to smile looking at them.They were all enjoying themselves..

Well..I want my marriage like that too..Haa..Enough said..I'm heading off to bed anytime now..

Fun funny..

The freaking internet is lagging....

Well well..Let's see..Today is another exciting day..It starts off in school..I was half and hour late ya..Hhaa..Then everything was quite going going ok..Came elective..And I like normal were sitted beside this particular CRAZY guy who made me cover my face a few times because I am just sooo the paiseh...You stop it eh Shamin...I am the freaking paiseh lor..Lucky thing noone hear anything tau.Isk!

After elective is going home time..Wee!!!Bf came for a while justnow and my,am I delighted...Hee..Thanks dear..

Tomorrow's Friday and Animation is first..Urrgghh!!!!
Before I forget..people..if you do have a job vacancy,please2 do tell me...I need a job..I think ah..Gesture will be much appreciated..Heee...

Dear lappy..Please do get well soon ya..Once I've got the money,I will send you to the hospital immediately..I love you lappy..

To every living souls in the world who's reading my blog...I LOVE YOU PEOPLE ALOT!!!!!!

stupid shit!

I enjoy bringing myself to sadness..
I enjoy torturing myself..
I enjoy doing things which make me tear soon after..

Don't ask me what happen people..Tqah is not asking for any attention.She is just trying to say what she feels like saying in her own blog..Her own space.!

Yeap2..I've tried to throw away the freaking habit long time ago but here I am,starting it all over again.**** me!!!*Dun!

I dunno..I'm really2 confused right now..UUrrgghh!!!Someone help me get things off my mind..If sleeping and not remembering it all back after I wake up could help me,I would..Have I really tried my very best holding this responsibility?I've got no freaking idea...I dunno why I could be wanting to go through all that again when I can still remember what I have read before..Self-torture kan!!

I have given what I can
I think i've tried what I can
I pray to GOD for the future journey
I know I'm strong enough
I know I can handle this tough
Never will I let it bring me down
I will make this work..
See me!

haiz..

Lavender never fail to soothe me always...


When you decided to fall in love,
be prepared for all the risk to take..

Ya..I'm not aware of any risk so far choosing this path with him..I hope in the "years" to come,there won't be any either..

Today,I can say that I was so emotional..Haa..Fah and Shamin who made me laugh today..Thanks..Zura at the later part of the day...Thanks..I want to cry so badly right now but I can't..

I miss you so much..It's the 22nd tomorrow..And I can't wait..

-baby,I miss you-

hmmm..

OK now..
just a brief entry ya...

I had tons and tons of fun yesterdae..
I really mean it ok..
To those people who bother to come down,
thousands of thanks to you guys..I appreciate it alot..

Drama peeps..
we did our stuff..
haha..
its done but im missing it now..

Dearest,I love you..
thanks for coming down yesterday eventhough I know you were tired
thanks for rushing with me
thanks for sending me home
and thanks for all,everything..

and last before I forget..
Happy belated birthday
Nur Fatin Atiqah..
May you have a wonderful year ahead ya..
smiles!!!=)

Have fun people!!!

It was quite sometimes since I last blog and its already late night now..So before I go off to sleep,let me just blog a little ya..I dun wanna leave dust on my bloggy..Hee..

So school...School was.OK lor..Haha...I was so enthusiastic about school on Monday only and after that,I get tired,lazy and the normal feeling came all over again..Haha..This semester seems to be so dry la the lessons but will try hard to cope..

Spending the week with some drama people were sooo enjoyable..A 2-3 days practice for tomorrow's show was great..I really2 miss acting once again..Aand haha,I definitely enjoy every singl second we all spend together..Discovering many nonsensical things with you people all..

So MCGians...We shall all make tomorrow's event a successful one ok??Have fun drama people acting...HahA...Tqah sayanggggg korang..Hahahahhah....

ok NOW...I've got to sleep because mumy is already shouting asking me to sleep and I'm scared tomorrow morning I cannot wake up and then later someone scold me..Hhaa..Goddnight poeople..

Loved

Just another long entry..

First thing before I update my blog..Let me just reply the tag of these 3 'lovely' guys..NotSatisfiable,Yanhadi and Shamin..Ok??Bear with me people..

NotSatisfiable: lol...are you really tat bored? trying jumping off a building with parachute
Tqah:Yes..I am that bored..Very bored in fact!!jump off with parachute?why parachute??i'd rather without it!!More fun lor..

yanhadi: haha..cian awk rot rot rot
Tqah:Cian??Well,is that all you can say??cian??hmph!!

Shamin: rot ehh... kawin ah! baru tak rot seh! lol!
Tqah:kawin??you think getting marrid so easy is it?Walao!!!If easy I marry aready tau..Money man!money..tak sabar2 ke nak makan nasi minyak?Isk!

Well.The reason why Hawa's tag was replied at the tagboard is because her tag was so easy to reply while these 3 guys' are soo quite difficult to reply you see..

OK now.For the proper update..Thursday was fun althought I could say I spend quite a few times crying..Haha..But yeah,the outing with the 2 lovely ladies,Zura and Fah was indeed a relaxing and exciting one for me..Thank you for even inviting me out..Hah..And Zura,thanks for the book!!And niwae..I've finished reading and the book is great..You?

School is starting in less than 48 more hours..Haha..I should say,I'm happy to be going back to school..For certain reasons..Haa..One of them of which I think bf knows..Right?

I've yet to go out and do my collection..I've not been to even 1 house to start my collection.NOT EVEN ONE HOUSE!!and that is really pathetic.

Next Friday,I'm looking forward to it.I dunno why but I am.Haa..You know?To think that if you still have your bestfriend with you up till now,feels great but well,that was all in the past..A normal Friday it would be on the 17 October but I think to someone,it will be quite a day.Hah..And for the fact that its perjumpaan Hari Raye in school.And insyaallah kalau takde pape,I'll be able to meet bf on that day..i MISS HIM LIKE !@#$%^&&(*&^%$#@..i DUNNO HOW TO DESCRIBE HOW MUCH i MISS HIM!and I was hoping I could somehow go to your camp and surprise you and in other words fetch you to school with me..Haa..But we both know I can't!

Ohk..I think my entry is freaking long aready and I'm tired..If bf is gonna call tonite,then I'd better reserve my energy for talking to him later but if he's not going to.Then maybe for tomorrow.So long people..
Loved!!

Wants and wants

Rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot..I actually typed all that,word by word ok..I didn't right click and click copy-paste nor did I 'ctrl-c','ctrl-v'..Man.I'm in desperate need to loose up..I wanna dance can?I wanna go out can?

But here I am rotting at home singing to 'Turn me on' from Kevin Lyttle(Wth!!I know)...Internet no longer interest me..Books bore me..Tv irritate me..Urrgghh..Gi tinggal kat zOO sudah..Kat hutan ke!!! Walao!!What's with tomorrow's outing mcm cancelled gitu..I'm dead bored!!

WAIt let me see..A few things I have to do but I haven't yet did anything..Let's see.
1.Go rooftop Esplanade
2.Go all over Singapore to find that dress I fall in love with at Bazaar Woodlands and BUY!!
3.Go movie marathon
4.Singapore Flyer
5.Go Clarke Quay....Dunno for wat
6.Outing with 4 sis
7.Plan Izzati's bbq..Did nothing at all yet
8.Go Vivo..I want the wind and the water
9.Spend the entire day with my dearest dearest boyfriend..(seems like a few hours is not enuf.heh)

UUURRRGGGHHHHH!!!!!I know all this will stay as a want only.I won't really have the chance to really do all this.And yeap,dear friends and all,those who ade hati nak bring me go fulfil this lifelong dream of mine please do tell me and I will try-get this- I will try to make the time.I'll either beg daddy or clean the house or not sleep at all just so daddy could grant me the permission to go out..

And this 'low' is really really really sengaje tau..Da tau I want to dance lagi...ISK!!!!!!
OK people...I wanna go la..Bored-ing la...Ok...And I miss everyone..Hope I'm missed too..k??

I wish I wish..

How I wish I'm a better daughter to my parents
How I wish I'm a better sister to my younger siblings
How I wish I'm a better friend to all my friends
How I wish I'm a better girlfriend to my boyfriend
How I wish I'm a better worshiper
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How I wish.We all want perfection in life.Everyone want to be better in everything they do.Well,me too.I've always tried to be a better person..I'm a daughter,a sister,a friend,a girlfriend and I am a slave to GOD...I dunno if anyone might think I should improve the way I am now.I want the best for myself and I want to be better in everything..

I'm asking for too much,ya I know.But it's human's nature to be asking for too much,right? I'm tired and it seems to be the only phrase I know how to say properly recently..Everyone else are tired too but they dun complain.Well,I didn't complain but I'm just exclaiming..Dong!

Enough of this shit ya...Now let's move on to my aunt's nikah today..

Congrats to me and Kak Netty for successfully dolling up the bride together with her tudung..Yes Kak,we can both start up an 'andam' business ya.Haha..I certainly had much fun today..Spent the time talking to my cousins.Those I think I've only talked 3 words to all thiese while.Yeah,I talked more than a sentence with them today.Hee..Today was fun..But I felt an ache on my shoulder.It will go away..Hha..So now,lets just post a few pics ya..And since I dun want to disturb the akad nikah,I didn't on the flash so the pics a bit dark..





-Linger- -I love u-

Selamat ari raye..

I m so mmmmiiiiissssssiiiiinnnnnngggggg peoples...!!haha...

And to all MUSLIMs,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

Kalau Tqah ade buat salah silap tu,Tqah mintak maaf banyak2 ye..Maaf kan tau..Bulan Syawal nie kalau tak maafkan dose tau..Heee....

Actually banyak nak update tapi banyak sangat la..Malas..Not now..Later later la ye..Ok people..ALL ARE LOVED!!!!

*I seriously2 feel so weird having my entry like this,but I'm currently not in the mood to write properly...Hee..

Smiles..Havee fun people..

ps:Shamin!!!!!!!!!Waa..sedap je cakap aku da gatal eh..Isk!!!wat a fren...Kalau aku da gatal pon,nak kahwin aku tau..Dapat kau makan nasi minyak..Haha/..

If Alonso won,I would blog..Haha..And yea,he won..!!Woohoo..!!Hha..Pity Massa,really...But Alonso's winning cover it up....Dear!!!Who say he's not good!!Bluek!!!!

Ok so,I've been so busy with things to do at home.That explains why I'm blogging only now,at almost 4 in the morning.At which I think I know someone's gonna scold me if he know I didn't sleep at all yet!

This year..Hectic time for a Hari Raya..REally!!What's with daddy not coming home because there's too many work..Sis studying for O's..Mumy getting bro to study for his upcoming exams in a week time..And mummy sewing the curtains..My goodness..And I'm left with all the house chores alone..I clean up bro's room and the living room,kitchen and now Im left with my room..I'm shagged!!!!!!!!!

Ok enough about Raya..I had this conversation with mumy the other day

Me:Ma,when you get married that time,did you feel any different the next day?
Mummy: No,I feel the same.Only that I'm a wife
Me:You really feel no different?
Mummy:No..Y?You wanna get married is it?

Actually I was doing something when I was thinking about when I get married one day..I wonder how it will be..I mean today I'm cooking for myself.But tomorrow I'm cooking for my husband.I mean,won't the feeling just be different.Today you belong to yourself but tomorrow you are your husband's..Ok enough..I've been thinking about marriage..Da gatal sangat nak kahwin agaknyer!!

Iftar..

Went to MCG iftar yesterday and man..I had tons of fun..Hahaha...Really2..I had lots of fun sey..Hhee...Actually i was expecting the whole E308 to be full of people but apparently the room was less than half full..Hha..But nonetheless,I had lots and lots of fun.Hmm..Thanks to those who came and made my day so wonderful....Ya2?

Ermm...Well,going to the iftar yesterday wasn't a mistake at all..Those people were so funny and I miss them all la.. Unfortunately, I didn't take any pic but if you really2 need the pic you can go to Rya's blog kies??Hhaha...(See Rya,I promoting your blog)

And meeting that someone was nice.But.....the teasing part from my fellow deary Mcgians was not a nice one ok??I know I didn't blush..That I know but I was sooo the freaking shy ok???Hish!!!

But dear,It was nice seeing you yesterday eventhough it was nothing much.But you know just meeting you means alot already..And I'm sorry if at the later part I seem distracted.You know what was on my mind right but seriously I've got no idea why I let it be such a big thing to think about..Hhaa..Weird right?I know I know..

Before I end...NORAZURA RAZALI and HALIFAH HAMZAH....I MISS YOU TWO LOTS LOTS OK...LOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That classmate of mine..I know you still have got lots to tell me kan??And I miss listening to all the stories..Fill me up with those stories soon ya..When I've got the time to go online again ya..

ps:I am curious and want to really2 know who this bff of urs is...

-I'm missing Lavender-

Tagged

1. The person who tag you is? :
- Norazura Razali
2. Your relationship with him/her is? :
- My kakak Zura..Heh..
3. Your five impressions of him/her? :
- Understanding..Pretty2..Funny..Lame..Talented.
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you? :
- Wait..let me think??Ohh ya..She brought me to Esplanade..Weee...Love you man..
5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you? :
- "I miss you like crazy!@#$%^&*&^%$#@#$%^&&" .. haha
6.If he/she become your lover, you will? :
- lover kepe?? i dun think so,she's too hard to get..
7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be? :
- stop giving me advices..lover kan?? haha..jk!
8.If he/she become your enemy, you will? :
- ermm..Ignore her??but I think,nah..she's a great fren to be my enemy
9.If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be? :
-she has nice voice...though she always deny the fact!bluek
10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is? :
- go over to her place and shout "I MISS YOU!!".. hahaha
11. Your overall impression of him/her is? :
- a very suitable bimbo-tic sister to me..hahahahahaha
12. How you think people around you will feel about you? :
- Great,I hope..
13. The characters you love of yourself are? :
- I forgive too easily
14.On the contrary, the characteristics you hate most about yourself are? :
- Trust people tooooo easily
15. The most ideal person you want to be is? :
- Just me!
16. For people that care and like you, say something to them? :
- I LOVE YOU WITH ALLLLL my heart!!
17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you pass to people that have blogs only.
1. Nurizzati
2.Shamin
3.Ros
4.Wani
5.Khairul
6.Yan
7.No one
8.No one
9. No one
10. No one

18.Who is no.6 having relationship with? :Creep..I didnt realize this..Ermm.Me?? *Shy*
19. Is no.9 a male or female? No idea..
20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? : Think so..Ermm?
21. What is no.2 studying about? : Multimedia Infocomm..Like me..mY CLASSMATE ANIWAY..hHAHA
22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? : eRMM...dECADES AGO!
23. What kind of music band does no.8 like? : tECHNO i THINK??hHAHA..urgh!
24. Does no.1 have any siblings? : Yeap..I am the sibling and my bro too..Hhee
25. Will you woo no.3? : Yes.Definitely.!Save me my bill for dental check-up..haha.joking Rose
26. How about no.7? : No..I'm happily attached already.Hehe.
27. Is no.4 single? : I think so??
28. What is the surname of no.5? : Ermmm..Sanusi??Kan2??
29.What’s the hobby of no.10? : Flying...Woohoo..Bring me

Ok..THAT'S DONE..tHE BIGGESTAND SINCEREST THANKS to NORAZURA RAZALI for making me do this..Boredom gone man..hHAHA..

Wanna write more but I've got to go..Maybe shall update again tomorrow ya..See ya..

ps: Aniway,is there like any time we have to come for tomorrow's iftar?

School..

Well well..Did what I did in the morning justnow.I've wished deary..And kesian he have to be in camp today..But its ok ya..

Hmm now..School will be starting on the 13th October.Is that good or bad,I dunno..But what's for sure is that I have to work my way for 3-pointers.Haa..I'm gonna make someone spend his money on me man..Haha..

Timetable..Can I say it was a bitch..No breaks at all..Except for the self-study period..And I am still wondering how lessons on Friday would be carried out since class starts at 8-5 I guess without a single break..No night class.This time I dunno if that's good news since we have got no breaks at all.

Cost accounting for my elective..Yay.I got it.Like finally..I really hoped its a blessing to get it..May it somehow helped me in my journey to a 3.

2friends seems to be happy with life..1 I'm very sure he is.Another I think somehow he is since he's got a new target aready.Long to hear from the 2 ladies,Zura and Halifah..MCG peeps?I dunno anything about them.Except for Mim who is working now.That info was also fed by someone..Hha..I sound like I'm spying him.Hee..The rest,I really have got no idea..

And I think I'm tired of my blog already...So I think in these short perios of time,I think bloggy's gonna have a new look..

ps:To the people who have been reading my blog yang tak seberape nie..Thank you..

the first month..its the start

Well well...It's the 22nd..Hha..

Why does it have to be today?Hmph.
But its ok..

Well..Time flies soo fast ah..
When talking on the phone yesterday
I actually let my mind wander
And suddenly I remembered that in a few minutes time it will be the 22nd of the month..

It has been so long since I enjoy this kind of day every month
and now, having it come today
somehow feels funny
but trust me,I suddenly feel like 1 silly gerl
hehe..

I've never felt so much 'sebak' when I say those words..
But somehow yesterday at 12:01, I felt it
after those words are said...

Hmm...I dun wan to get emotional here..
so let me just end this ya..
I have and I will always appreciate the love and care you give/gave me..

tomorrow...

I wonder..

Its Sunday and tomorrow is Monday..Arrgghh...

I've got no idea what to write here because I think nobody actually come to visit conditionofmyheart except for deary but its gonna be for awhile before he could come visit again.

I'm bored
I miss
I love

Oi 30-second guy..Haha..I dunno if you're ever going to read this before tomorrow but take care ya..Haha......It's a start tomorrow.All the best....And and.... haha..Not gonna say it here..

And to other other people who still sudi to come and read by entries..WOOO..yOU PEOPLE ARE LOVED MAN...haha..Love love you people all....

Waarrgghh...

I know that my Italian is just basic..I know that I've been learning Italian..But someone was such a dear to write me a tag in Italian..My goodness..!And I thought it was such easy words like 'grazie' , 'prego' , 'bellissima'(not that I'm hoping he will say those) or something like that but it was 1 sentence I didn't know a meaning for 1 word at all..Isk!But its ok..

Hmmm..I really feel like smacking one person tau..I thought mati2 dier da update the blog..But he havent!Creep..And now I have to be the first to update ah nie..Urgh..!Well yeah ok..

Wednesday was "fun"!No elaborating..It was fun,period!!
Thursday was ermm......ok lor..Hhaha...Didn't do much..Watch sis shopped at Bugis Street and that wasn't enjoyable at all..Coz I have to resist myself from buying stuffs I fall in love with at first sight..Waarrgghh!!Sad..

And today I was given another news at 1000hrs..Well,I wouldn't sae its a sad one but it could have been better..but its ok..Wherever it is,it is still possible to meet.Yeap.?Heh!

Hmm..Next week 2 important days I just have to just sit and wait for the day to be over..

Love awak!

Alhamdulillah

First,let me thank GOD and everyone who have been helping me alot in my studies..Especially Zura and Fah..Well,I didn't score that well for this semester but I improved and my grade was very2 satisfying.Alhamdulilah..And after checking the results with my target,I realised that I am on target for Maths,6 modules above target and the rest below target.Haha.But in any way,I am happy.

Now..Let me see..I miss Zura and Fah alot..It has been so long since we last met huh?And I'm sure kalau da jumpe nie mesti many story..Hehe..

Life is really so unpredictable ah..This minute you can hate someone but in another,you will fall head over heels for that someone.Hhaa..Now,I have to thank GOD for all the blessing , all the life and all the love HE created for me.

I'm too grateful for the people who have come and leave,come and stay and come and leave a footprint on my heart..Heh..Emotional,I know.Wekz..But really..

For a particular someone,you know how I feel and ya,I've never regretted so far
For a particular friend..I miss you and I hope I see you today...

Bored

Hmm..

Someone was so sweet to write an entry for ehem..me.Hee

Well,Like I've said.Don't think about it and stop blaming urself about whatever that is happening k.I've never for a while blame you but myself.Well,I didn't expect any of it what.And niway,everything is aready alright.So smiles =)

I know I've not been updating this blog of mine but hmm,I've got nothing to blog about..I've been rotting at home with preparation for Hari Raya.Still early I know but there are too many extra things to do this year.And to dearest,2 outings failed.I'm so sory..But you understand kan?Thank you.You're loved

And now I've been waiting for 2 person's reply on my handphone but it was silent since morning.Raudha's and dearest but no reply..I've got a feeling dfearest blom wake up.Haaa..OK2 got to go..

To everyone else,I misss you guys lots2.

hehe

I can't go out today.
Know how sad that is?
Tsk.

Erm..
Tomorrow is gonna be another day..
A day I can't wait.
After 13 days..
Finally tomorrow,insyaallah

And now someone paiseh to eat ..
Hhaha...
Walao..
Eat je la..
malu rugi u know..
Ur loved.

Blog aready k.

Ok now..I've realised that conditionofmyheart was 'abandon' by its owner...And because someone want me to,I shall update..

Er..Let's see..I didn't go SUNTEC FINAL and I am so sorry NORAZURA RAZALI..
My lappy has finally buat perangai and it is so kurang ajar coz I have to keluarkan 80+ bucks for servicing.Damn!
I've been rotting at home doing house chores and help in the kitchen,other then that,I read.
I need to work but I'm too lazy to go find one and finding a job is difficult..Why la bulan puase got no one kahwin?Haiz...
I miss someone.Hee
And I havent ask daddy yet about tomorrow..Haha

Aiyo,I dunno what to blog about la..What is for sure I very bored....

Alhamdulillah..

My goodness!!!

Can I say this? I hate holidays!!!! And I shall be shot and dead in a few minutes..Waaarggh!!Lame Tqah..I know I know..!!This si what happen when I get tooo bored not knowing what to do..

Finish 1 book today and the book was ..Ermm.Ok lor..Well.Christina Skye has always been my favourite and afew others too..Got 1 more book before starting the series of ' Ombak Rindu' from Rya.. Suddenly it seems like reading is so boring..But its still what I do lor..3 movies I've not yet watched..Maybe watching the marathon tomorrow after sahur..It's time I learn how to wake up early eh..

I'm smiling everyday and I thank HIM for it all...It's 3rd Sept today and it has already been 12 days since it began..Days were wonderful..Thanks to deary..Thanks to everyone..

I seemed to be missing people too fast..
I'm missing my 2 crazy perempuan2 jelita(bluek!) aready
my fun classmates
my sistaz(and I mean the completed one eh)
those tak betolz MCGians
deary

And I think I want something right now..Really2 badly want something..But heh,shall not say it here..Malu!

Got to go people..
So long..

-Loved.You know it matters-

RSAF outing and Teacher's day

Ermm yeap..I went to the RSAF open house yesterday..Yay!!Like finally la..Hee..Went with Liyana and my bro.Had fun man..And I shall not tell here how I actually reacted when I looked at the planes.It was somehow a nice day out with my dearest 'kak Long'(Liyana, i mean)..Thanks for the day ya..

After which,we waited for Shikin for half an hour at Yishun before heading off to Mr Shaiful's house.Anak dier cukor rambot la!!Haha..So ya..Sat there for almost 3 hours talking and crapping with that teacher.Hehe..Had fun once again..

OK.people..I had lots and lots of fun..Aiyo..That someone not there to be with me so I go with some other people lor..Heh..

Teacher's day was alright..Spend my time with Khairul,Aishah,Liyana,Muhd Nuh and Rafiq,,Had fun with you people man..



Want to post one more pic but I might get killed if Liyana know I post that pic..ic Hhee..

Ermm.To the Muslims'.... Selamat menyambut bulan Ramadan ye...Smiles smiles always..

OK people...I got to go now.Bye

-Loved-